Life is such..

On Thurs..Mama called.. said.. I've got bad news...

I was thinkin of d worst.. abt that unconcious woman her sons..

But wat i heard..was...she separated from her hub... n no its not that unconcious woman i'm talkin abt...

I was sad.. it made me sadder still when Mama added.. she don wan her kids and wans her mum (MM) to look after them.. i nearly cried... Mir and Ikh..they are still young!! they need u!!
the irony was that.. for class on wed.. we were told to choose a topic from child abuse...divorce..family violence and maid watevers..n i chose DIVORCE!! n this happens d next day...wat happen?? where did u guys went wrong? Wat led u astray?? I tot u left that 'habit' of urs?

I m sad.. this have to happen..jodoh di tangan tuhan kan.... *sigh*

And today...as i was about to leave the centre.. i received an sms..from mrsmereee...

dat sms..really stabbed my heart...i felt suffocated..

i canceled our plans for this wkend... lookin fwd to meet my sec sch chums..

to catch up on d latest news.. to chit chat.. to tease one another.. its not happenin...d weddin... hmmm its not materialising...i feeel so sad for her..when i got d sms..

i was think to myself.. mayb its another city..mayb its another nhaz.

.but reality hits me hard... i only know one city and nhaz who r together..

n r suppose to get married thiw wkend..auw shucks... mrsmereee called...

asked if we could do din... but was tired n we couldnt agree on d location so

she filled me in details on d phone.. i felt empty.. i felt sad..i felt like as if it

happened to me.. again rewind..that feelin..when A left.. empty..hurt..lost..

angry..sad all mixed together..

but..A was d past...it was jus a phase..

but u my dear..it was love.. engagement n..impending weddin...

all canceled..jus wks..

my dear i wish i could hug u and cry wif u..i was that ignorant.. n i m so so sorry...

take all d time u need.. baby steps.. we r here.. for u..

weekend was gd.. it was yan's weddin..i love d putu piring...n yes d bone steak n dat roti arab dini made.. yum yum...hungry again!!wif all d things that are happening ard me.. i feel so so blessed that i have my dearest hubby..who'll do d balancing act wif me.. who'll make me look things on his side rather then only on my side.... my sister..whom i can pour all my sorrows..happiness to my bitching partner n lastly my super active boy..who never fail to make me smile n laff no matter how dark n gloomy my day was..

oh boy! i've grown up have i!

*wipes wipes*

Angry!!

Somethin made me very angry today..
So angry that i feel like puking...
Fungkulo!!

SChool...

I start sch ..today!!
n i'm so tired....

7 yrs ago

7 yrs ago we met virtually..

Those midnite msns..midnite chats..overseas phonecall in d wee hrs..

Those lengthy emails..sent and replied..

Poems.. brought us together.. u were a sucker fer it.. n ur still are..

We were separated when ur comp. goes haywire...

U just started working at intel..

Working hrs were sucky..u were uncontactable..

D frequent emails..soon became rare..

U were so caught up wif work u forgot about me..

There i was.. jealous thinking of ur ex TV3 newscaster girlfriend..

Who hoped u guys could get together..who lived around ur vicinity.. while me?

Thousand miles away from you..thinking if our relationship would ever materialize..

It didnt..the last email u sent me was about..british shoes.. n british clothings.. about having leftover half spring chicken for buka and sahur..n that was it..though some ppl might find it boring.. i dont.. i like to read ur emails..ur short msns..

I was left hanging..U left me hanging...

Well who am i compared to those bigwigs right..

U disappeared.. n he came back...

He came and asked for a second chance.. i waited for u.. i tried to reach u but i jus cant..

After a few months.. i decided to take up the challenge and gave him a second chance..

After all..he was d one before u..

N so we were back together.. n u .. still missing..

I decided then.. to put u away.. in a box i called past..n embrace the present...

We were happy.. he decided not to take me fer granted ever again..

Months later..u beeped me..

U said u were at Continental..for a seminar n that u wanna c me..

I was unsure...after missing for a yrs plus.. u came back..

I had to decide...him or u..

It was a tough decision..but d present overcomes the past.. the present win hands down..

My decision.. was to leave u as my past.. n live on with my present....

I know u were someone then.. only u didnt wan to tell me.. u were that low profile..



7yrs later.. here i am.. watching G&G n saw u as the screenwriter..

A quick google.. there u were..a renown writer..scriptwriter..screenwriter..watever they call u..

Its nice to rake up the past once in a while..

Its nice to know ur there...

*smiles*

X

Rants..

I've so so much things to rant about..
But unfortunately..there's more work to do than to rant..

So shall let it rest first..

for now..these are what i have to do
-classroom
-PTC files
-cubbies
-shoeracks
-pictures
-books!
-prepare for sch

i need a getaway..after all this!

School?!?

I'm going to school again..
A yr break.. n next wk.. back to school..
I hope i can still take it..
From what Tin said.. its like.. full of research..
Insya allah.. wif all d support and encouragement..

School means ..less time wif Ayubi...
Only wkends..

Hmmmm really have to step it up!!

Earthbound

I was bloghopping.. as usual.. when i cam across this blog..

shall not mention names here..

i think for a while she was happy with her family..with the new car.. new career.. then sth must have happened.. that broke her family.. she n hub decide to split..

Reading her posts.. i could almost feel her pain.. tho i dunno her personally..

I think she was my junior but i dun remember bumping into her last time..

I dunno y.. when i read her posts..d memories of how i felt when i broke off with A flashed by.. of how sad..crazy..angry i was at that time...d look on Mama's face when she saw me wif those dreaded stiqs...

I felt low...really really low...we were even married to begin with...but still.. that emptiness feeling..that

N now... i felt low for her.. sad for her..i hope she stay strong.. though everytime its easy to say... but to be it.. it is very difficult..

I hope will all my heart that everything will go well for u =)...

Jalan Raya with d Fam...

Saturday was a day spent with family...

Nana had her very late jalanraya..

We kick start the day by visiting Ayubi's nenek n atuk ..my fil and step mil..@ Bt Panjang..

Auntie my step mil, cooked fried bee hoon, fried chicks and a fillipino hmmm dessert..banana wrapped in popiah skin and fried.. that was delish.. hmmm must remember to fry some later..chit chat..she shared wif Mama about Ayubi...watched a bit of fillipino entertainment show..(wonder if Ayubi will pick up tagalog..ahaks!) said our gdbyes and left fer pertapis halfway house.. to catch Insyirah in action...

But we were stucked in a traffic jam after Eng Neo and we missed Insyirah's performance.. she was so hmmm mentel in her ala mimpi manis blue kabaya.. so mentel.. saw my ex pr sch mate there.. Siti Suhana Salim wow i can remember her full name sia.. aha!

We then went to Mami's, Cik Yah's,Hambali's, Hambali's nenek and Cik Lala's...Ayubi lepak at Cik Lala's house..he was so dead beat that he didnt even wake up for his 5am milk feed.. my playful son...

Enough..

of those unhappy things...

let's move on to the happier things..

firstly i'm so so glad that my home is back as usual.. calm.. quiet.. peaceful..serene...

secondly...Ayubi's teething!! like finally! had been waiting and waiting to c that white sight! he's also taking few steps.. at 7 mths he can stand on his own while hanging on to something, he can sit upright, roll about, crawl, and jabbers!! d first jabbers i heard was 'nananananananana'.. my dear baby... i had u in my tummy for 10 months and the first word u can say is Nana?? ur Ummi's name?? n d next word i heard was dadadadadaddada.. ur uncle's name?? Dada was very excited when he heard that.. kept boasting to everyone that Ayubi can say his name hahahha...

thirdly... the outing with d xGmss was great!! we enjoyed ourselves..we kept reminiscing the times we had in sch.. d notty times... the good times.. d crazy times... n now no more GMSS.. such a pity!

fourthly.. cant wait for this saturday n sunday.. last kopek for jalan raya.. saturday with Mama to d inlaws..to Mami's n sunday... wif d gang of brothers!!

more pics in my multiply...

