Jalan Raya with d Fam...

Saturday was a day spent with family...

Nana had her very late jalanraya..

We kick start the day by visiting Ayubi's nenek n atuk ..my fil and step mil..@ Bt Panjang..

Auntie my step mil, cooked fried bee hoon, fried chicks and a fillipino hmmm dessert..banana wrapped in popiah skin and fried.. that was delish.. hmmm must remember to fry some later..chit chat..she shared wif Mama about Ayubi...watched a bit of fillipino entertainment show..(wonder if Ayubi will pick up tagalog..ahaks!) said our gdbyes and left fer pertapis halfway house.. to catch Insyirah in action...

But we were stucked in a traffic jam after Eng Neo and we missed Insyirah's performance.. she was so hmmm mentel in her ala mimpi manis blue kabaya.. so mentel.. saw my ex pr sch mate there.. Siti Suhana Salim wow i can remember her full name sia.. aha!

We then went to Mami's, Cik Yah's,Hambali's, Hambali's nenek and Cik Lala's...Ayubi lepak at Cik Lala's house..he was so dead beat that he didnt even wake up for his 5am milk feed.. my playful son...

Enough..

of those unhappy things...

let's move on to the happier things..

firstly i'm so so glad that my home is back as usual.. calm.. quiet.. peaceful..serene...

secondly...Ayubi's teething!! like finally! had been waiting and waiting to c that white sight! he's also taking few steps.. at 7 mths he can stand on his own while hanging on to something, he can sit upright, roll about, crawl, and jabbers!! d first jabbers i heard was 'nananananananana'.. my dear baby... i had u in my tummy for 10 months and the first word u can say is Nana?? ur Ummi's name?? n d next word i heard was dadadadadaddada.. ur uncle's name?? Dada was very excited when he heard that.. kept boasting to everyone that Ayubi can say his name hahahha...

thirdly... the outing with d xGmss was great!! we enjoyed ourselves..we kept reminiscing the times we had in sch.. d notty times... the good times.. d crazy times... n now no more GMSS.. such a pity!

fourthly.. cant wait for this saturday n sunday.. last kopek for jalan raya.. saturday with Mama to d inlaws..to Mami's n sunday... wif d gang of brothers!!

more pics in my multiply...

Orang Yg tak Sedar diri..

Either u're asleep all this while..
High on those pills..
Or maybe in denial..

6years ago..
U broke a company..

N now
U wanna break a family?

Not a chance..
Remember Allah is great?
May u get what u deserve

Even tho not in dunia
There's always akhirat..

Remind u again..
Allah is great!!

Some things...

Some things never change..
D time we have alone..
Talking...
Non stop.. we can go on forever..
I like it how u complete me..
In everything..
When we actually don in sec skool..

D Weekend

Oh well..first things first.. fetched Ayubi last evening n how i wish i could drive n not bother his ummi to drive me there..
Poor Nana! Had to take a break in d midst of studyin for her neverending exams to drive me there..

He has grown taller since d last time i saw him which was a few days ago..
Reach home, as usual.. spend some tummy time wif his Grandma n Ummi.
Was feedin him dinner, heard some shufflings outside d gate.
Though it was his Uncle Dada..but saw his Ayah..member apalagi so excited..kickin his legs in excitement..

Sen did his prayers..after that we took a ride to IMM to get Ayubi's play pen..won't wanna another accident to happen..so before it happen better to take precaution right?

Bought a cheep cheep one as Ayubi will only be using it for wkends..went back...set it up.. playtime with Ayubi while d Ayah dozed off to dreamland.. poor hub of mine.. reservist penat eh ehhehe....

D ehrrmmm first real fall...

Ayubi had his first real fall today.. d first one was @ his FIL's place....but he actually fell on a stack of pillows and blanket.. so ehm i don actually take that as his first fall.. ahahha

While this time..no pillows no nothing.. jus him and d cold floor.. d feeling was..URGHHHHH!!! but no point getting angry at anyone..dat moment was jus..'is he ok??' n after checking all's well.. d next thing was 'oh shot! wat would FIL say!!??!!' My FIL is VERY, i repeat VERY protective of his one and only grandson..well push that aside let my beloved husband answer his dad becoz he was d one at fault.. n the next thinking was..'SHUCKS today all d neneks coming, they will sure nag at me!!'...tak payah tunggu lama2 keluar bilik je.. Mama dah start bising..

M:'Dia jatuh kan (sambil carry the crying Ayubi) Mama dah cakap dah.. tak dengar.. go n buy a proper cot lar!'

Me: 'Oklah (still shocked n near to tears).

Mama nag nag nag nag.. i jus listened lor..

In d midst of Mama's naggings his ummi came out of her room..biasa la ummi Ayubi tu drama skit...

