Separation anxiety

I know separation anxiety exists.. In chn n adults.. But I didn't think I would suffer from it.. Hahaha deniAl!! Ub's routine now has been changed in a way he'll spend weekdays wif us n on thurs after sch till sat or sun he'll be wif his Nenek n atuk..I njoy his company so much that when he's not ard.. Things r not fun anymore.. I'll relive his convos.. D things he say n I'll feel so sad after that.. N it made worse when I call him to hear his voice he'll always reject my call.. Hmmm I guess it's hormones.. :( can't wait to have him back tomoro.. I foresee d amount of persuasions we have to do to get him to go to sch on Monday hahahah..

On another story.. I'm at my 34th wks right now.. N m feeling v uncomfortable when night comes.. Can't sleep properly.. Have to sit down n sleep at times hahah..sometimes I do gt frustrated.. Feels like crying at time ahahh hormones!!! I m so emo over lil things.. :(( d last leg.. N we'll all get to see lil g insya Allah.. She's big.. Now she weights abt 2.9kg.. So if she's heavier on d 11th Jan.. I will have to b induced .. I have yet to prepare her stuffs n my e stuffs.. Bought her clothes though.. Jus left to wash it n fold it.. Had been thinking of Nenek recently.. Then jus realized it's her 2nd death anni next wk.. On d 11th Jan if not wrong.. Imiss her..miss having her ard.. :(( al fateha buat Nenek...

Ub's sch updates

It's almost 3 wks ub's in sch.. He still cries when sen leaves for home after sending us.. He cries when I told him I have to go n teach n he still cries when he sees me in my class or at any part of d sch.. He is such a cartoon!!
He normally converses with us in Malay.. N very lil eng as he converses more in eng with auntie (his grandma main caregiver all this while).. So after startin sch he converses more in eng.. AE keep tellin us to switch to eng but I refuse..I wan him to know d time to switch languages rather than pick up a new Lang n forget d old.. This is my personal opinion..*peace*...:)so three wks on.. He's speaking English.. Malay n lil bit of mandarin..more of mandarin coz it's sth v new to him.. It's so funny to hear him speak as he speaks as how he hears it so it's really funny sometimes it's sounds vulgar hahahah!!!
But I m real glad that I send him to sch at this time.. He'll re enacts things that happens in sch n it's so comical at times.. He's a silent observer.. Will jus sit n watch n will do it at home.. He's more independent now..feedin self n finishing it up.. Puttin clothes on himself n will keep saying he wants to do things on his own...


If u can c from this pic he's wearing 2 sets of clothes...


Fed himself.. Though messy but it's a start ... I njoy my time wif him even more now though sometimes I feel like crying when he refuse to cooperate or misbehaves.. I jus dun wan ppl to think I'm not capable of disciplining my child.. But now I couldn't care less.. Each child r diff individual.. They misbehave coz they need an outlet to xpress themselves.. So I should cut myself some slack n
Not stress myself over lil things:)


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Quality time

Having Ub at home is a bliss.. I love d time I have wif him.. Whenever sen goes for his night shift, I'll have few hrs of qt with ub.. It's so precious... It's easy to have conversations with him.. I can understand his speech n he can understand mine.. Bliss such bliss..


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Finally school

First day of school.. Was all happy n cheerful.. But cried when d ayah left.. Cried for most of the day.. That's normal to me.. But heart wrenching for d ayah.. Ub cried even harder when sen came.. It broke his heart to c his son cryin so badly hehe.. Normal for me coz normally I allow him to cry that bad too.. Fetched smil at takasyimaya..She n fil wanted to reward ub for being a brave boy in sch.. Got a new car.. They pamper him.. Sometimes too much I think.. But still syukur alhamdulillah.. They really dote him silly.



Second day.. Sen didn't get to send us as he was in d mornin shift.. I didn't get to sleep well d previous night n was very tired in d morn.. Sen told to cab not to tire me out any further.. Ub was whiney.. He really can whine!! So we cabbed.. Reached.. Spent some time .. N then...



Refused to let me go.. Cried..start all over again...
Third was much better..forTh day ponteng coz he went to nenek's house..fifth day was ok coz there were no kids n he had d centre all to himself..Sixth n seventh day whiney.. N cried a bit.. He'll step out of it.. But I'm glad I send him to sch at this age.. He comes home n sharednwif his grandparents or d ppl at home on what he learnt or did in sch.. Till more updates :))


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My teacher is...