Orang Yg tak Sedar diri..

Either u're asleep all this while..
High on those pills..
Or maybe in denial..

6years ago..
U broke a company..

N now
U wanna break a family?

Not a chance..
Remember Allah is great?
May u get what u deserve

Even tho not in dunia
There's always akhirat..

Remind u again..
Allah is great!!

Some things...

Some things never change..
D time we have alone..
Talking...
Non stop.. we can go on forever..
I like it how u complete me..
In everything..
When we actually don in sec skool..

D Weekend

Oh well..first things first.. fetched Ayubi last evening n how i wish i could drive n not bother his ummi to drive me there..
Poor Nana! Had to take a break in d midst of studyin for her neverending exams to drive me there..

He has grown taller since d last time i saw him which was a few days ago..
Reach home, as usual.. spend some tummy time wif his Grandma n Ummi.
Was feedin him dinner, heard some shufflings outside d gate.
Though it was his Uncle Dada..but saw his Ayah..member apalagi so excited..kickin his legs in excitement..

Sen did his prayers..after that we took a ride to IMM to get Ayubi's play pen..won't wanna another accident to happen..so before it happen better to take precaution right?

Bought a cheep cheep one as Ayubi will only be using it for wkends..went back...set it up.. playtime with Ayubi while d Ayah dozed off to dreamland.. poor hub of mine.. reservist penat eh ehhehe....

D ehrrmmm first real fall...

Ayubi had his first real fall today.. d first one was @ his FIL's place....but he actually fell on a stack of pillows and blanket.. so ehm i don actually take that as his first fall.. ahahha

While this time..no pillows no nothing.. jus him and d cold floor.. d feeling was..URGHHHHH!!! but no point getting angry at anyone..dat moment was jus..'is he ok??' n after checking all's well.. d next thing was 'oh shot! wat would FIL say!!??!!' My FIL is VERY, i repeat VERY protective of his one and only grandson..well push that aside let my beloved husband answer his dad becoz he was d one at fault.. n the next thinking was..'SHUCKS today all d neneks coming, they will sure nag at me!!'...tak payah tunggu lama2 keluar bilik je.. Mama dah start bising..

M:'Dia jatuh kan (sambil carry the crying Ayubi) Mama dah cakap dah.. tak dengar.. go n buy a proper cot lar!'

Me: 'Oklah (still shocked n near to tears).

Mama nag nag nag nag.. i jus listened lor..

In d midst of Mama's naggings his ummi came out of her room..biasa la ummi Ayubi tu drama skit...

Wat happen was.. his cot was at FIL's place becoz they were afraid he would fall off d bed there so as we were busy this wk wif Sen doin d late shift n me wif i dunno wat hahah we didnt get a new cot in time for Ayubi when he came home on Fri. so we make do wif many many pillows, comforters.. on d bed and none on d floor.. *silly us*. Everything was fine on Saturday n it happen today.. this mornin.. i was still sleepy from d effects of d medicine..while Sen was still groggy after solat subuh.. he didnt realise his son had squeezed between d gap of the pillows and well.. d rest is history!! Iced his forehead..much to his annoyance.. rub rub wif ummi's hair..which i remembered last time when i was young, Nenek used to do that when i have bumps and buahluku wherever..he was up n active like normal.. like nothing happened... observed him for fever.. or vomitting..lethargic.. so far he's ok.. eatin well.sleeps like normal...Sen n i .. told each other that we would only confess what happen if FIL should ever asked.. n he didnt so we kept mump.. yes we were guilty as charged!! should have got him the cot!!! Just told Auntie to observe if he should develop a fever to call me as he might have caught it from me. due to d constant kissing ..huggings n lovealls...

Just called him a while ago.. n Auntie said that he had a nitemare n was crying badly but all was good after a bottle of milk..poor baby of mine.. make me feel even worse when i hear that.. i wish i don have to work n i can look after him all d time.. but *sigh* i cant..

Lesson learnt..

Put pillows and comforters on d floor too!!!

Lousy!

I really feel lousy..
With the nose that's fickle..
Sometimes running and sometimes blocked..
The head that keeps throbbing...
No matter how many pills i popped..

Hopefully i wont pass this to my baby when i fetch him later =(..

Ayubi..Sen n I..

Time pass real fast..soon Ayubi's gonna be 7mths..
it still feels like yesterday i had him in my tummy..wif him wriggling ard every now n then..
..giving birth to him...hahahha thats another story altogether..
yeah talking about that.. i've yet to pen down my birth story.. after what?? 7mths?? those memories wont fade away.. my first experience will always be in my mind...

Motherhood is fun..challenging ..tiring..but also exciting..
Sen was always there to support me..my aunts..my mum..Nana were all there to lend me a helpin hand whenever i need help..
Ayubi..he was an easy baby..rarely cry..only merengek a bit whenever he wants attention..or he's hungry..n now at 6mths plus..he's still an easy baby..friendly..smiles often..n not afraid of strangers hahah..he can follow anybody..whenever we go out.. mesti kena pinjam..

On working days, we will send him either on monday or tues to my step mil's house and fetch him on thurs or fri..and during his stay there we try to squeeze in time to visit him..play wif him..jus spend time wif him..yeah m not proud that we r wkend parents..but this is the arrangement we have to agree with for time being..insya allah till i finish studying.. n yes i am studying again!! hope i can manage.. get it done n over with...n then can think of the next step later..

N yes..we r still stayin at my parents' house.. for now lar.. till d investment plan matures..then we'll shift back...

I love my family..no matter watever happens..at the end of d day..they are still my family..

Meanwhile raya pics are up.@ariesseira.multiply.com.... =)

Our Life

I've always..think short term rather than long term.. n d results always make me upset with myself..

This ramadhan..things happen.. i get upset..sad..angry..disappointed..emotions run wild..n syukur kepadanya..Sen is always there to keep me sane..

cant wait for Humps to join us..

Just for...

Me!!!

• Fold clothes --->done!!
• Ambil baju fron Nenek Ju's house--->done!!tq de for running d errand!
• Wash and dry baju
• Put $$ in d envelopes --->done!! left d in laws, neneks n parents
• Plan Saturday's schedule
• Prepare Ayubi's clothes,bibs,clothes
• Sterilise Ayubi's bottles (All of them) --->done!
• Find Ayubi's dark snowie ---> found!!
• If got time take cabas from Long..
• Hang curtains ---> done!!
• Change bedsheets
• Sweep and mop and wangi2 --->done!! but need to buy more candles n air freshener

Dateline: TODAY!!!!

N so..

I've decided.. to blogspot again..
but darn.. i can retrieve my archives from ariesseira.blogspot.com..sien..
memories there..d rants.. d happy times.. my weddin moments.. all gone..
nvm.. memories are etched in my mind.. ferever..
n to start new journeys in life.. start with..

Our son...

AYUBI!!

So sepet right?? I am not sure where he get those eyes from hehe.. coz i dun think i am sepet ..Sen's not sepet too.. ah well.. maybe when he grows bigger..d sepetness will hilang..

He's 6mths now..still as fair..seems to get fairer and fairer as days goes by..looks more like me..though his features are his ayah's..Mama,Nana,Cik Ida said he looks like my FIL..i dunno..mayb so mayb not..mayb at times?? He's a real charmer..i can just sit and look at him doing his act.. and just do nothing..hahah ...

tsk..typed a whole list n suddenly it's gone..poof!???

