Wednesday, October 22, 2003

Sunday, October 26, 2003
oklah..after so long i didnt update..hmmm been searchin fer weblog layouts but cant seem to find one dat suits my taste...when i like dat particular layout i cant download it to blogger so sien..but this layout i still have to do up some more stuffs...got myself a new tagboard..like this better small fonts...dunno y i couldnt change the font size in d other one...well yesterday i spent my day sleepin n jus bum ard @ home..long cik ida cik lala came yesteday evening so i hang ard wif them..sen n me actually planned to go out catch a movie but sen being him won't wanna go out if my aunts/uncles r here...he likes to mingle..poke fun with them n @ them hahah so we jus stayed home..jokin ard..foolin ard..today(saturday)chatted in alamak met shiea hahah after so long...d first alamak chatter i met wif mariam aka tika/sylphy...wat great fun last time hahha...we went lot 1 chat beside each other at the cyber cafe hahah ..fun fun fun..planned to break fast wif shiea n mariam durong d fastin month..weee cant wait...went JE to catch a movie wif sen jus now...we went to watch 'The Park(M)'...it was nice..scary...and sad at the same time...i cried at the end...d endin was rather touchin..after d show kak wirdi called to say dat she bought fer us a packet of bone steak n dat she'll send it to us...well dun feel good abt she sendin it to us so..sen made a u turn wen teban to collect our piping hot bone steak..woooohooo...got back at abt 11.30..served sen's d bone steak...n jus chill watchin 'meet my folks'..sen wen home...n here i m..alone in front of my pc...mama dada nana n papa asleep..sleepin in one room..me??not yet cant sleep...but will do soon...meeting up wif sen's insurance agent...meetin him @ sen's house..meaning ihave to go his house tomorrow...hmmmm then i have yet to finish up my corners in sch...poppin over at abt 11..to finish my work b4 makin my way to sen's house...ok updates more tomorrow..till then..


Wednesday, October 22, 2003
aiyah so sien man....actually...these few days had been really tough...juggling work stress..emotional breakups...personal distress...siennnnnnnnnnnn...i need someone who can take me away....mayb i'm in need of a vacation...a real vacation that is...not a shopping getaway...a real vacation...where i can jus chill and relax...away from d busy city..away from bloody kuali....i wish sen could jus take me away in his arms...hehehe nah...jus a wishful thinkin...wah end of this mth really need to buy a lot of stuffs...toiletries fer sen n me...perfumes fer us...have to start searchin fer make up artiste...cameramen la n all those stuffs...aiyah i hate doin these things...have never did this...i'm no good at this...so bad at this...help me pls...someone!!have yet to meet up wif annao to look @ her portfolio...one more time help me pls!! hahahah oklah wanna slp...finally got my internet back hehehhe

Friday, October 17, 2003

its a rainy n lazy sunday...hmmm got back late last nite...i didnt watch sen perform...halfway thru while waitin i felt sick..headache...feels like vomittin...my heroine saved me from this hahhaha kak wirdi fetched me n brought me ard spore b4 endin up @ east coast chillin out...upon reachin i got out of her car n jus keep pukin...dunno y...mayb i hadnt eat anythin since mornin n had been drinkin coke b4 that...mayb was d air in my stomach...mayb headache of someones too strong perfume heheh dunno...lucky i didnt stay..sen said it was stinky!! meant..not much crowd...crowd was boring..well his lead singer was a boring man too...his voice is not great after all n he acts like his voice sounds like 'buluh perindu'...zack can sing well...but he didnt..he jus concentrate on his guitar...sen can sing too but he jus...hmmm dunno...he prefers to concentrate more on his drummin now rather than singin...wat a waste heheh...not dat i'm praising him or wat but its jus facts...sen sings well...but its jus a waste he doesnt wanna sing anymore...i heard plannin of ziggies or ziggy playin permanently @ paramount or somethin but talks are still underway...hopefully they get the contract can earn more $$ heheh...but if sen gets it...means i have to sacrifice my time with him...means no more often weekends getaways...wat to do jus bear lor...anyway today....is such a lazy day dat i dun feel like goin out @ all..but sen owe me one so mayb we're goin out fer a movie or somethin...mama papa nana n dada r havin teppanyaki fer lunch now...heheh but i jus dun feel like joinin them...papa's in his so sien mood...grumbling...naggin macam maknenek....oklah hafta to join them outside...dada had been running across my passageway yelling'ARIES PAPA SAID NOW GET OFF D COMPUTER!' comes ard switch off my tv n fan hahahha notty boy...cont later..