Wat happen was.. his cot was at FIL's place becoz they were afraid he would fall off d bed there so as we were busy this wk wif Sen doin d late shift n me wif i dunno wat hahah we didnt get a new cot in time for Ayubi when he came home on Fri. so we make do wif many many pillows, comforters.. on d bed and none on d floor.. *silly us*. Everything was fine on Saturday n it happen today.. this mornin.. i was still sleepy from d effects of d medicine..while Sen was still groggy after solat subuh.. he didnt realise his son had squeezed between d gap of the pillows and well.. d rest is history!! Iced his forehead..much to his annoyance.. rub rub wif ummi's hair..which i remembered last time when i was young, Nenek used to do that when i have bumps and buahluku wherever..he was up n active like normal.. like nothing happened... observed him for fever.. or vomitting..lethargic.. so far he's ok.. eatin well.sleeps like normal...Sen n i .. told each other that we would only confess what happen if FIL should ever asked.. n he didnt so we kept mump.. yes we were guilty as charged!! should have got him the cot!!! Just told Auntie to observe if he should develop a fever to call me as he might have caught it from me. due to d constant kissing ..huggings n lovealls...

Just called him a while ago.. n Auntie said that he had a nitemare n was crying badly but all was good after a bottle of milk..poor baby of mine.. make me feel even worse when i hear that.. i wish i don have to work n i can look after him all d time.. but *sigh* i cant..

Lesson learnt..

Put pillows and comforters on d floor too!!!

Lousy!

I really feel lousy..
With the nose that's fickle..
Sometimes running and sometimes blocked..
The head that keeps throbbing...
No matter how many pills i popped..

Hopefully i wont pass this to my baby when i fetch him later =(..

Ayubi..Sen n I..

Time pass real fast..soon Ayubi's gonna be 7mths..
it still feels like yesterday i had him in my tummy..wif him wriggling ard every now n then..
..giving birth to him...hahahha thats another story altogether..
yeah talking about that.. i've yet to pen down my birth story.. after what?? 7mths?? those memories wont fade away.. my first experience will always be in my mind...

Motherhood is fun..challenging ..tiring..but also exciting..
Sen was always there to support me..my aunts..my mum..Nana were all there to lend me a helpin hand whenever i need help..
Ayubi..he was an easy baby..rarely cry..only merengek a bit whenever he wants attention..or he's hungry..n now at 6mths plus..he's still an easy baby..friendly..smiles often..n not afraid of strangers hahah..he can follow anybody..whenever we go out.. mesti kena pinjam..

On working days, we will send him either on monday or tues to my step mil's house and fetch him on thurs or fri..and during his stay there we try to squeeze in time to visit him..play wif him..jus spend time wif him..yeah m not proud that we r wkend parents..but this is the arrangement we have to agree with for time being..insya allah till i finish studying.. n yes i am studying again!! hope i can manage.. get it done n over with...n then can think of the next step later..

N yes..we r still stayin at my parents' house.. for now lar.. till d investment plan matures..then we'll shift back...

I love my family..no matter watever happens..at the end of d day..they are still my family..

Meanwhile raya pics are up.@ariesseira.multiply.com.... =)

Our Life

I've always..think short term rather than long term.. n d results always make me upset with myself..

This ramadhan..things happen.. i get upset..sad..angry..disappointed..emotions run wild..n syukur kepadanya..Sen is always there to keep me sane..

cant wait for Humps to join us..

Just for...

Me!!!

• Fold clothes --->done!!
• Ambil baju fron Nenek Ju's house--->done!!tq de for running d errand!
• Wash and dry baju
• Put $$ in d envelopes --->done!! left d in laws, neneks n parents
• Plan Saturday's schedule
• Prepare Ayubi's clothes,bibs,clothes
• Sterilise Ayubi's bottles (All of them) --->done!
• Find Ayubi's dark snowie ---> found!!
• If got time take cabas from Long..
• Hang curtains ---> done!!
• Change bedsheets
• Sweep and mop and wangi2 --->done!! but need to buy more candles n air freshener

Dateline: TODAY!!!!

N so..

I've decided.. to blogspot again..
but darn.. i can retrieve my archives from ariesseira.blogspot.com..sien..
memories there..d rants.. d happy times.. my weddin moments.. all gone..
nvm.. memories are etched in my mind.. ferever..
n to start new journeys in life.. start with..

Our son...

AYUBI!!

So sepet right?? I am not sure where he get those eyes from hehe.. coz i dun think i am sepet ..Sen's not sepet too.. ah well.. maybe when he grows bigger..d sepetness will hilang..

He's 6mths now..still as fair..seems to get fairer and fairer as days goes by..looks more like me..though his features are his ayah's..Mama,Nana,Cik Ida said he looks like my FIL..i dunno..mayb so mayb not..mayb at times?? He's a real charmer..i can just sit and look at him doing his act.. and just do nothing..hahah ...

tsk..typed a whole list n suddenly it's gone..poof!???

After a while

Hadnt been writing..
Neither here nor multiply..
My vocab, grammar.. sentence construt..my tenses.. all haywire..
I would love to write again.. this time.. include Ayubi in my writings...
My darling..lovable son..
SOon..shall do all this soon..
Here is where i feel more comfortable ranting..d blogspot..

D day we shopped...