After a while

Hadnt been writing..
Neither here nor multiply..
My vocab, grammar.. sentence construt..my tenses.. all haywire..
I would love to write again.. this time.. include Ayubi in my writings...
My darling..lovable son..
SOon..shall do all this soon..
Here is where i feel more comfortable ranting..d blogspot..

D day we shopped...

Hmmm hmmm
today Ayubiand me keluar kandang..
We went shopping @ Vivo!
Lucky Ayubi really lucky...
Jus like Uncle Dada...
Haven finish shoppin tho..
still have more stuffs to get..
For me!!!
For Yubi jus a diaper bag fer his neccesities and a grobag..for his kicking antics!!hehe

This is d yr i 4got...

...about u..
i was so caught up wif my own stuffs...
i wasnt well..i was still recovering from my op...
i even forgot dat it was my bday..mayb its time to move on...
though i still wish u were here.. wif us..wif me.. frens..and share d moments
that i go thru..
getting engaged..gettin married..giving birth.. d ups n downs in life...
i still miss ur 'menthol eh and rocher!'

and so a year ago

2IN1

Hey u..
Today is our day..
Guess how much i miss u..
Guess how much i had been thinking of u
Guess how much i talked about u..
Guess what i had been doing for d past 5 yrs..
5th year n still counting
The same old routine...
Tears b4 d joy of being a yr older..
Every Apr 14th..
U remind me.. d day my mum brought me to this world..
N d day u left us all..
So sad so sad
I miss u.. i always do..
I thought abt u.. i always do..Sen can vouch for dat..
I talked abt u..
N i'm always reminded of u..
One small marlboro menthols n rocher pls...
Is enuff.. for me from u..
No complains.. remember??
Al-fateha for u..
Till we meet..

@ d end of d rainbow..smiling @ me

And so after waiting with bated breath for 10months...our lil prince have arrived...

dos headaches

..@ work..
..in pain..
..my head's throbbing..
..it doesnt help that..
..i'm doin d 7 closing today..
..ouch...ouch..

My Heart

I jus wish i could hug u when u break d news to me..
can u believe it.. it's 10 years beb...
i remember when i broke d news to u yrs back that i;m gettin engaged n u turned to d x and asked "when u wanna marry me?" when i told u i'm gettin married u asked when's ur turn.. n now it finally came.. ur turn!! ur turn to be beautiful bride..d queen fer d day...

d times we had were jus priceless... we would 'mata mata' and take a cab down from bt panjang.. to bt batok n then to ghim moh... its ok to burn our pockets jus so that we get a few more minutes of sleep..

remember all those puppy loves.. that black n yellow hornet.. d cabut skool series and watch movie pagi2 buta jus to kill time.. loan my sis clothes to cabut coz u cant fit mine..those Miss Ann Miles crazy classes.. we were both always neck to neck wif d lang but u always did better than me..those quadrangle days where we had to stand in d hot sun.. only GummiBear n fren would come n sympathise with us..

Glen.. remember him?? hahah we dated him..secretly hahha u hid it from Badut n i hid it from u...crazy arent we...

.. 10 years n they jus passed like dat..
i cant wait.. come dec.. ur someone's Mrs..
..n its d start of a new book rite??remember??..'
..memories of yesteryears..d ups n downs we had..we fun n laughter.. those crazy nites..days @ sch.. i'll never forget them.. they are always....
in... My Heart...jus like d rest of d memories..wif d rest..

Hormones??

(Now) I Don Like
-perfumes (hafta use mild ones like bvlgari green tea or happy ones like clinique)
-cigarrete smells especially in my toilet (looks@ Nana)
-lotion (hafta change body lotion every month as i get sick one d smell n will puke when keep using the same one)
-all kinds of smell(be it BO, mouth or food smells.. make me wanna puke..now have to carry vapex wif me and a plastic bag if i were to puke...)
-long bus rides (will end up puking)
-rice (normal white rice.. d smell turns me off n a plate of white rice make my stomach churn)
-wearing skirts (i'm a trackpants and t shirt person now.. must be very comfortable if not i wont leave home)
-eating (when i am d type of person who ENJOYS food)

hmmm thats d list i have now...
pls i hope this is all jus a while coz its really very uncomfortable when i am this cerewet kinda person now.. its so not me.. so tiflun behave k in a few more months to come...

k sleeping time...

New happenings
..had been a while...
2 months done..finished my first prac and waitin fer d second..missin d kecoh girls @ skool.. will be meetin them soon in sept..
life's less busier now..
changes.. changes..changes...

we'll c u in april07 tiflun...
yes we will!!

Disappointments in life can b very disheartening

I miss d old 'us'.....
JB family late dinner trips wif us foolin ard in d car.. d 5 of us n Papa n Mama would jus look at us..happy that we are 'family'...but i guess it wasnt jus mean to b...one left..for years u were a part of d fam.. n when u left.. a part of us left wif u...

d new one came along..we kinda welcome it.. but it wasnt d same... it was awkward.. i dunno y i felt this way.. i guess its not fair.. i should have let d new show what he is capable of.. but i dun wan.. i wan d old one still...but we have to respect ppl right.. so i jus played dumb..

in me.. i still wan d old one.. d one who was a part of our life..

i guess sometimes .. its jus not meant to be...

sorry i jus have to let it out.. its eatin me inside..we're missing u fian...

Syukur

Syukur...
For d family who stood by me in all right or wrong decisions...
For d mama n papa who support me in all ways u could ever think of..
For d sister n brother whom always remind me that i have to share
For d man whom i have in my life.. fer keeping me sane.. everytime..

2 more months n i'm done...



errrrmmmm but 6 mths later may i??


Nana me n Sen hmmm sapa lar nak manage rumah eh...

Yeah not fergetting...

Syukur
Fer having a cute fren like Tin who never fails to cheer me up..
Fer having an annoyin sup.. Like NG..

Syukur ya Allah Syukur...

9Years

..this must be my fav phrase...
time pass really fast..
.. it had been 9 years.. 9 long years.. we hadnt met one another.. some of them came for d weddin while some were just gone.. like that.. it took that one soul.. that lemah lembut soul to gather all of us together n boy we had fun.. one more time pls...


sec skool had always been fun!!

D Tag

10 Favs..

Favourite Colour : Black..and maroon
Favourite Food : kuey tiaw goreng mama mata lembu..gerek!
Favourite Song : Any songs sung by my idol..Sen..
Favourite Movie : Young and Dangerous 1-10
Favourite Sport : rollerblading.. but slack already coz someone dun wanna replace my old blades..
Favourite Day of the Week : Wednesday! coz its midwk.. midwk always cheer me up.. coz i know wkends' coming!
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour : cinnamon ad chocolate
Favourite Car Model : Toyota Rav4
Favourite Subject in School :English during priamry sch Literature during sec skool n a's..
Favourite Snacks : wheat crackers dipped in hot cup of milo OR.. roti bakar wif margarine..(mana tak lagi gemuk eh!)



9 Current..

Current Mood : sien.. coz have to stay home..another burnt wkend..
Current Taste : Milo.. jus had a cup of milo with wheat crackers!!
Current Clothes : very VERY comfy green pullover..
Current Desktop : pink background.. pic of Dada n Syir in d car.. pretending to drive...
Current Toenail Colour : henna stained
Current Time : 825pm
Current Surroundings : in d bedroom.. wif Dada air con n tv blasting..
Current Annoyance(s) : itchy throat and that stupid phlegm that refuse to come out..
Current Thoughts : why does channel 5 have no other interesting shows... just reruns...



