Getting into d routine

I m so beat!!
Mayb bcoz d date is nearing.. I'm heavier.. Work to be done to meet datelines.. Cooking for d kids.. Lugging them to sch with this heavy self.. But I'm thankful I'm able to do all this.. N I'm very thankful that I have my helpful parents.. N my always there husband who does d housechores.. Handling d
Kids.. Driving us to n fro to sch..he's always there.. Syukur alhamdulillah...

The kids are all right.. I always get very worried when they fall sick.. It hurts me!! To c them sick.. Not their usual self:(

I'd been trying to get them used to a routine n syukur alhamdulillah .. They r getting into it... It's tiring but.. Worth it.. N sen will help me whenever he can.. I hope this routine stays so that it will b easier got me too when d baby comes..

After school .. Reach home.. It's dinner time for both.. Depends.. STM zahra first or ub.. Vice versa.. Yeah ub can eat on his own but feeding him bonds me n him.. We talk during mealtimes.. For Zahra.. Her mealtime is also play time.. She'll walk ard but will come back for her food...so it's fine with me.. After dinner it's time to wash up.. A bit of tv time .. Then sleep... It's easier to put Zahra to sleep now n while zahra sleeps I get to spend some time with Ub.. Watch tv n explain to him d
Happenings ard him etc..

I'm starting my ML next wk.. Wanna start early coz I nd to buy stuffs to stock up.. It's diff to do it after delivery.. Nd to settle ub's religious class.. N some other stuffs.. N also have some me time before d baby arrives..

It's our 6th on d eve of Xmas.. Fast huh! On new yr, we r going for a concert.. Just d two of us.. Hope 2011 is a great yr for us insya Allah!! Amin...

-ariesseira-

Cannot imagine

Well, our ppl made d news again.. For d wrong reasons.. D child who died.. Is Ub's age.. He had bruises on his body.. Injuries in d brain.. His leg was broken in 8 parts.. Ya Allah.. I jus cannot imagine!! Wat was that fella thinking? Didn't he feel anything.. Danish Iman was jus a kid.. He has many yrs ahead of him.. But we'll nvr know.. Mayb Allah take him away coz he wasn't looked after properly in life.. He is in a better place.. N I hope that fella who did this to him.. Will get wat he deserves.. Al fateha

Words

At 10 coming to 11 mths.. Zahra can say
-kick
-catch
-ahbu(ibu)
-ayah
-papapa (grandpa)
-Mamama (grandma)

Food for Zahra

Today I cooked
-silverfish n carrots porridge
-lentils n chix with brown rice
-apple and pear purée
-tofu, salmon n broccoli with brown n normal rice

For Zahra's breakfast lunch and dinner...
Must get more containers.. For her fruit purees.. Got to serve her more
Fresh veggies to up her immunity system..

-ariesseira-

Wedding

Today is d wedding of a dear friend.. Though we don contact each other most of d time.. But we r still close.. Dunno how to explain that.. We were sec sch mates.. We were not that close in sch too but i remembered.. D time he walked with Yantty n Sen decided to walk with me to pair up.. Those nice memories.. Bringing tears to my eyes.. He was stuck up in sch but after knowing him better.. He is often misunderstood.. He n his bro r always nice smelling.. U know y?? Coz his mum works in metro marina and she Always get them perfumes.. He is a romantic at heart.. How I know that.. Coz he was yantty's bf for a while.. But things don work out.. Coz Yantty hmmm was young at that time i guess.. He got her a big v card.. Gave her a Tiffany soap that Yantty kept .. Till only recently she threw it away.. I know deep in yantty's heart.. He holds a special place.. Even till now.. He's dear to her n i know she regrets her actions towards him d last time.. Well i guess it's meant to b.. I'm happy for him that he's married now.. To d one he love dearly.. Finally true love for u fi.. I remembered u had a cash-flow prob n I dig my piggy bank for u ehheh.. Gave u coins!! Those memories.. Light up my life.. Congrats babe!! I'm jus so so happy for u!!

This notty boy!

Ub hadn't had much attention from us since Zahra fell sick d other day.. At one point of time he told me he wanted to b sick just like Zahra.. That really saddens me..

He had been misbehaving lately and I know it's a cry for attention.. The wrong way!! Ya Allah!! Soon I have to split my attention into three..

I hope and want to give my utmost attention to my kids.. Each of them are different individuals and I have to get to know their individual needs and wants...

