Today i turned 27yrs..
Today is tion's anniversay..
Today is nenek's 99th days..
Today Misha is born...
Lots of things happen today..
My bday never fail to be accompanied by tears...
As i remembered my dear fren.. who left us on my bday itself..
I remembered his last words.. or rather his last email 'hey aries..i'm coming home... wait for me ya!'..
I emailed back 'yeah!! u're gonna be back at last..call me.. i'll be waiting..'
That call never came..y i didnt call.. coz u changed ur no..i waited waited..
Till that dreadful sms came..reading it once seems like a normal sms about condolences n stuffs...
Second time..d keywords were highlighted...excel...holland..third time i cant control my tears.. i was shaking..i kneeled coz i was weak like jelly.. i dunno if i was to cry .. was dumbfounded...
Called Nizam to confirm n he said yes... called Sen..cryin..suddenly all those words about jumpin.. leaving d world..came to mind...
It seems so surreal...
Few days later ur bro called n confirm everythin.. shed a bit of light on wat happened... she must have felt d worst..if i were in her shoes,... i wouldnt forgive myself..
al fateha buat Nasution Jumaat..dat dear fren of mine.. who apart from Sen.. kept me sane n footed to d ground..
mary.m msned ..its d day snip snip .... so she filled me in.. misha had to be delivered today at 1.. told her i wan to meet her b4 she gave birth.. but rushin to the pusara.. thomson n carousel.. seems a bit rushin n so told mirza.. would take a rain check.. n visit her at home when she's more relaxed n not tired anymore..
tears were flowin non stop on d way to pusara.. nenek's 99th days..who would have tot it was that fast... n soon nenek will be far away from us.. but always near to our hearts.. n always in our doas.. Sen did d usual recitations..shared wif me a bit abt cryin di pusara...Sen never fail to amaze me wif his knowledge of Islam..i know he's trying real hard to get me more involve inbeing agood muslim n all.. i m trying.. but i know not hard enough..i;m proud of Sen.. he's a diff man..from d time i know him.. got engaged.. being a husband .. n d man in d house,, he is so diff.. he changed.. for d better..syukur alhamdullilah...
well wat i wish for on my birthday?
insya allah to be a better muslim..
al fateha buat yg telah pergi.....
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