8 First(s)..
First Best Friend : Shahril Nizam from kindies... his Mama n my Mama r good frens so we r always together.. n last time his Mama n my Mama actually paired us up.. so called la.. me wif him n Nana wif the bro hahaha
First Crush :Yazid Kelana Salim.. during pri skool..our dads r frens but we don talk to one another anymore after an incident in skool....
First Movie : in a cinema? beethoven.. with my Cik Lala n Cik Akob Syasya Wawan n Nana
First Piercing : when i was 3..
First Lie : cant remember really.. but i know i lied when i told Mama i have remedial classes but only to come to sch early to help d makcik buang2 sampah clean the classrooms.
First Music : Papa n Mama n Ush's old retro songs that they always blast at Mak's house
First Car : Papa's Daihatsu when i was 6..ours? TJ ..
First Real Date Venue : hmmm East Coast .. during a sch gathering..hahaha



7 Last(s)

Last Drink : milo...
Last Car Ride : just now.. to Cik Tipah's bro's house to melawat..
Last Movie : X-men 3
Last Phone Call : hmmm Cik Ida d usual updates on my baby Syir
Last Song Played : Buttons by Pussycat dolls
Last Food Ate : sucky chicken chop @ Teh tarik..
Last Thing I do before I go to sleep : set alarm clock ..call sen if he's on nite shift.. said gd nite..sleep..



6 Have You Ever(s)

Have you ever dated one of your best friends : hmmm just going out rite.. yeah..
Have you ever broken the law : sch law yes!
Have you ever been arrested : hmmm was detained but not arrested.. bcoz naik motor that has modifications .. hmm heheh but not Sen's lar..
Have you ever skinned dipped : nope!
Have you ever been on TV : yes!mat yoyo.. joined d game wif uncle..
Have you ever kissed someone you didn't know : yes!! d cutie tods in my sch!!



5 Things You Are Wearing.

engagement ring
undies n
pullover
hmmm
hmmmm



4 Things You've Done Today...


went melawat..
lunch date wif sen..
listened to lecture from Sen
eat my meds..





3 Things You Can Hear Right Now ...

the tv
Mama telling Dada to stop saying that he's hungry coz he jus had his dinner and he's hungry again..
the aircon..



2 Things You Can't Live Without ...

Mokhsen
Zainal family



1 Thing You Do When You Are Bored ...

Sleep...



5 Beautiful Peeps to Carry On The Game :
LADYLEE
DADHA
SALINA
AISAH and
TINIBEAR

ok i'm done..

My Favourite n Most Loved Boy

It's his gettin older day today..n yet he's away at work while i jus got home from sch..work again tom.. so only sunday then..hapi bday..
many many loves

from me!

Still drowning

Dear Twinkz,
As much as i want to do your tag.. unfortunately i cant...
Currently i'm drowning in articles on breastfeeding..teething..childcare...
lps..evaluations.. assignments.. pracs..
n of coz i miss u guys.. dunno when we can meet.. my sats n suns r jus filled wif jemputans jemputans n more jemputans.. home home n more home..rest rest and more rest..

Love,
The tubby one

Suffocated
..i m drowning in piles n piles of papers!!..
..70plus plus of observations to fill in..assignments.. household chores..
..personal time.. arghhhh!!tired..now 10 mins to 1 n i'm doing laundry plus observations!!jus filling in .. by hand some more!!!..
..ng i'm drowning!! help!!

Love Hate Relationship

I have a love hate relationship with this person..
a gal to be exact..
mayb i'm jealous becoz she's younger than me
mayb bcoz she looks so much better than me..
has a great figure which i don have!!
who is cleverer than me..
who is a neat freak!!
who shops more than me...
who has a 6 door wardrobe(from the floor to d ceiling) full of nice nice clothes.. n plus her four drawers
who has a few racks of shoes!!!(every month beli kasut..not 1.. can be 3 per mth or more!!!)

but still.. i love her.. we do quarrel..we fight!!hmmm i think when we were young...
n whenever we quarrel ..guess who cries.. ME!!!! she'll jus buat bodoh..

this entry is so so so belated.. but i hope .... YOU LIKE IT BULU KAMBING!!!

Our Bulu Kambing Mine Mama's Papa's Dada's n Sen's
Happy 21st Birthday!!

Thirdly

..i dunno how u do it.. but u made me pissed at one point but at another u made me all warm n fuzzy inside.. thank u ah..

sometimes i wonder to myself.. how come u can stand all this nonsense from me but no one else?? best la.. ur alwways d best...


i had a hmmmm bonding time wif Dada d Golden Boy of d family.. who Papa calls 'My Boy'.. who's spoiled rotten.. whom i cant stand.. coz mayb we r SOOOOO alike... Sen says we are mirror image only that i'm d female n he's d male version.. n so we had a bonding session jus now.. n i jus realised that my Dada is growing up.. VERY WELL... n i teared when i saw d things he did jus now.. n i teared again when i was sharing this wif Nana n Mama...n nearly teared again when i shared wif Sen..i've been too busy minding other ppl's child that i fail to c Dada...pls don grow up too fast... ur still and will always be my kaki ayam...

emo again i know!

First and second

Firstly.. i would like to thank d gals.. for d celeb.. tho its a belated one.. its still great..thank u so much.. gals n of coz.. d guys lar..

secondly...
this wk gonna sux real bad.. n i'm already facing d heat... chix!

back to being and emo freak!

Its Thursday!

...by the time i get home today.. its gonna b friday..d Friday where someone's off.. but still i'm gonna b at work.. i'm still gonna have to go fer my class..while he will make himself busy wif d hmmm crooners?? so will i chill wif Syasya Suria Jo n Kris?? while someone croons till early morn??
Hmmm.. i shall b d good one this time.. i'll go home.. pack some stuffs.. wash.. clean.. n wait till he come home..yeay.. a great wk so far!

fly fly far away...

Graduation?

..coming??..guess soo...
n i'm gonna miss these ppl who made nite sch enjoyable..
tho some of them sux to d core..
d rest r great..
jus as i'm startin to njoy all this.. its gonna b back to square 1..


so far so gd.. things r great so far...

Pictorials




d week was great!!
Lets have another gd week!! i can feel it in my hip bone!!

Week

LETS MAKE IT A GD WK!


Thurs
Sasha Suria Kris Jo Glen Angel Alfred crazy shakira hips dont lie plain water wild wallabies friendly wallabies sweat plain water 7up carnaval ricky martin d jealous gf platform broken glasses taxi ride Nana home sister talk sleep

Fri
met Tin sweat work Shafiq's place cute Uu karaoke home Mak's house Ana KL home

Sat
Tin Camden Medical JP sweat home sleep BBQ home

SUn
Tin woodlands sweat work late lunch home sleep triple x chit chat sleep

Its a dog eat dog world

*We

sad again??
we were jus talkin abt u 2 days back n u called today..
m very sad to hear abt ur latest news..
its like a film playin in my mind..
blk315..
that thick piping lorry ride,
Am.. u endured all those.. n yet this have to happen..
we must meet.. we must..
i jus wanna hug you and wipe those tears away..
u were there when i needed u n i wan to b there for u..
whenever u need me..
or us but pls don shun us jus bcoz ur bog down wif all these..
u have us.. u do u know...
i don wan u to feel lost.. jus like last time..
no more lost moment pls..

those skipping thursday class..

4

i kept looking at d pic.. d 4..
i think i miss them...

*I am

i don wanna b someone whom i don wanna b...
i am who i am n
i am what i am..
yrs back someone said this to me
b who u wanna b n not wat they want u to b..
n he repeated it back to me this wkend..
n made me realise wat a fool i had been..
keeping up wif appearances..saying things that i don normally say..
made myself feel so small..n so angry at myself sometimes..
i don like to hurt ppl's feelings but i didnt realise that..
dalam kesibukan not to hurt person A's feelings i'll hurt B's instead..
life....


hey beb..thanks for that prep talk..u know i need it.. luv u beb

Q time

..its sunday..
saturday was fun.. a bit rushing tho..

