Ayubi..Sen n I..

Time pass real fast..soon Ayubi's gonna be 7mths..
it still feels like yesterday i had him in my tummy..wif him wriggling ard every now n then..
..giving birth to him...hahahha thats another story altogether..
yeah talking about that.. i've yet to pen down my birth story.. after what?? 7mths?? those memories wont fade away.. my first experience will always be in my mind...

Motherhood is fun..challenging ..tiring..but also exciting..
Sen was always there to support me..my aunts..my mum..Nana were all there to lend me a helpin hand whenever i need help..
Ayubi..he was an easy baby..rarely cry..only merengek a bit whenever he wants attention..or he's hungry..n now at 6mths plus..he's still an easy baby..friendly..smiles often..n not afraid of strangers hahah..he can follow anybody..whenever we go out.. mesti kena pinjam..

On working days, we will send him either on monday or tues to my step mil's house and fetch him on thurs or fri..and during his stay there we try to squeeze in time to visit him..play wif him..jus spend time wif him..yeah m not proud that we r wkend parents..but this is the arrangement we have to agree with for time being..insya allah till i finish studying.. n yes i am studying again!! hope i can manage.. get it done n over with...n then can think of the next step later..

N yes..we r still stayin at my parents' house.. for now lar.. till d investment plan matures..then we'll shift back...

I love my family..no matter watever happens..at the end of d day..they are still my family..

Meanwhile raya pics are up.@ariesseira.multiply.com.... =)

Our Life

I've always..think short term rather than long term.. n d results always make me upset with myself..

This ramadhan..things happen.. i get upset..sad..angry..disappointed..emotions run wild..n syukur kepadanya..Sen is always there to keep me sane..

cant wait for Humps to join us..

Just for...

Me!!!

• Fold clothes --->done!!
• Ambil baju fron Nenek Ju's house--->done!!tq de for running d errand!
• Wash and dry baju
• Put $$ in d envelopes --->done!! left d in laws, neneks n parents
• Plan Saturday's schedule
• Prepare Ayubi's clothes,bibs,clothes
• Sterilise Ayubi's bottles (All of them) --->done!
• Find Ayubi's dark snowie ---> found!!
• If got time take cabas from Long..
• Hang curtains ---> done!!
• Change bedsheets
• Sweep and mop and wangi2 --->done!! but need to buy more candles n air freshener

Dateline: TODAY!!!!

N so..

I've decided.. to blogspot again..
but darn.. i can retrieve my archives from ariesseira.blogspot.com..sien..
memories there..d rants.. d happy times.. my weddin moments.. all gone..
nvm.. memories are etched in my mind.. ferever..
n to start new journeys in life.. start with..

Our son...

AYUBI!!

So sepet right?? I am not sure where he get those eyes from hehe.. coz i dun think i am sepet ..Sen's not sepet too.. ah well.. maybe when he grows bigger..d sepetness will hilang..

He's 6mths now..still as fair..seems to get fairer and fairer as days goes by..looks more like me..though his features are his ayah's..Mama,Nana,Cik Ida said he looks like my FIL..i dunno..mayb so mayb not..mayb at times?? He's a real charmer..i can just sit and look at him doing his act.. and just do nothing..hahah ...

tsk..typed a whole list n suddenly it's gone..poof!???

After a while

Hadnt been writing..
Neither here nor multiply..
My vocab, grammar.. sentence construt..my tenses.. all haywire..
I would love to write again.. this time.. include Ayubi in my writings...
My darling..lovable son..
SOon..shall do all this soon..
Here is where i feel more comfortable ranting..d blogspot..

D day we shopped...

Hmmm hmmm
today Ayubiand me keluar kandang..
We went shopping @ Vivo!
Lucky Ayubi really lucky...
Jus like Uncle Dada...
Haven finish shoppin tho..
still have more stuffs to get..
For me!!!
For Yubi jus a diaper bag fer his neccesities and a grobag..for his kicking antics!!hehe

This is d yr i 4got...

...about u..
i was so caught up wif my own stuffs...
i wasnt well..i was still recovering from my op...
i even forgot dat it was my bday..mayb its time to move on...
though i still wish u were here.. wif us..wif me.. frens..and share d moments
that i go thru..
getting engaged..gettin married..giving birth.. d ups n downs in life...
i still miss ur 'menthol eh and rocher!'

and so a year ago

2IN1

Hey u..
Today is our day..
Guess how much i miss u..
Guess how much i had been thinking of u
Guess how much i talked about u..
Guess what i had been doing for d past 5 yrs..
5th year n still counting
The same old routine...
Tears b4 d joy of being a yr older..
Every Apr 14th..
U remind me.. d day my mum brought me to this world..
N d day u left us all..
So sad so sad
I miss u.. i always do..
I thought abt u.. i always do..Sen can vouch for dat..
I talked abt u..
N i'm always reminded of u..
One small marlboro menthols n rocher pls...
Is enuff.. for me from u..
No complains.. remember??
Al-fateha for u..
Till we meet..