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

me so sien....dat freakin kuali not here today..great but i have to prepare fer my curriculum meetin tomorow fuckin hell..might as well i become d head....everything i have to share n she jus sit there goyang kaki...pukimek betul...i really cant stand her..then d other two fuckin news i have in my head now is that...1.during d fasting month i have to take turns wif tini to go home early...n the other freakin news is that i cant take leave on d 2nd dec as she said dat class r promotin up so needs me here..might as well i give her all d leave forms and she help me choose the dates fer leaves...freakin hell...fuckin bitch..i jus cant help it anymore...she really pissed me off..she really ah she really ah she really ah make me so fuming mad!!!haf to do another projecy...n have to share freakins sessions oh my god!!! n i tot only offices have this kind of thing...not schools...bloody kuali...my god i'm so vulgar..pardon me ppl who r readin this hahahha...sial nya kuali...so obiang..so old fashioned...so so watever lah...hadnt been updatin my blog fer two days...busy heheheh busy sleep...lazing ard hahaha...sen's down wif flu...a very bad one..he said hahah but i dint believe him...he jus wans attention hahha..joe n tini so noisy hahhaha laffing @ d PSGs...doin work in my class while listenin to music hahah...at least they make me feel better...i really hope this freakin kuali thing wont bug me down...shit asshole..if i were in alamak i would have been kicked by now...i miss alamak...n d old times...happy times...foolin ard..hmmm now have to b more serious...more tone down heheh...biau kim...wa lau eh had been hearin this lee he chun name fer some time now...funny name like...he lan chun hahah holland v...freak!!wednesday next week is the curriculum audit n i've yet to complete my class...fuck!!!!fuck u kuali ur mouth stinks n u suck!!

Sunday, October 12, 2003

weeeeeeee goin out soon...papa told nana to get a 6108 fer me...not dat i wan it...jus dat he thinks its a great phone as he's using it...i like my 6100 n i never had plans to change it...papa is so kelakar seram @ times..he jus wanna makes us think like him...but we dun...he always want d best fer his chn..me nana n dada...i think dada got d best...not dat i didnt...i did but i jus didnt use it wisely heheh...we got everythin we wanted...jus show him our school results n *poof* there u go...nana told him she wanted a celica if she took drivin n pass...he said ok...jus show him results....well we're r not doin very well @ this moment but okla i guess...if only he had not got himself those freakin mava fungkulos business partners..his business would have flourished continuosly...well its all gods will...now we jus 'bersyukur' wif wat we have...me n sen gonna catch american pie...but have yet to decide where...after a full lunch...feel very tempting to sleep...but i have a date to keep...n kak wirdi asked me to go bowlin wif her @ chevrons tonite...hmmm c how...hadnt been bowlin well...dun wanna waste money hehehe ok dats fer now...

Thursday, October 09, 2003

mama jus got back from jb...nana parading her baju kurung...hmmm not baju kurung more like baju modern...my nana unlike me has a great figure to flaunt ahahha..hmmmm lookin fwd to tommorow's afian's bday...afian is my nana's bf..hmmmm wonder wat shall i buy fer him...mmmmmm mayb go shop fer his present tomorrow..both of them r so enthusiastic abt my weddin....i dun...dunno y...hmmmm i guess sampoerna spoils yer teeth ah...nana's teeth are like blackish or greyish @ the sides...jus like yantty's...i told nana abt it..she's like 'yeah i know but i like d sweet taste'....i dun...i'd been stickin to my greens since four yrs back...not too light not too strong...i guess i hafta kick d smokin habit...but d harder i tried d harder it is...smokin kind of ease my mind when i in a tizzy...calm me down when i;m nervous...i like capris too...but dun seem to find any in sg...whenever i go jkt n i'll stick to capris as d greens d sucks big time..d weddin is like a yr away...n i have yet to prepare things..sen hmmm he's been saving...hahahha dats all he do....he save i spent hahhaa!!naughty me...hope dis weekend would b great...tomorrow's d party..saturday@ hooha wif sen n d ziggies or ziggy or somethin...mama asked if dada is allowed to enter hahhaha...sunday hmmmm sunday is LESSON PLANS DAY sien...my day today was fine...nath punched clare over a lock...kids...they drive u crazy @ times...we'll b havin photo takin tomorrow wonder how it will be...dunno wat to wear...hmmm...tomorrow will b an early home day....i hope!! then can prepare fer d party!! ok wanna slp...tired lioa...adios purtanas heheh...i'm bad..