Rushing story.
Sen rushed home to get his stuffs fer activation..
Rushed home then to pick me n Dada up to meet Az n d rest..
Rushed to JB to top up petrol..n buy d necessary items fer Papa..
Rushed to go get my Happy Heart..
then rushed to pick d 3 ppl under 512..
then off to Changi V as d baby was craving for ayam penyek..
hmmm our 4th in a span of 3 wks?
d rushing story stopped at Changi V..

took our time to eat.. chit chat.. d Siti topic came up again... as usual lar..
had ayam penyek..satay..kerang n otak2..
next wk jb plak la eh kalau someone tak de standby..

today..
pagi2 dah ada memo..jamming session today..
hmm jamming season dah start balik eh De?
normally i lazy to tag but mayb today i will..
nak dgr lagu2 ala pub
feeling feeling aje la eh..


then its family time...

Camou

Sofian,Nizam,Shamkoo.. called d phone..
but owner aint home.. yet
called again..
n d owner was showering..
apa nasib..
they r d camou mates..

we gotta run man we gotta run cited by Sofian

run la kau dari pasir ris sampai clementi..

hmmmm meanwhile...
i've got to stay home..some chores.. KB..
n wait for him..
for our 'merayap' project wif Az Yantty n d hub..
oh plus Dada

whirl

at work..my mind is in a whirl..
there r lots of stuffs to settle..
d date on d 3rd of may ..
purchases..money in n money out..
paints floors aircon..
daybeds d machines from d small to d big
my practicum's coming
i need a break but no SOUND of bonus yet..
hmmm i very disappointed wif the way things r now
more things to do but still not being appreciated..
p's fine d m's a problem..
work hand in hand will yer?
shall we jus work wat we're paid for?
but thats jus not us..

another note..
this wk is goin on too fast.. its already thurs.. tom friday then come saturday then sunday.. i think i n sen got no life..
monday to friday work.. saturday n sunday time to do wat we like n wat we enjoy then back to d whole routine again... it is so ROUTINE!!!!so so routine..
i think..
i'm jus tired..

Gals of mine
..it always happen this way..
i would b thinking of old times n few days later.. 'hocus pocus' i'm 'linked' to the past..
was on msn wif one of d 'beachbummers inc' then she added another n so theres 3 of us reminiscne..abt d old times.. then.. ada gambar lama lar...i like d pic wif 4 of us.. hiding from prying eyes kat tepi tangga.. hmmm tepi tangga seem to be our favourite haunt ah eh last time.. but pics r hmmm blurred?? ahhaha to have that mysterious 'picture' of whose who.. i got a rep to protect..

they r my beach kakis..
they r my taitee kakis..
my clubbin kakis..
my mabukin-in-mornin kakis..
my late fri sat nites and sun morns kakis...
my joget2 kakis..
my overnite kakis...
my smokin kakis...
my gila2 kakis...
gals of mine..
d one who contribute quite a sum.. of d old clubbin days..
now semua dah relak one corner.. rite??

HRC

Happy Bday Aries!
its been years down the road since your hrc celeb .. now .. we've all reach our diff chapters in life ..
so may all your wishes cum true .. and here's my baby dusts for yaaaa ...
thanks for coming just now .. but sad .. you miss the musical fountain! ahah!!
Happy 25 AriesSentoL
mommi & daddi Adyan | 04.14.06 - 9:07 am | #



hmmmm msg from Adyan's Mummy certainly brought memories of yesteryears.. back again..
That HRC birthday party was a BLAST... can i say that again.. it was a BLAST....funny and somewhat impossible as it might seem.. i still have presents from that yr.. d glow frame from d g@ydiv@s..dat bracelet from Reeno those birthday cards from Kunta n Maggi_69..d necklace from Masmerah..n the free entry to HRC from Abg Jedi no less.. eheheh..
we shaked bon bons..we did d latino we did that up n down thingy which Aisah n Leyna tot me.. we grooved.. jived... we literally rocked Hard Rock lah that nite.. how can i forget.. but now.. we r at diff. chapters..like wat Aisah said.. i tot after d weddin i could like.. still jump n jive jus like last time.. but hmmm i think i was wrong la..coz it jus stopped.. hmmmm i think d experience of being married to Sen jus slowed me down.. or mayb i think i had enuf..tired of d whole dancing..jumping jiving ..mabuking scene.. n till now.. we (Me n Sen) haven look back since.... tho we sometimes blare d speakers and dance in d bedroom...tho we still do berasap wif JB cigs.. n Sen still get his dosage of 'ala pub' scene during his jamming sessions.. it stop at that..but still i thank d ppl who had made d memories of clubbing n gila2 fun..n of coz memorable..i still do miss those time.. n when i do.. i dance to d mirror of me..

gila tak??gila eh..

i think i've come to a kesedaran of why i am in this life

Ernz

Damai Seafood

Adyan

2IN1

Hey u..
Today is our day..
Guess how much i miss u..
Guess how much i had been thinking of u
Guess how much i talked about u..
Guess what i had been doing for d past 5 yrs..
5th year n still counting
The same old routine...
Tears b4 d joy of being a yr older..
Every Apr 14th..
U remind me.. d day my mum brought me to this world..
N d day u left us all..
So sad so sad
I miss u.. i always do..
I thought abt u.. i always do..Sen can vouch for dat..
I talked abt u..
N i'm always reminded of u..
One small marlboro menthols n rocher pls...
Is enuff.. for me from u..
No complains.. remember??
Al-fateha for u..
Till we meet..

@ d end of d rainbow..smiling @ me

*End of d painful wk

.. d wk wasnt so painful after all.. wif d many happenings on Sat n Sun itself.. it was ok.. sch drained me out work too..
Saturday
it was great..yet another fam gathering fer d apr babies.. or should i say BIG babies.. we had bbq@ Ibu's place.. it was riot!! d usual makcik2 kecoh lar .. Ibu fried kuey tiaw n noodles..Mama bought d barang2 bbq Cik Eda agar2 Cik Rama yong tahu stuff Cik Ya hmmm i forgot heheh bcoz there were too many food.. Cik Lala Ayam n ayam.. me cheesecake yg tertinggal kat carpark...
After that we met Az fer supper @ AL Ameen n then headed home..

SUnday
Sen usual soccer match.. then to Pasir Ris fer Shidah's wedding.. then to d woods...viewing..west mall fer some walkin session..errands..home...Sen's jamming session was canceled.. so he watched Miss Universe while i started on d assignment..

This week.. is DA WEEK.. 5yrs since MOnkey Limbs passed on.. 2nd yr wif Sen..but a lonely wk.. d wk wif only me Nana n Dada.. only d sibs as d parents have to do some es elefen project of theirs.. so its jus us.. Sen.. night shift this wk..

sampai ke akhir nanti...

*Yippee!!

.. i was VERY happy to get some es elefen from Mama n was VERY VERY happy coz i know what to spend on wif that es elefen.. sekali..a phonecall from Cik Ajis to inform us on d MUCH MUCH awaited news..by Sunday...Mokhsen n me r owners of a VERY VERY big toy.. n i am VERY VERY VERY happy.. coz its finally ours.. jus ours n no one elses.. but now i'm a bit sad.. coz the es elefen cannot be spent on d tiny tiny thing that i had wanted since d beginning of d year.. instead that es elefen would have to be donated to the VERY VERY big toy fund..so i guess d tiny tiny thing have to wait ..august mayb? oh hmmm Tin Nor n Su care to get it for me?? of hmmm Sen wil u??...

never mind guess dat have to wait ...

meanwhile...VERY VERY big toy.. we're coming to get ya!!