Friday and Saturday are closure at sch.. No sch for Ub n Zahra but still work for me.. Zahra will b staying home with grandma coz ayah is away on reservist.. While Ub will be coming to work with me.. I hope these two days I get to give as much attention as I can to him.. Hight on Saturday and mayb I'll try to squeeze in a movie after that..

Since d ayah will b away for the whole wknd too.. I got to find ways to occupy them.. I know my smil will wanna have Ub over.. But I was thinking mayb not this wk.. I wanna spend time with him.. N mayb try together with Zahra too..

Hope this works..

I love u abang no matter how notty u r.. I still do.. Like I always say.. Coz ur my special first.. While Zahra is my special second:)..

New hobby

This lil gal has jus recovered from her fever... Phew... It breaks my heart whenever she or her bro is down.. Well who doesn't right! D sleepless nights of sponging.. Meds.. Cuddling.. Drained us out.. I'm so glad that I have an understanding hub and very helpful parents n siblings.. They help out when these happen..

Though she is well.. She's not drinking her milk from d bottle and has to be spoon fed.. Wonder if it's the bottle or her teeth that is making her irritable..

Her new hobby of 'bongkar' her yellow basket seems to keep her occupied for now.. One thing abt Zahra.. She can concentrate on tasks/activities for quite a while compared to the bro..

Hmmm looks like I jus have to b prepared to clean up d mess after her!!

Finally discharged

I was finally discharged on Monday afternoon.. After almost 5days in d hosp.. My sugar level was still a bit erratic but I really really wanna go home.. Worried for my kids.. Worried for mama n sen..

Sen had been a great help.. He has always been a great help.. Send d kids to sch.. Visit me.. Pick them up.. Send them home.. Spent time and settled their stuffs then visit me in d hosp again.. I don think he had enough rest...

After I came back home.. Zahra showed signs of falling sick.. True enough she fell sick and is still sick.. I hope ub won't get it from her as both of them r very close.. Ub will b constantly kissing and hugging her while she prefers to sleep next to him.. I'd been vomit on countless of time.. We both had sleepless nights n I have to take another day or urgent leave today as I dun think her fever is getting any better.. N sen is going down as well:((.. Will bring her to d gp if it doesn't goes down.. No more kk.. The meds they give normally don work:(

So worried for Zahra.. Hopefully d fever breaks tomoro...

Another day again!!

It sure is frustrating but I must control my emo coz the emo can raise d sugar level in my blood..

Jus came back from d walk to burn d sugars.. Bought these mags and newspapers to keep me occupied and keep my spirits high too... Hopefully today's medicine dosage help to bring down d sugar level ..

I must have not been exercising for a long time.. Coz after walking three rounds of d kampung java park my face is as red as a beetroot!! Ya Allah.. When was d last time I was that red faced?? I think hmmm when I was in amore in 2006 before I got to know I was preys with ub.. I should start... No scrap that I MUST START!!!

Walk

Walking ard kampung java park to burn some sugar.. Burn sugar burn!!

Hospitalised!!

Hooked on d ctg machine to monitor baby's heartbeat.. But bb keep moving and we keep getting 0...

Dear boy... Cooperate and let us get this over and done with.. I know ur feeling uncomfortable that's y u keep moving and can't keep still but hold on ok babe!!

I m hospitalised to monitor my sugar level after being given insulin.. It runs in d fam.. For now I'm having GDM ... Gestational diabetes mellitus.. I got it with Zahra n was prepared that I'll get it again... But didn't foresee that I'll b given insulin and hospitalised!! 

So far d experience here has been nice.. Except d filling for admission.. Mayb I was being a tad too sensitive but I find that d CS could do with a bit more sensitivity on her pad.. and up ur service pls!!

Nurses.. Doctors.. The care assistants are nice.. But I still wish I'm in teeyemsee tho... I miss being there..

It's bored here but ok manageable.. Am suppose to walk to burn off sugar after every meals/snacks...

May b a small deal for some ppl but a big deal for me!! I'd been eating my vegs and drinking low fat milk everyday since Thursday... No choice!! Its for d baby!! N me of coz.. But bb matters most.. I hated d taste of milk.. I stop drinking milk totally at 4 I think.. N hadn't drink any since.. Except for chocolate milk.. Condensed milk.. Hahaha n now I'm paying for d price!!