Sen misheard ub's teacher's name... It's thinesh but sen had been teachin ub that it's teacher pinesh.. N d way ub says it like it's teacher penish... Now we r tryin to teach him d right name. N pronounciation though we still get that "my teacher is teacher penish" I hope he gets it right on tue.. Hahahaha


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When I grow up

Ub asked where's my earrings n went on to touch my ears.. N he turned to d tv.. Now I get it.. D guy on tv has a earring on his left ear.. So I went..."no no no earrings for boys..." to which ub answered "now cannot kan dah besar can!"
Oh my!!


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Memories...

Memories means a lot to me.. Brighten up my days..made me laugh.. Cry...

Facebook is d craze now ... I think .. :) created one for sen coz he kept hijacking mine.. A friend from d past added him.. N his pics brought memories of us all friends ...niza.. Diana k.. Diana s.. Yantty.. Badut..how time flies.. Some of us r already mothers...

Chalets...campin.. BBQ sessions.. Those were d days..it would b nice to meet up n catch up.. Though some of us r not on gd terms now.. I think we should forget d pass n move on from there.. Lifes wasted dwellin on
D past.. Pandai ckp Aries!! Should practice wat I preach.. Ok shall swallow d hurt .. N continue from there..

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End of sahm period

Few more hrs n my feeling sahm period is over....:((
Didn't do anything much wif ub.. Jus bummed ard the house... Ub is so well behave wif me at home.. but as usual will misbehave when his grandparents are around...n like usual d things he do amazes me... Can't wait for December when he starts sch wif me..

To date I have yet buy things for lil g.. I got a bag of donated clothes from an x colleague.. Syukur.. Think will have more
From my sil.. Did create a
List of things to buy for lil g.. But dun wanna rush.. Take things slow..:)

Hmmm back to reality tomoro.. Draggggggg

N do ayah's back

Look at these 2.. Like as if they hadn't seen each other for yrs... I rest my case!!


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Cries

Ub would cry whenever he wakes up n couldn't find his ayah... (he is THAT sticky to his dad)... Prepared him last nite that he'll have me at home while ayah goes to work.. To which he agreed.. Came mornin 802am... He cried coz well he couldn't fid his ayah... Let him cry it out coZ I know he was feelin sad n
Stuff ... Stopped when he remembered I had that new app on d iPhone n asked if he could play with it... Jus as I loaded it for him.. D ayah called n ub started cryin again hahah .. I laughed yea I did.. I have a very high tolerance for crying kids.. Hahha so let him cry again till he stop.. I think it's gonna b d same tomoro.. I'm jus gonna let him cry it out... Cryin is healthy.. I believe.. Expressing his emotions n let his lungs Exercise hahaha!!!


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Life...

A colleague's mum passed away this morning.. Cancer.. Few relapses n
then this... I feel her.. My maternal grandma had that..she left us
when I was 15.. Dejavu... When I visited her mum that day.. I was
transported back to the time I had my 'mak'...it was nvr easy to look
after d sick.. But it was the least that we could to till her akhir
hayat... I missed my grandparents.. They were d grandparents a child
could ever have...lost my paternal grandad @ 7.. He had a heart
attack.. I Jus started p1.. Tok ayah gave me everythin I wanted..or
watever I needed.. Same like Mak.. Tok mat n Nenek... I was d first
grandchild that explains how much they adore me... Second to go was
Mak.. Cancer...Lost her @ 15... Then tok mat..he was a strong man.. He
fell @ work n he nvr woke up... He introduced me to d world of
perfumes.. Always buyin me d latest ones.. Got engaged to sen 40 days
after tok mat left.. Or was it 100 days.. Regretted we didn't get
engaged earlier...Nenek was d recent to go..last yr.. Nenek watched me
grow... Engaged... Get married n had ub... Ub had his time wif her
though I know she would b even happier to c him grow...
Nenek's demise is still felt now.. I get dreams of her... I miss
her ...but Allah sayang kan dia...

Wonder how is it when it's our turn... We all eventually have to
return to our creator...

Life in d world.. Semua sementara...

Al fateha buat yg telah pergi ... Amin

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Ub says again

Ub likes to say "nanti b sorg mcm mana.." or "nanti b carik ibu/ayah
mcm mana..." or "nanti ub sedih..."whenevr we tell him he has to stay
at nenek's or with grandma while ayah n ibu goes to work.. N so I did
d reverse thingy wif him....