Pain

.. i am in pain.. @1 place
..tin is in pain.. @3 places..
..nor is in pain.. @2 places
..su..also in pain @2places..

pain pain pain..y so pain....
i tot i would get it yesterday.. but i hold back.. coz it wasnt painful anymore yeah!! this wk is a wk of pain.. pain here there n everywhere.. looking fwd fer nxt wk!!

Purchase

I Tin Su n NOr jus bought ourselves something which will keep us at the edge of our seat for a month?? Congrats to us huh..$288.. congrats heheh.. n me?
i'll be buying fer meself something today.. an advance for d birthday..
tu la sapa suruh tak jaga diri..kan now dah susah

..ouch..

Maria..Maria..

...moving to d beat of Carlos Santana Ft Whyclef.. reminds me of hmmm.. d birthday @ HRC...d first time i met.. eLQue...wif aLiyah_x 2MUCH KuNTa_KiNTeY..KiSsy n many more..n most of d above r proud mothers now..except fer thatttttttttttttttt 2MUCH lar..bcoz he is a man akakaka

.. miss clubbin.. hmmm let me rephrase that.. i miss dancing to LOUD music.. real LOUD.. nvm wait fer bois.. then i shall dance all i wan heheheh..

..multi tasking now.. assignment..referencing.. blog ntry n dancing to Santana n watchin 'Dia' its one of those wk.. d wk where Sen is away.. workin..n me.. stuck at home.. wif assigment that is due.. tomoro!! I M SO SO SCREWED..

...hmmm actually i like doing assignment at this time.. i work better under pressure.. but this is a VERY VERY bad habbit...=) hehhehehehe


'Dia' is really really pissing me off...tak habis2 lar.. bila lar they all will be happi?? ish..

..CONGRATS ARIL N AISAH on d arrival of their newborn..i still think Adyan look like Aisah..

.. after visiting Aisah dat day.. we went East Coast wif d usual lar.. wanted to have satay n Az was so craving for his honey chicken..we were doing d norm.. talkin nonsense.. n Sen said.. 'Guess who's that..u know who rite'..motioning over to my left.. shooot.. him again...he must have saw Yantty n mayb wanted to say hi or sth,, but he u-turn when he saw US.. US as in me n Sen..y him.. after all these years.. y him?... l

too much anger doesnt do u any gd

*wink wink*

Hot Hot

Hot off d horses' mouth.. well it had been some time d Alamak gang contact one another.. Leyna smsed me.. Shahlan n Skem msned me.. saying that Joehan Aka _Xzorziz_ is gettin hitch end of april.. akhirnya..kawin jugak si Starplug!!

..without realising it.. it had been years we known one another in d Alamak gang.. miss those crazie times..

Plain

Nenek masuk hospital.. again.. it really pains my heart.. n d rest of d Yahya family.. i hope n pray wif all my heart .. she'll go thru this.. but i know it pains her too.. seeing tears in her eyes..it must be painful..took time off n rush to d hospital after work.. i dun wanna miss chances.. i dun wan to regret.. spent some time wif her.. then rush to sch.. Mama Nana Sen updated me on her condition while i'm in class..d art lesson was a bore yesterday.. n i'm so bothered by my emotions...today i cant go to the hospital.. sch again.. n i cant rush after sch..visitin hrs r over..tom.. i shall accompany her.. i can rush from wards to wards to accompany Nenek n to visit a newborn.. *wink wink*

On another note..
Congrats to Alfian fer gettin 6th.. in d Manhunt Finals 06.. of coz bangsa kita tak ley menang lar eh kalau bangsa diaorg go undertable..always like that pantat!
Njoy ur time in d Mr Spore... hopefully u get wat u deserve..

i look fwd to many many Family dinner like yesterday..

A L
D day was spent.. wif d inlaws..tired.. but worth d time.. catchin up wif them.. Yantty n Fadzlie was @ d chalet for Wak Imah's bday celeb.. was invited but was too tired to attend.. Sorry Wak Imah next time k!!.. send d inlaws back.. then to El-Sheikh for some mint tea n d norm..sheesha.. chat till after mids.. sent Az home...got home n jus conked... pics in my multiply..

*D day...

Sunday Afternoon

D luv's away

When d Saturday was a boring one...

8 yrs ago


..i was 17..fresh out of sec sch.. jus got my terrible o results.. got poly but.. wasnt so interested so i attempt o.. d second time.. @ bmc.. jus shifted to toh guan then.. dun quite like d area.. coz i was so used to BB... kedai under d blk.. if i come home late or even wee hrs.. d guys r always downstairs.. BB gave me dat security that it was hard for me to move..n d best thing was.. my cousin's house is right below our unit.. so..d fun memories we had there.. were jus priceless..but still.. we.. i.. got to move on.. so we shifted to Toh Guan..took some time for me to adjust..was kinda diff.. coz.. A d x.. 2 of his best friends stayed ard Toh Guan too.. so d chances of bumpin into him r higher.. n it would break me if we do bump into one another.. alah dat time.. masa cinta monyet kan feeling rite ahhaha.. but then after some time.. things changed.. coz i met Sen again..n we went out together jus like last time.. we got engaged few yrs later.. wen i was 21.. engagement period.. was fun n boring at the same time.. coz its jus Sen n me n me n Send gang.. were kinda committed to their other commitments?? but still this time made us get to know one another even better..2 yrs later we got married.. stayed here.. till d first yr of our anni.. n now.. a few months short of d second anni.. we're moving.. n that dreadful feeling is back...

i am SUCH an emotional freak..a real sucker..for emo stuffs..
this house!! HAVE SO MANY WONDERFUL MEMORIES... of me n Sen.. those mother-dotter-sister bonding sessions..d time Papa n i had a heart-to-heart talk..d overnite sessions we had wif d whole gang.. d Kunta-Aries-Aisah vcds marathon.. those fooling under d blk sessions.. d durian parade on Aisah's bday..d list jus goes on n on.. those priceless memories...
was cleaning out d cupboard jus now.. n d collage of pics ..jus made me teared.. i remembered.. telling myself "fill all this wif fam n friends.. forget him..".. dat was another step of my life.. steps n steps n steps.. now i've reached another step of my life.. d MOVE...

i'll miss all these.. but i have to move on.. jus like how i did..8 yrs ago..

tho its hard to say gdbye to yesterday
n i'll take wif me these memories
to be my sunshine after d rain
its so hard to say gdbye to yesterday

Down
..was all geared up for today's course...sekali down wif an eye infection la..so Nor had to go..to replace me.. i'm stucked at home..now.. chill a while b4 i start on my packin again...

notes for meself
-clear cupboard------------------done!!
-wash clothes------------------done!!
-KB
-meetin mins n
-holiday plannin..------------------done!! jus waiting fer quotations..


better do all dis b4 d master comes home ...

This wk..

I am sure gonna njoy this wk.. coz i've a partner this wk.,.. this wk would also b my very very lazy wk.. i wont b online as much n i know my work would b put aside fer a little while..hmmm yeah jus a little while HAHAHHA..

Meanwhile.. my weekend was GREAT!! filled to d brim.. sampai pagi pon tak cukup..
no we didnt get to go fer picnic coz Nenek was admitted to d hospital on Friday.. n so we all had to take turns teman Nenek @ d hospital.. but dat was also a great time to spend wif d Yahya Family.. we gossiped ..we bitch..we merepek2 @ d hospital..n we r planning something.. or hmmm I AM d one who is given d 'honour' to plan something.... so we shall c what i'll come up wif...