Arghhh!! Jus took my blood test again.. It's always high after food!! Hmm I'd been walking after my breakfast jus now but it seems it's not enough... I'm hungry again now coz i don think d breakfast this morning was sufficient.. Bleargh!!!

I wanna go home!

-ariesseira-

Hospitalised!!

Sleepless

Zahra n Ub seizing control of d bed..plus d broken down air con equals to sleepless me.. A hot and sticky night.. Finished my ice cream in front of d blowing fan.. Still can't sleep.. Thinking of what to do with the kids later today.. While I'm at that.. Shall finish off my laundry.. While d machine's in a gd mood!!

-ariesseira-

Mama's fridge!!

Apart from d frozen food stored in Mama's fridge.. Two tier are taken up by Nania's milk and Zahra's purees!!
Hahahaha!! Lucky thing the fridge is big!

Eve of Deepavali

Zahra's asleep..
I've sorted d kids dirty laundry.. Washing them in a while...
Cooking brown rice porridge with butternut pumpkin for Zahra's 3 days worth of food...
Fed Ub his dinner of fishballs and spinach..
Wat a gd start to a great wknd!!

-ariesseira-

Cookouts

I love cooking for Zahra.. She eats everything I cook hahaha.. Ub was a picky eater.. Since he was with my smil during d time he was weaning.. I didn't get much chance to cook for him.. He prefers smil's cooking coZ she's a better cook than me!! Hahaha!! Every sat morning is grocery shopping for d kids then it's back home to cook their lunch n Zahra's food for d rest of d wk... Zahra's been eating well lately so I have to cook more than three batches of food for her..

Unlike her bro.. She is a lil on d small side hehehe.. She's heavier but still small... A list of food Zahra eats...

•avocado
•lenthils and broccoli porridge
•cod fish with carrots n cauliflower
•chix n potato porridge
•apple n banana purée
•apple porridge
•fish porridge
•brown rice porridge
•pumpkin porridge

And am psych to cook and let her try other new food!

-ariesseira-

Monday Morning

My Monday starts with a gd exercise.. Shower.. Feed Zahra her breakfast of biscuits n milk.. Packing their bags...breakfast for Ub would b milk and bread with nutella.. Get ready then off to school/ work...

I'm lucky n blessed that Mokhsen helps a lot with the chores n kids.. Normally when he's home he'll help me with the showering and d washing of d kids.. Make milk.. Feed Ub while I feed Zahra.. He has always been a great help.. We were planning logistics for d arrival of tiflun or Ahmad Boy (name given by Abg Ub).. N we are grateful that we have very supportive families who r always there ever ready to help us.. Ub can stay with auntie while Zahra can stay with Emma.. Emma is Zahra's fav and auntie is undeniably Ub's.. I think I'm gonna have a hard time looking after 3.. But insya Allah with all d help I can get.. I hope to get into d routine of handling 3.. Insya Allah..

-ariesseira-

Sleep..

Wide awake now.. Can't sleep.. Put d kids to sleep n I slept with them.. Woke up at 1130pmn now can't go back to sleep.. Lil tiflun U dun wan me to sleep.. Hopefully d nutella n Milo helps..

-ariesseira-

Food!!

Bought vegs.. fruits.. For Zahra n Ub.. Can't wait to start cooking and and make purees!!

-ariesseira-

Sick Ones

It's tough having two sick kids.. I can go crazy.. Can't imagine having 3 sick ones for now.. Will go thru it when d time.. Yubi's better but zahra's fever keep fluctuating..Mama's not well too.. N when Zahra's fever went up till 39.8.. That's it.. I got to stay home.. She didn't sleep well last night.. I had to stay up to c she's ok.. Sponged her to keep temp down.. It was a wrestling match I tell ya.. Wasn't easy.. This morning.. She was as cranky as can b .. But with her ayah.. She was an angel.. She can smile n play!!
Oh babe!!
Still
Observing her now.. I really hope the fever breaks..
Ub who is much much better asked me if I'm ok.. (his fav quest).. Told him
I'm not coz I'm sleepy n tired... His answer shocked me.. Sensible for his age he said, 'ibu u sleep outside here n I look after adik.' been lying on d sofa n yes he help me supervise zahra.. Making sure she has her toys n that her walker is in d right places.. No choice I hate to put her in d walker but this time I've got no choice.. :(