@ d end of d rainbow..smiling @ me

And so after waiting with bated breath for 10months...our lil prince have arrived...

dos headaches

..@ work..
..in pain..
..my head's throbbing..
..it doesnt help that..
..i'm doin d 7 closing today..
..ouch...ouch..

My Heart

I jus wish i could hug u when u break d news to me..
can u believe it.. it's 10 years beb...
i remember when i broke d news to u yrs back that i;m gettin engaged n u turned to d x and asked "when u wanna marry me?" when i told u i'm gettin married u asked when's ur turn.. n now it finally came.. ur turn!! ur turn to be beautiful bride..d queen fer d day...

d times we had were jus priceless... we would 'mata mata' and take a cab down from bt panjang.. to bt batok n then to ghim moh... its ok to burn our pockets jus so that we get a few more minutes of sleep..

remember all those puppy loves.. that black n yellow hornet.. d cabut skool series and watch movie pagi2 buta jus to kill time.. loan my sis clothes to cabut coz u cant fit mine..those Miss Ann Miles crazy classes.. we were both always neck to neck wif d lang but u always did better than me..those quadrangle days where we had to stand in d hot sun.. only GummiBear n fren would come n sympathise with us..

Glen.. remember him?? hahah we dated him..secretly hahha u hid it from Badut n i hid it from u...crazy arent we...

.. 10 years n they jus passed like dat..
i cant wait.. come dec.. ur someone's Mrs..
..n its d start of a new book rite??remember??..'
..memories of yesteryears..d ups n downs we had..we fun n laughter.. those crazy nites..days @ sch.. i'll never forget them.. they are always....
in... My Heart...jus like d rest of d memories..wif d rest..

Hormones??

(Now) I Don Like
-perfumes (hafta use mild ones like bvlgari green tea or happy ones like clinique)
-cigarrete smells especially in my toilet (looks@ Nana)
-lotion (hafta change body lotion every month as i get sick one d smell n will puke when keep using the same one)
-all kinds of smell(be it BO, mouth or food smells.. make me wanna puke..now have to carry vapex wif me and a plastic bag if i were to puke...)
-long bus rides (will end up puking)
-rice (normal white rice.. d smell turns me off n a plate of white rice make my stomach churn)
-wearing skirts (i'm a trackpants and t shirt person now.. must be very comfortable if not i wont leave home)
-eating (when i am d type of person who ENJOYS food)

hmmm thats d list i have now...
pls i hope this is all jus a while coz its really very uncomfortable when i am this cerewet kinda person now.. its so not me.. so tiflun behave k in a few more months to come...

k sleeping time...

New happenings
..had been a while...
2 months done..finished my first prac and waitin fer d second..missin d kecoh girls @ skool.. will be meetin them soon in sept..
life's less busier now..
changes.. changes..changes...

we'll c u in april07 tiflun...
yes we will!!

Disappointments in life can b very disheartening

I miss d old 'us'.....
JB family late dinner trips wif us foolin ard in d car.. d 5 of us n Papa n Mama would jus look at us..happy that we are 'family'...but i guess it wasnt jus mean to b...one left..for years u were a part of d fam.. n when u left.. a part of us left wif u...

d new one came along..we kinda welcome it.. but it wasnt d same... it was awkward.. i dunno y i felt this way.. i guess its not fair.. i should have let d new show what he is capable of.. but i dun wan.. i wan d old one still...but we have to respect ppl right.. so i jus played dumb..

in me.. i still wan d old one.. d one who was a part of our life..

i guess sometimes .. its jus not meant to be...

sorry i jus have to let it out.. its eatin me inside..we're missing u fian...

Syukur

Syukur...
For d family who stood by me in all right or wrong decisions...
For d mama n papa who support me in all ways u could ever think of..
For d sister n brother whom always remind me that i have to share
For d man whom i have in my life.. fer keeping me sane.. everytime..

2 more months n i'm done...



errrrmmmm but 6 mths later may i??


Nana me n Sen hmmm sapa lar nak manage rumah eh...

Yeah not fergetting...

Syukur
Fer having a cute fren like Tin who never fails to cheer me up..
Fer having an annoyin sup.. Like NG..

Syukur ya Allah Syukur...

9Years

..this must be my fav phrase...
time pass really fast..
.. it had been 9 years.. 9 long years.. we hadnt met one another.. some of them came for d weddin while some were just gone.. like that.. it took that one soul.. that lemah lembut soul to gather all of us together n boy we had fun.. one more time pls...


sec skool had always been fun!!

D Tag

10 Favs..

Favourite Colour : Black..and maroon
Favourite Food : kuey tiaw goreng mama mata lembu..gerek!
Favourite Song : Any songs sung by my idol..Sen..
Favourite Movie : Young and Dangerous 1-10
Favourite Sport : rollerblading.. but slack already coz someone dun wanna replace my old blades..
Favourite Day of the Week : Wednesday! coz its midwk.. midwk always cheer me up.. coz i know wkends' coming!
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour : cinnamon ad chocolate
Favourite Car Model : Toyota Rav4
Favourite Subject in School :English during priamry sch Literature during sec skool n a's..
Favourite Snacks : wheat crackers dipped in hot cup of milo OR.. roti bakar wif margarine..(mana tak lagi gemuk eh!)