Happened jus a few Mins ago...
We just got back from Nenek mon's house (d ayah's mum.. My mil)... I
know ub is pretty knackered as he was on full swing wif his cousins n
d ever so hyper auntie haha.. D ayah.. Slept soundly.. As usual.. Our
sleep (me n ub's) routine would be chit chat or read a book.. Today is
not a reading night (too lazy hahah)... So we chatted while I
facebooked..we talked abt s diff photos on facebook... Who y what
where.. All ques from him... He was almost dozing off but kept his
eyes open when I asked ques...
Eventually I asked "ub ngantuk nak sleep!"
To which he answered "ub tak sleep mata ub weak!"
Hahahh!! I really do not know where he get that from..
So I told him "nanti ibu sedih mcm mana? Nanti ibu sorg" n he replied
"ibu jgn sedih la mata b weak lar!"
This ques n ans thingy happened a few cycle before he cried n told me
not to b sad... Hahaha I jus love to disturb him... Few secs later...
Not only his eyes went weak... He too!!! Hhaha

Hmmm so amazed at his ans sometimes!!

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Ub says

Went for din din wif ub n d hub.. B4 reaching home I said to ub: b
Wash ur feet bila kita sampai rumah....

Ub smelled his feet n said: but ub tak de smelly feet!!!

Hahaha how do I xplain??

Father of my son.. N dotter...

I cannot thank Allah enuf.. For the other half Allah have given me...
He is d missing puzzle piece that fits in perfectly to my
imperfections.. Syukur alhamdulillah.. He never c my imperfections as
something that he can blackmail me with.. Or something to bring up
whenever we have tiffs.. Instead he worked with those imperfections..
D thing he said to me during raya.. Touches me.. A lot that I'll
remember.. Time to forgiveness but when it was my turn he said... U r
my wife... For everything u said or did... Hari2 saya maafkan...
Him... D husband n d father of my kids....

The notty one...

Was home today coz I bled again but syukur alhamdulillah everything's
fine.. Must have exerted myself ...

Was very tired.. Left ub wif dada.. Heard cries.. Arguements but I
left them to solve it themselves.. Woke up at 4 .. Showered ub n told
him .. He needs to rest... He got upset.. Cried.. (a sure sign that
he's tired) .. Plead to go out.. I highlighted his mistakes (d
arguements.. Spilled water on d floor n denied...) he was quick to
deny..N said he won't do it again.. I didn't budge.. Told him he was
wrong.. Got ngry.. Threw his dino robot on d floor n it broke..
Smacked his thigh twice (something which I regretted after that) n
said he can cry... I'm upset that he threw his Dino n I'm not
accepting that behavior.. He cried.. I let him express his anger..
After a while.. Told him I love him n that I was upset with wat he
did.. He told me he wanted his ayah.. Let him cry again n told him I'm
here if he's ready to give me a hug.. After a while he hugged me n
said ibu sayang k.. Just melted me there n then.. He stopped crying
after a while.. Hugged him kisses n cuddles... Told him I love him but
wat he did was wrong... Gave him suggestions on how to express his
anger .. Repeated myself n asked him wat he should do d next time to
which he answered.. I'm glad that though he is only 2plus... He is
able to accept rules.. Summarize wat we want n don wans..know wat is
wrong n right(though we still have to reinforce)... In d end midst d
cuddling hugs n kisses... He fell asleep...though d whole process took
time.. Was tiring.. I'm glad I wen thru it .. A step of learning more
abt him n he learning abt me..

My angel... Always b...

Made up...

I like my make nowadays.. N I like to make myself up these days...
Aunties... Cousins speculated that bb's a girl that's y I'm like
this.. When I was preggy wif Ub... I was so selekeh... I was abt 5
mths during raya smother time wif ub n I remembered very well I
couldn't b bothered wif how I look.. Jus lipstick n a bit of blush..
This time it was way diff.. 2 days b4 raya I went down jus to stock up
my make up... Ppl who knows me.. Know that I take a long time to
finish up my powder.. Can take yrs!! But my dior two way cake is
almost finish... Jus bought it early this yr!!!i'm vain!! So
different!! Friday's scan confirms it... I m carrying a lil
Me!! Xcited!! Happy n sad at d same time.. Let d sad part stays wif me
n sen...syukur alhamdullilah.. A lil sis for ub comes feb....

On another note... I jus love my eye make up in d pix:))

On course

I'm so sleeping

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Ayubi speaks

Lion dance

See!! Always doing crazy things together... Sen don mind doing crazy
things as long as he gets to entertain ub.. Well that's what's being a
dad is all abt right.. I wonder how he'll juggle 2 later.. I think he
can manage.. He is such a gd dad.. Today is a lazy day.. Going for
raya visits only later..
On another story.. Kinda worried for my buddy.. Wondering what
happened ...

Raya

Ayubi restless.. Haha