Angry!!

Somethin made me very angry today..
So angry that i feel like puking...
Fungkulo!!

SChool...

I start sch ..today!!
n i'm so tired....

7 yrs ago

7 yrs ago we met virtually..

Those midnite msns..midnite chats..overseas phonecall in d wee hrs..

Those lengthy emails..sent and replied..

Poems.. brought us together.. u were a sucker fer it.. n ur still are..

We were separated when ur comp. goes haywire...

U just started working at intel..

Working hrs were sucky..u were uncontactable..

D frequent emails..soon became rare..

U were so caught up wif work u forgot about me..

There i was.. jealous thinking of ur ex TV3 newscaster girlfriend..

Who hoped u guys could get together..who lived around ur vicinity.. while me?

Thousand miles away from you..thinking if our relationship would ever materialize..

It didnt..the last email u sent me was about..british shoes.. n british clothings.. about having leftover half spring chicken for buka and sahur..n that was it..though some ppl might find it boring.. i dont.. i like to read ur emails..ur short msns..

I was left hanging..U left me hanging...

Well who am i compared to those bigwigs right..

U disappeared.. n he came back...

He came and asked for a second chance.. i waited for u.. i tried to reach u but i jus cant..

After a few months.. i decided to take up the challenge and gave him a second chance..

After all..he was d one before u..

N so we were back together.. n u .. still missing..

I decided then.. to put u away.. in a box i called past..n embrace the present...

We were happy.. he decided not to take me fer granted ever again..

Months later..u beeped me..

U said u were at Continental..for a seminar n that u wanna c me..

I was unsure...after missing for a yrs plus.. u came back..

I had to decide...him or u..

It was a tough decision..but d present overcomes the past.. the present win hands down..

My decision.. was to leave u as my past.. n live on with my present....

I know u were someone then.. only u didnt wan to tell me.. u were that low profile..



7yrs later.. here i am.. watching G&G n saw u as the screenwriter..

A quick google.. there u were..a renown writer..scriptwriter..screenwriter..watever they call u..

Its nice to rake up the past once in a while..

Its nice to know ur there...

*smiles*

X

Rants..

I've so so much things to rant about..
But unfortunately..there's more work to do than to rant..

So shall let it rest first..

for now..these are what i have to do
-classroom
-PTC files
-cubbies
-shoeracks
-pictures
-books!
-prepare for sch

i need a getaway..after all this!

School?!?

I'm going to school again..
A yr break.. n next wk.. back to school..
I hope i can still take it..
From what Tin said.. its like.. full of research..
Insya allah.. wif all d support and encouragement..

School means ..less time wif Ayubi...
Only wkends..

Hmmmm really have to step it up!!

Earthbound

I was bloghopping.. as usual.. when i cam across this blog..

shall not mention names here..

i think for a while she was happy with her family..with the new car.. new career.. then sth must have happened.. that broke her family.. she n hub decide to split..

Reading her posts.. i could almost feel her pain.. tho i dunno her personally..

I think she was my junior but i dun remember bumping into her last time..

I dunno y.. when i read her posts..d memories of how i felt when i broke off with A flashed by.. of how sad..crazy..angry i was at that time...d look on Mama's face when she saw me wif those dreaded stiqs...

I felt low...really really low...we were even married to begin with...but still.. that emptiness feeling..that

N now... i felt low for her.. sad for her..i hope she stay strong.. though everytime its easy to say... but to be it.. it is very difficult..

I hope will all my heart that everything will go well for u =)...

Jalan Raya with d Fam...

Saturday was a day spent with family...

Nana had her very late jalanraya..

We kick start the day by visiting Ayubi's nenek n atuk ..my fil and step mil..@ Bt Panjang..

Auntie my step mil, cooked fried bee hoon, fried chicks and a fillipino hmmm dessert..banana wrapped in popiah skin and fried.. that was delish.. hmmm must remember to fry some later..chit chat..she shared wif Mama about Ayubi...watched a bit of fillipino entertainment show..(wonder if Ayubi will pick up tagalog..ahaks!) said our gdbyes and left fer pertapis halfway house.. to catch Insyirah in action...

But we were stucked in a traffic jam after Eng Neo and we missed Insyirah's performance.. she was so hmmm mentel in her ala mimpi manis blue kabaya.. so mentel.. saw my ex pr sch mate there.. Siti Suhana Salim wow i can remember her full name sia.. aha!

We then went to Mami's, Cik Yah's,Hambali's, Hambali's nenek and Cik Lala's...Ayubi lepak at Cik Lala's house..he was so dead beat that he didnt even wake up for his 5am milk feed.. my playful son...

Enough..

of those unhappy things...

let's move on to the happier things..

firstly i'm so so glad that my home is back as usual.. calm.. quiet.. peaceful..serene...

secondly...Ayubi's teething!! like finally! had been waiting and waiting to c that white sight! he's also taking few steps.. at 7 mths he can stand on his own while hanging on to something, he can sit upright, roll about, crawl, and jabbers!! d first jabbers i heard was 'nananananananana'.. my dear baby... i had u in my tummy for 10 months and the first word u can say is Nana?? ur Ummi's name?? n d next word i heard was dadadadadaddada.. ur uncle's name?? Dada was very excited when he heard that.. kept boasting to everyone that Ayubi can say his name hahahha...

thirdly... the outing with d xGmss was great!! we enjoyed ourselves..we kept reminiscing the times we had in sch.. d notty times... the good times.. d crazy times... n now no more GMSS.. such a pity!

fourthly.. cant wait for this saturday n sunday.. last kopek for jalan raya.. saturday with Mama to d inlaws..to Mami's n sunday... wif d gang of brothers!!

more pics in my multiply...