9 Current..

Current Mood : sien.. coz have to stay home..another burnt wkend..
Current Taste : Milo.. jus had a cup of milo with wheat crackers!!
Current Clothes : very VERY comfy green pullover..
Current Desktop : pink background.. pic of Dada n Syir in d car.. pretending to drive...
Current Toenail Colour : henna stained
Current Time : 825pm
Current Surroundings : in d bedroom.. wif Dada air con n tv blasting..
Current Annoyance(s) : itchy throat and that stupid phlegm that refuse to come out..
Current Thoughts : why does channel 5 have no other interesting shows... just reruns...



8 First(s)..
First Best Friend : Shahril Nizam from kindies... his Mama n my Mama r good frens so we r always together.. n last time his Mama n my Mama actually paired us up.. so called la.. me wif him n Nana wif the bro hahaha
First Crush :Yazid Kelana Salim.. during pri skool..our dads r frens but we don talk to one another anymore after an incident in skool....
First Movie : in a cinema? beethoven.. with my Cik Lala n Cik Akob Syasya Wawan n Nana
First Piercing : when i was 3..
First Lie : cant remember really.. but i know i lied when i told Mama i have remedial classes but only to come to sch early to help d makcik buang2 sampah clean the classrooms.
First Music : Papa n Mama n Ush's old retro songs that they always blast at Mak's house
First Car : Papa's Daihatsu when i was 6..ours? TJ ..
First Real Date Venue : hmmm East Coast .. during a sch gathering..hahaha



7 Last(s)

Last Drink : milo...
Last Car Ride : just now.. to Cik Tipah's bro's house to melawat..
Last Movie : X-men 3
Last Phone Call : hmmm Cik Ida d usual updates on my baby Syir
Last Song Played : Buttons by Pussycat dolls
Last Food Ate : sucky chicken chop @ Teh tarik..
Last Thing I do before I go to sleep : set alarm clock ..call sen if he's on nite shift.. said gd nite..sleep..



6 Have You Ever(s)

Have you ever dated one of your best friends : hmmm just going out rite.. yeah..
Have you ever broken the law : sch law yes!
Have you ever been arrested : hmmm was detained but not arrested.. bcoz naik motor that has modifications .. hmm heheh but not Sen's lar..
Have you ever skinned dipped : nope!
Have you ever been on TV : yes!mat yoyo.. joined d game wif uncle..
Have you ever kissed someone you didn't know : yes!! d cutie tods in my sch!!



5 Things You Are Wearing.

engagement ring
undies n
pullover
hmmm
hmmmm



4 Things You've Done Today...


went melawat..
lunch date wif sen..
listened to lecture from Sen
eat my meds..





3 Things You Can Hear Right Now ...

the tv
Mama telling Dada to stop saying that he's hungry coz he jus had his dinner and he's hungry again..
the aircon..



2 Things You Can't Live Without ...

Mokhsen
Zainal family



1 Thing You Do When You Are Bored ...

Sleep...



5 Beautiful Peeps to Carry On The Game :
LADYLEE
DADHA
SALINA
AISAH and
TINIBEAR

ok i'm done..

My Favourite n Most Loved Boy

It's his gettin older day today..n yet he's away at work while i jus got home from sch..work again tom.. so only sunday then..hapi bday..
many many loves

from me!

Still drowning

Dear Twinkz,
As much as i want to do your tag.. unfortunately i cant...
Currently i'm drowning in articles on breastfeeding..teething..childcare...
lps..evaluations.. assignments.. pracs..
n of coz i miss u guys.. dunno when we can meet.. my sats n suns r jus filled wif jemputans jemputans n more jemputans.. home home n more home..rest rest and more rest..

Love,
The tubby one

Suffocated
..i m drowning in piles n piles of papers!!..
..70plus plus of observations to fill in..assignments.. household chores..
..personal time.. arghhhh!!tired..now 10 mins to 1 n i'm doing laundry plus observations!!jus filling in .. by hand some more!!!..
..ng i'm drowning!! help!!

Love Hate Relationship

I have a love hate relationship with this person..
a gal to be exact..
mayb i'm jealous becoz she's younger than me
mayb bcoz she looks so much better than me..
has a great figure which i don have!!
who is cleverer than me..
who is a neat freak!!
who shops more than me...
who has a 6 door wardrobe(from the floor to d ceiling) full of nice nice clothes.. n plus her four drawers
who has a few racks of shoes!!!(every month beli kasut..not 1.. can be 3 per mth or more!!!)

but still.. i love her.. we do quarrel..we fight!!hmmm i think when we were young...
n whenever we quarrel ..guess who cries.. ME!!!! she'll jus buat bodoh..

this entry is so so so belated.. but i hope .... YOU LIKE IT BULU KAMBING!!!

Our Bulu Kambing Mine Mama's Papa's Dada's n Sen's
Happy 21st Birthday!!