On another note.. Saturday.. wen to collect my cadar.. then off to d hospital.. then to Queensway for some shoppin.. i plead.. n whine.. n pujuk Sen to get me a pair of new blades.. but he buat bodoh.. so sad... he shopped n shopped n shopped till bila dah sampai rumah my mother in law.. he started to have headache .. thinking of the amount that he spent.. ahhahah padan muka.. so after Queensway.. was off to Ghim Moh..chit chat wif Mak had a light dinner of ikan kembung masak lemak.. then d hot topic.. Nor Asyura... coincidently..Fendi is Nonoi's uncle.. i dunno Fendi quite well.. he's d family fren.. hmm in a way but not too close wif him.. Mak said Nonoi's noyang had been walking around aimlessly under d Ghim Moh blkss... pity her.. must b a big blow for d family...working wif 2yrs olds.. i can picture how cute Nonoi is..takdir Allah.. but its so sad.. takdirnya begini..Alfateha for Nonoi

After Ghim Moh.. we rode home.. chill a while wif Mama so xcited over her new wedges n Nana wif her G heels..then off to Waterfront to fetch anak kita yg dah besar panjang Az.. wif Yantty n Fadzlie... we went to Changi fer nasi ayam penyek.. lagi.. n then to Geylang.. for some sweet sweet dessert..then home..reached home at abt 4am.. washed up.. then sleep...

Sunday.. woke up late.. wen to Teban.. for Odin's baby gal cukur rambut.. she's so so chubby.. too bad didnt get to take pic..bag too small cannot fit.. after dat we sent Oni n Mak home.. rushed to jb to top up petrol.. went home..changed n rushed down to PS to meet some of Sen's campmates n partners.. it was all rite.. after din.. we fetched Mama Nana n Dada from Easpoint n head home..

CONGRATS AFIAN for entering d FINALS of ehem eherem 2006!!

*Its thurs

..masa cepat berlalu..
its thurs already..tomoro FRIDAYYY.. but this wk is a hmm sien wkend.. coz Sen has to work but its orait.. i have MY AUNTIES n UNCLE n MAMA n PAPA n DADA n NANA to keep me occupied.. y ah?? hmmm we might have a very very last min picnic.. jus like last time.. but so sayang Sen cant join us..nvm.. next time k..

work really tires me out sey.. 2008 come quick.. pls pls come quick!!

after work..wen fer jalan2 wif Tin jus like last time.. but missing one tho.. nvm next wk kita jumpa sama dia!!we went JE..surveyed some shops.. bought tops!! n i jus love d tops!! besok macam nak go beli lagi lar!!after dat wen to cut some sueww off.. then head home.. chit chat wif Mama n Dada n now jus bummin ard...

i was thikin of monkey limbs las nite.. n i jus cried myself to sleep.. mayb i was too tired i started to feel emotional n stuffs..n how much i miss Hisham.. but he's so diff rite now..i jus dunno y..

hopefully i dun get 'this' tonight.. i jus wanna sleep it off.. n spend some QT wif Sen tomoro b4 he goes off fer work.. n tomoro nite.. "WE'RE GOING JAPANESE"!!! best best...me Tin Su n Nor... hmmm thinkin of it makes me HUNGRY...argh!!

Its been a while

... Had been a while since we met up.. n so today we did.. but bcoz dat lonaldmclonald came today.. i had to keep d kids busy n resulted in me drained... mind so tired... sorry gals..

..now i'm home.. i'm so freakin tired but i cant sleep.. i think i'm goin bonkers...

b4 dat...

Lyd this is wat i watched d other day.. n i shall share...






k done.. now i have to force myself to sleep...

arghhh how much i hate meself!!!

Bored

This is wat happens when Sen's not ard.. n i'm jus alone in my room... Ayubee takes d place of Sen n she sleeps wif me on d bed...

i'm jus so bored..plus tired..plus cranky..plus sien n many more..

CAN I GET AN ABBEY PLS????

*looks at CC n sulks*

He's so quiet

...Sunday was a chillout day fer d both of us.. i was surfin fer stuffs in d room n Sen was in d kitchen.. i tot.. but he didnt came back into our room for almost 45mins.. i went out n saw him..lyin in front of d big screen..watchin d last instalment of Eiffel I'm in Love.. i jus LOVE dat movie coz its soo soooo romantic..

...at d end of d movie..we jus bummed n bummed n bummed.. after magrib.. took a ride to changi to test the nasi ayam penyek.. good i must say...after din.. we jus rode d changi rd.. cant help it..d bulu roma naik sekejap.. thinkin of those few vids from youtube..U ush Mama Nana Alid Cik Sal watched d day before..wan me to share?? tell me.. then i share...

Nenek's birthday

D one wif d FAB

..yesterday..d zainal household were buzzing like yellow n black bees..
y? bcoz of d new member in d zainal family.. a spanking yellow n black FAB!! y FAB? short fer Fabulous..named by Yan d rapper hahhaha...FAB i hope Sen n Papa will treat u well.. i know Papa will coz he's not heavy as Sen n he knows d ways of manjaing u..

..Papa grumbled when i told him d s#h#o#e#i that he wans to get doesnt cost as cheap as last time.. hmm about 20yrs back wen he was an active member of d r#a#i#l#w#a#y#b#o#y#s..it was only 40 buxs.. cheapo!! now it tripled.. quadrupled.. funny ah how times pass n how d $$ also increases..

..so dunno how.. Papa managed to get an old s#h#o#e#i from an old fren of his.. with a r#o#t#h#m#a#n#s logo.. so we gonna get it cleaned up n get U-ush to airbrush over it..cant wait!!

When d baby stayed

D new toy

the curtains are closed fer now...mayb pen n paper is still better than all this thingamajig..

Ich versteht dunno warum.. manchmal sein jus damit hart, Sie zu machen, wie ich fühle..., wenn Sie denken, dass ich Sie gut Sie verletzt habe, verletzen mich auch.. erfreut bitte nicht denkt nur von sich. .ok... ich habe Gefühle auch!

d after effects

...d after effects aries??...
..poww booom poww again... left right center up n down...
...lagi2 kau aries..lagi2 kau...
..kena lagik..asal la selalu kau so naive macam ni...
..so forgiving..thinkin dat retaliation is never d solution...
..i think dats where ur wrong..sometimes retaliation do help...
.ni xi hen da de pen tan...
..u know wat i think??...
..i think u should go back to ur books..ur assignment..ur commitments.. n wateverhaveyous n jus dun care...
..never mind...let it be...

..now?? now i jus feel like cuddling up wif sen...
..when d ppl ard u turn their back against u..remember theres only one...

....if u keep gettin things u wan jus by opening ur mouth y don u do d same for ur goals??..y are such a MAVA FUNGKULO COLIONI?? as ta ri kat so...

x

..its almost 6 yrs since u left..
..since we met..
..d last being me passing back ur stuffs, bawling my eyes out...
..i went through lots..jus to leave u behind n
...i tot dat affection was long gone..
..but then it was actually sleepin...
..it was awaken last nite.....
....it rakes up d past...
..y now?? y must it be now??..
....sleep again...sleep again...or rather...
..pls die...

..i'm happy as it is..
..wif d someone who tot he's d second fiddle...
.but he had always n will always be d first n d last..
..n dat..i will bring it to my grave...


kekasih awal dan akhir..hidup ke mati

You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next year,


and don't want to talk at all the year after that.
So, I just wanted to say,
even if I never talk to you again in my life,

you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,


I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.

Dada


..Dada had been wantin his own mp3 player ever since he saw a cousin of ours had her own... Dada being d last n one n only brother always get his way.. if not from me.. it will either be from Nana or Sen... so this time.. Sen got him a bransek mp3 player... upload some of his fav songs n gave it to him... d look on his face.. ah..priceless.. he was grinnin from ear to ear... told him dat... we will take it away from him if he misbehaves or he don listen..very simple rules... n it works... Dada kakak love u lots... hehehe

Is it?