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

hehheheh my good friend came today...much to my annoyance...stomach cramps...havin a stupid briefin on firedrill in a while...ok finish my briefin already...tomorrow not goin tamp...hmmmm still dunno if should i go tuition tonite...sen said he could only fetch me @10.30pm later but i dun wan...dun wan to stay there long after wat had happen...sen goin jammin @ alvrons...hmm so sien...my chn were good today...i think i must stop bloggin during workin hrs hehehhe dis hafta stop...i hadnt been doin work during lunchtime....meddlin ard wif my blog...hmmm mus save $$...so tempted to go tuition by cab today...i read anna's blog...seems so sad...it's sad to lose someone n if dat someone plays an important role in ur life...its even sadder still...i felt it too...but i guess mine wasnt as bad as anna's...he's her fiance...mine is jus confidante so she went through a worst patch than me...stay strong anna...like u always did...

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

i felt so loved...i mean in my dream yesterday...not dat nobody loves me hahahha but d feelin in my dreams yesterday were so differen...FINALLY i manage to get to my archives hhahhah well well...i'd been spendin lots of time on d internet sey... went tampines jus now...sen didnt pick me up...it was rainin....so i hailed a cab n endured a rocky ride...that made me wanna puke...mama's talkin nonsense...i refuse to pay any attention to her words hahhaa how bad can i b...sen goin to madi's house to send somethin...dunno wat...well...i ate dis karipap papa bought yesterday n now i'm havin dis queasy feelin in my stomach..tomorrow got tuition...sen insisted i tag along to alvrons or sth to watch him jam...but i jus aint haf d mood to..dis aint my wk...dunno y its not...my day today??was ok lah...mus cut down on my hp usage hhahah..hmmm have yet to finish my project in sch...okla...no mood to cont...mayb tomolo...til then..
rachel's back today...brought me a qute shiny penguin magnet from goldcoast...she's noisy as ever...sien...ten minutes more...then d centre would b as noisy as d pasar...i had a dream last nite...dreamt of tion...d dream was like real...d feelin was jus so...in my dreams he said he would b there whenevr i need him..whenever i'm in trouble...jus whisper my troubles to him...n he'll b there helpin me...he held to my hand...gave me a peck on d forehead n *pooff* gone...dats when i woke up...blur...miss him...yes i do...cant deny dat...it has been a yr plus...but deep inside he's never forgotten...i was angry wif my uncle yesterday...actually made me feel sad about his remarks..hmmm cont later dat someone come out..