Hmmm hmmm
today Ayubiand me keluar kandang..
We went shopping @ Vivo!
Lucky Ayubi really lucky...
Jus like Uncle Dada...
Haven finish shoppin tho..
still have more stuffs to get..
For me!!!
For Yubi jus a diaper bag fer his neccesities and a grobag..for his kicking antics!!hehe

This is d yr i 4got...

...about u..
i was so caught up wif my own stuffs...
i wasnt well..i was still recovering from my op...
i even forgot dat it was my bday..mayb its time to move on...
though i still wish u were here.. wif us..wif me.. frens..and share d moments
that i go thru..
getting engaged..gettin married..giving birth.. d ups n downs in life...
i still miss ur 'menthol eh and rocher!'

and so a year ago

2IN1

Hey u..
Today is our day..
Guess how much i miss u..
Guess how much i had been thinking of u
Guess how much i talked about u..
Guess what i had been doing for d past 5 yrs..
5th year n still counting
The same old routine...
Tears b4 d joy of being a yr older..
Every Apr 14th..
U remind me.. d day my mum brought me to this world..
N d day u left us all..
So sad so sad
I miss u.. i always do..
I thought abt u.. i always do..Sen can vouch for dat..
I talked abt u..
N i'm always reminded of u..
One small marlboro menthols n rocher pls...
Is enuff.. for me from u..
No complains.. remember??
Al-fateha for u..
Till we meet..

@ d end of d rainbow..smiling @ me

And so after waiting with bated breath for 10months...our lil prince have arrived...

dos headaches

..@ work..
..in pain..
..my head's throbbing..
..it doesnt help that..
..i'm doin d 7 closing today..
..ouch...ouch..

My Heart

I jus wish i could hug u when u break d news to me..
can u believe it.. it's 10 years beb...
i remember when i broke d news to u yrs back that i;m gettin engaged n u turned to d x and asked "when u wanna marry me?" when i told u i'm gettin married u asked when's ur turn.. n now it finally came.. ur turn!! ur turn to be beautiful bride..d queen fer d day...

d times we had were jus priceless... we would 'mata mata' and take a cab down from bt panjang.. to bt batok n then to ghim moh... its ok to burn our pockets jus so that we get a few more minutes of sleep..

remember all those puppy loves.. that black n yellow hornet.. d cabut skool series and watch movie pagi2 buta jus to kill time.. loan my sis clothes to cabut coz u cant fit mine..those Miss Ann Miles crazy classes.. we were both always neck to neck wif d lang but u always did better than me..those quadrangle days where we had to stand in d hot sun.. only GummiBear n fren would come n sympathise with us..

Glen.. remember him?? hahah we dated him..secretly hahha u hid it from Badut n i hid it from u...crazy arent we...

.. 10 years n they jus passed like dat..
i cant wait.. come dec.. ur someone's Mrs..
..n its d start of a new book rite??remember??..'
..memories of yesteryears..d ups n downs we had..we fun n laughter.. those crazy nites..days @ sch.. i'll never forget them.. they are always....
in... My Heart...jus like d rest of d memories..wif d rest..

Hormones??

(Now) I Don Like
-perfumes (hafta use mild ones like bvlgari green tea or happy ones like clinique)
-cigarrete smells especially in my toilet (looks@ Nana)
-lotion (hafta change body lotion every month as i get sick one d smell n will puke when keep using the same one)
-all kinds of smell(be it BO, mouth or food smells.. make me wanna puke..now have to carry vapex wif me and a plastic bag if i were to puke...)
-long bus rides (will end up puking)
-rice (normal white rice.. d smell turns me off n a plate of white rice make my stomach churn)
-wearing skirts (i'm a trackpants and t shirt person now.. must be very comfortable if not i wont leave home)
-eating (when i am d type of person who ENJOYS food)

hmmm thats d list i have now...
pls i hope this is all jus a while coz its really very uncomfortable when i am this cerewet kinda person now.. its so not me.. so tiflun behave k in a few more months to come...

k sleeping time...

New happenings
..had been a while...
2 months done..finished my first prac and waitin fer d second..missin d kecoh girls @ skool.. will be meetin them soon in sept..
life's less busier now..
changes.. changes..changes...

we'll c u in april07 tiflun...
yes we will!!

Disappointments in life can b very disheartening

I miss d old 'us'.....
JB family late dinner trips wif us foolin ard in d car.. d 5 of us n Papa n Mama would jus look at us..happy that we are 'family'...but i guess it wasnt jus mean to b...one left..for years u were a part of d fam.. n when u left.. a part of us left wif u...

d new one came along..we kinda welcome it.. but it wasnt d same... it was awkward.. i dunno y i felt this way.. i guess its not fair.. i should have let d new show what he is capable of.. but i dun wan.. i wan d old one still...but we have to respect ppl right.. so i jus played dumb..

in me.. i still wan d old one.. d one who was a part of our life..

i guess sometimes .. its jus not meant to be...

sorry i jus have to let it out.. its eatin me inside..we're missing u fian...