1st day of 2006

...we didnt do much on first day of 2006... attended his cousin's weddin in Teck Whye n went to Badut's bro's weddin after dat.. was suppose to have spring cleaning but was only 1/4 done wen Papa wanted to have dinner in JB.. so off we go ..wif Alfian in tow...

NYE

n so we visited Aniq right...
...
after dat..we went our separate ways...Farah n Naz fer a weddin..Lyd n Boy fer an engagement ...left me Hallie n Momo.. was supposed to meet up wif Cik Ida @ Mustafa..but she told us to jus meet her at bedok... so we were driving pass expo n we saw ....
...so told Momo to go pray b4 droppin me n Hallie there hehheheh ... so chop chop(pinjam eh Hana) shoppin... Momo fetched us..dropped Hallie @ Bedok Mrt n we went on to visit...

she is cute n notty...so noisy !!

..tried taking pics of her so called 'belajar' n every time i tried to snap...she'll go 'tsk' n turn away from me...
then after that..fetched Mama n dada ...

..kesian Ein... not his very active self...
so did we went countdown?? or how did we do it this yr??simple...
we stayed home!!!

We wen..

..visiting today!!!... guess who did we visit??
we went tampines to visit..Aniq Izhan n his daddy n mummi...

will update more next yr k...pics..in my multiply..kekekke

Lyd's

Rozieta's Engagement

I m busy again..

...after d long wkend...n now back @ work.. i'm gonna b in my busy mode again... have 2 places to visit this wk or wknd.. one to Hana's n d other to Nomie's...

..I miss Nom...been a bad bad buddy... kept tellin her we shall have din one day but till she gave birth i've yet to have din wif her... so.. this time i must not disappoint her.. must visit d dear Rian Hakimi...

...next wk gonna b another very busy wk... but shall not think of next wk...
we really need a holiday...
Sen was plannin fer a kl getaway wif his reservist buds plus d other halves minus dat Yan... but d timing is not right...i would love to go ...mayb they have to postpone it to a later date n change d location as..hmmm always kl also sien... bangkok mayb...

have yet to update Lyd's n Rozieta's pics...

24/12

..we r one..

..we r son in luv wif d 'Love Song' by 311..

..it is soo..Zack...

thanks arh YAN WIF D NEW SONY ERICSSON WIF ITUNES...

..suka lar aku kacau kau...


Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you

Biology class n Kopitalk

...yesterday was jus crazie... wif d usual suspects... first we were @ Newton...

..after not meetin fer some time ..wif Farah outstation...n d rest bz wif other commitements..we finally get to set aside some time to meet up n as usual...be crazy... after that we went to Kaki5 to have a very very belated birthday celebration fer.... these 2 ladies...

... we had kopikopi talk @ kaki5...d guys were jus CRAZIE..lagilagi si Wan...
i jus dunno wat got into us yesterday lar.. hmmm apa rush eh... well..Farah's back in kl again... so hmmm we'll wait fer her to com back this sat..so we can proceed wif d BIG BASH OF D YR.. fer us la dat is hehhehe..hopefully things go on fine...pics r in my multiply.. hihihi

Wifey duties

...after a wk of no Sen.. he's back..fer a while as he has another mobilisation goin on later in d afternoon.. so being d 'good' wife... i baked lasagne... n its a success.. one thing abt Sen..he's never choosy abt food... he'll jus chomp down anythin i cook..even if it doesnt taste nice... he'll give me advice n suggestions on how to make it better n of coz lar i'll heed his advices..coz he can cook well yer know n his advices works... lasagne is a bit leceh to make lar..but if u put ur heart into it.. u can do it... at d end of d whole thing i feel so happy jus by lookin @ d lasagne n how Sen enjoys it..

...hmmm another step fer d project independent...

Reservist

..these 2 r my army babes... sen's goin fer his reservist tomoro n i'll be partnerless fer a wk again!! Syir's here to stay fer d nite.. well she's gettin more n more cleverer day by day...we jus ADORE her!!!

dis babey

Its 4.50am

... ir eally dunno wat de hell i'm doin up in d wee hrs of d mornn.. actually.. hmmm i fell asleep at abt 10pm...had a bad dream n woke up... feelin sleepy but i feel that i shoul post this up b4 i ferget... d bad dream... losing all my closest fren... hmmm in d dream... i dreamt of Tinibear.. we were kind of argued n we kept argueing..till she did somethin to me.. hehehe aka 'Nathan's stunt'.. n dat made it worst...imagine workin in d same place together side by side but we don talk... well dat happen in dat dream...i woke up..sat n thought abt it... d feeling is so awful... i dn like it one bit...made me miss someone...

...i'm such an emotional freak...too soft hearted...for all d things she did to me... i fought wif meself abt callin her... wat was i thinkin??? i forgive easily... i kept thinkin to myself...mayb she did all this bcoz she was lost @ dat point of time...lost n blind n hungry... hungry for position.. blind to see wats happenin to our frenship and lost..whether she should choose between frenship or work?? but friendship == companionship...blah blah blah but work == money and money== lots of other tings... so mayb dat was y she choose work!!!

..well actually wat i want to say here is dat... i'd been spendin too much time @ home wif sen..wif meself... or wif sen's fam or my fam or @ work @ sch dat i failed my job as a friend to some of my other friends..who need me @ d time wen they r @ d lowest point of their life n i fail to help them!!! ARGHHHHH!!! some ppl said i spend too much time wif my frens.. WWHHYY?? bcoz my friends r somewhat like my family... i go out wi my friends i go out wif my family.. but i hadnt been doin dat lately.... argggghhh!!!!

...dear friends.. i'm really sorry if in this period of time i neglect u..or didnt spend much time wif u guys... i'll try my very best to adjust my time ...manage n organise my time properly ...

@ this point of tim
..i miss J Tin...d times we had...laffin our heads of...doin work wif tidbits all around...
..miss mariam... n d crazy things we do in sec sch...
.. my dearest mummy kambing...whom i really neglect..i'm so so sory...
n of coz... d yahya family d old yahya family...
..tok mat mak tok ayah...miss dem ...

A wk passed...

...i'm feelin high n low @ d same time... project indepence is hmmmm on d way... things are goin on pretty well i mus say... this wk had been a hmmm lonely wk... sen's doin his late shift n so i was partnerless fer a wk.. hmmm wonder how its gonna b @ d end of project independence... husbandless n familyless hmmmm...

..anyway.. cant wait fer 24th dec... n of coz 20th jan06... y??

..stay tuned...

D Sunday

...well..we wen to sop's weddin after sen came back.. but didnt make it in time fer sam's weddin.. sop n fairuz...me n sen wish u guys all d best..las yr it was ours n this time its u guys! dats wat u said on d dais... now lets all jus wait fer siti n her ehem ehem...pi

Sunday today...

...today we got 2 weddin to attend..one if my sec sch mate..sopianti!! n d other.. samsuri.. hmmm d dot dot dot...meeting yantty @ 1 Jurong East MRT.. cant wait to meet d x schmates..but sayang mariam not coming..workin.. miss her badly..wish she could make it..
..will b back wif updates laters... taaa

Early saturday mornin...

...a quiet saturday mornin..
..damien rice singin to me...
... tears jus welled up in my eyes...
...i dunno y...
.. all of a sudden..memories came back...
..times we had.. n things we gone thru..
...n i tot i'm d worst sufferin one...

...but i'm not...

.....last nite...
wen fer late supper wif d inlaws n stepmum-inlaw(auntie)
..auntie said somethin abt goin kl..fer a holiday ...
..sen said sth abt d sea games in phillipines... n d cebu island holiday starts..
bapak said its a nice island..better than langkawi...
..bapak said mayb we could all go.. fer hols.. on d 27th.. or if not march...
...hmmmm cebu....
....cebu...
..can it jus b d 2 of us??
...only??...