Monday, October 06, 2003

well well...my weekend was fine...fri i went out wif yantty...fazlie...badut ...n sen...went newton fer our dinner...had seafood...it was great!!after dat after much discussion we went mustafa fer our midnite shoppin...me yantty n badut opted fer d cab while d guys took a ride..it was an ok trip to mustafa la...hmmm smell 'wonderful' hahaha...like usual sen was like...'quick quick...' so i didnt actually njoy much shoppin...d perfume section was really temptin...its like shelves n shelve n more shelves of perfume...wanted to grab a few bottles hahha but refrain from doin so when i calculated d difference in buying @ mustafa n from ana...ana passed me d hugo motion...dunno y d smell seems stronger than b4...feels like passing it to sen...i think it suits him better...on saturday went fer sani's weddin but didnt manage to c him there...after dat went to alexandra hospital...madi was admitted as he fainted @ work...sen's parents were worried sick...hmmmmm....watched underworld dat nite...sen thought the show's a blast...i think its ok ok only....i mean dun these ppl have any other things to write about...wolves n vampires...so funny ehhehe...lucky didnt go chalet dat saturday..joelle said it suxs...she didnt go on saturday but on friday..she said s was like fuck..n her d other half was no better...hahahah dats y they compliment each other so well..hehheh jas was angry wif s...fer her fucked up behavior...hmmm dunno wat to say...sometimes s is jus a fucked up freakin bitch who thinks too highly of herself...mayb one day someone should bring her back to d ground than letting her floatin aimlessly in her fuckin world...oh my gawd...hehhehe cant help it hehhe...she deserves some cursing...mayb should do it to her face....well d time will come ....hehehhe...i'm jus glad i'm not in d same centre as she is now....i dare not think of what would had happened if i were there...anyway someone's anygry wif me but dunno y...mayb becoz of some jokes dat i made...dunno lah...i dun live to please ppl...i said sorry but..it fell on deaf ears...wat m i to do then??Om reprimanded us (me n sen) yesterday..fer not goin fer the kursus rumahtangga earlier...he said we take things too lightly heheh right!!he talked to sen about planning n alll these things abt marriage la...sen kanchong heheh...fer me??i jus take things easy la but i think have to put that kursus thing in my schedule.....marriage...its sounds scary...ok hafta go to my tuition...cont later..

Thursday, October 02, 2003

me@work....another sien day...clare's here n he had been talkin non stop...much to my annoyance...today goin fer my ritual session @ tamp. dunno if sen would fetch me or not...i dun care...feelin sore wif him...he sent me 3 smses last nite dat left me ponderin...is it worth it?i'm so fed wif him @ times..sometimes i jus felt dat he's really testin my patience....was once when i had dat empty feelin...d dun-care-wat-u-do feelin...it was really scary...it was like i dun care if u do this...i dun care if u do dat...i dun care if u dun meet me...i dun care if u dun call or sms me...this nath is really driving me up to d wall..dunno if his medication is workin or not...dis 'PR officer' in my centre is another fucked up human being..everythin must go her way...knn...back to sen...he has his own fair share of good and bad points...sometimes its really annoying!!!i still remember tion's advice...'must think about the whole situation and see if its worth the while what u r doin'......ok...next...was @ cik eda's house yesterday when she showed me her new perfume....dunhill desire...for woman...then only i remembered mama bought it for me last yr for my bday...but i ahf yet to use it..got home n told mama abt the perfume was against the idea of me using it as i have lots of other perfumes that i have yet to finish ahhaha..i'm a perfume freak!!ehhehe anyway watever mama said...i still went wif the idea of using it n i regretted hahahah i dun quite like the smell....kept sneezing the moment i put it on...cont. later...nath throwin tantrums...

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

me still @ work....chn's day celebration today...so no lesson today ehhehe...i behaved like a kid today dunno y hahaha...was so reminded of my primary skool days where every chn's day i will b showered wif presents hehehe...well those were the days...got tuition today...after dat dunno where to go...craving fer sushi...i have cravings for that particular thing every wk...it will be either sushi or tim sum hehehe bought for nabilah and khairul this esprit t shirt....real cute..wanted to buy fer dada as well but no size...all too big...Pay day today hehhe but its also to pay day hahah....hmmm has smsed me to ask if i'm goin fer sonia's chalet...told her not goin...hmmmm jo's not goin too...sometimes i think having fren like dat ___ is a blargh...didnt expect her to treat us this way after all d support n encouragement we gave her during the darkest days..well sometimes what can u expect...from a person like ____....nothing to say ah...headache..still haven confirm wif shasha abt our 'outing' this friday hehehe...may friday fri or saturday but me sen goin out wif yantty on saturday so...mayb our 'outing' will be on d friday lah eh...hmmmm dunno y this sen is so sensitive today....he smsed me n when i didnt reply him as fast like norm...he start askin if i'm angry...hmmm somethings fishy hahahha...ok everybody's gone home...left me n tini messing ard wif our pcs...hehhe...scratched my phone's glass screen last nite...should have listened to ibu n put it in d plastic casing but it looks so blargh....yeah yeah tomorrow's thursday soons its weekend!!hopefully theres no courses to attend this saturday or my saturday will b burnt!!ok dats all fer now...i wanna bloghop..heheh oh yeah have yet to reconnect my internet heheh..