After a while

Hadnt been writing..
Neither here nor multiply..
My vocab, grammar.. sentence construt..my tenses.. all haywire..
I would love to write again.. this time.. include Ayubi in my writings...
My darling..lovable son..
SOon..shall do all this soon..
Here is where i feel more comfortable ranting..d blogspot..

D day we shopped...

Hmmm hmmm
today Ayubiand me keluar kandang..
We went shopping @ Vivo!
Lucky Ayubi really lucky...
Jus like Uncle Dada...
Haven finish shoppin tho..
still have more stuffs to get..
For me!!!
For Yubi jus a diaper bag fer his neccesities and a grobag..for his kicking antics!!hehe

This is d yr i 4got...

...about u..
i was so caught up wif my own stuffs...
i wasnt well..i was still recovering from my op...
i even forgot dat it was my bday..mayb its time to move on...
though i still wish u were here.. wif us..wif me.. frens..and share d moments
that i go thru..
getting engaged..gettin married..giving birth.. d ups n downs in life...
i still miss ur 'menthol eh and rocher!'

and so a year ago

2IN1

Hey u..
Today is our day..
Guess how much i miss u..
Guess how much i had been thinking of u
Guess how much i talked about u..
Guess what i had been doing for d past 5 yrs..
5th year n still counting
The same old routine...
Tears b4 d joy of being a yr older..
Every Apr 14th..
U remind me.. d day my mum brought me to this world..
N d day u left us all..
So sad so sad
I miss u.. i always do..
I thought abt u.. i always do..Sen can vouch for dat..
I talked abt u..
N i'm always reminded of u..
One small marlboro menthols n rocher pls...
Is enuff.. for me from u..
No complains.. remember??
Al-fateha for u..
Till we meet..

@ d end of d rainbow..smiling @ me

And so after waiting with bated breath for 10months...our lil prince have arrived...

dos headaches

..@ work..
..in pain..
..my head's throbbing..
..it doesnt help that..
..i'm doin d 7 closing today..
..ouch...ouch..

My Heart

I jus wish i could hug u when u break d news to me..
can u believe it.. it's 10 years beb...
i remember when i broke d news to u yrs back that i;m gettin engaged n u turned to d x and asked "when u wanna marry me?" when i told u i'm gettin married u asked when's ur turn.. n now it finally came.. ur turn!! ur turn to be beautiful bride..d queen fer d day...

d times we had were jus priceless... we would 'mata mata' and take a cab down from bt panjang.. to bt batok n then to ghim moh... its ok to burn our pockets jus so that we get a few more minutes of sleep..

remember all those puppy loves.. that black n yellow hornet.. d cabut skool series and watch movie pagi2 buta jus to kill time.. loan my sis clothes to cabut coz u cant fit mine..those Miss Ann Miles crazy classes.. we were both always neck to neck wif d lang but u always did better than me..those quadrangle days where we had to stand in d hot sun.. only GummiBear n fren would come n sympathise with us..

Glen.. remember him?? hahah we dated him..secretly hahha u hid it from Badut n i hid it from u...crazy arent we...

.. 10 years n they jus passed like dat..
i cant wait.. come dec.. ur someone's Mrs..
..n its d start of a new book rite??remember??..'
..memories of yesteryears..d ups n downs we had..we fun n laughter.. those crazy nites..days @ sch.. i'll never forget them.. they are always....
in... My Heart...jus like d rest of d memories..wif d rest..

Hormones??

(Now) I Don Like
-perfumes (hafta use mild ones like bvlgari green tea or happy ones like clinique)
-cigarrete smells especially in my toilet (looks@ Nana)
-lotion (hafta change body lotion every month as i get sick one d smell n will puke when keep using the same one)
-all kinds of smell(be it BO, mouth or food smells.. make me wanna puke..now have to carry vapex wif me and a plastic bag if i were to puke...)
-long bus rides (will end up puking)
-rice (normal white rice.. d smell turns me off n a plate of white rice make my stomach churn)
-wearing skirts (i'm a trackpants and t shirt person now.. must be very comfortable if not i wont leave home)
-eating (when i am d type of person who ENJOYS food)

hmmm thats d list i have now...
pls i hope this is all jus a while coz its really very uncomfortable when i am this cerewet kinda person now.. its so not me.. so tiflun behave k in a few more months to come...

k sleeping time...

New happenings
..had been a while...
2 months done..finished my first prac and waitin fer d second..missin d kecoh girls @ skool.. will be meetin them soon in sept..
life's less busier now..
changes.. changes..changes...

we'll c u in april07 tiflun...
yes we will!!

Disappointments in life can b very disheartening

I miss d old 'us'.....
JB family late dinner trips wif us foolin ard in d car.. d 5 of us n Papa n Mama would jus look at us..happy that we are 'family'...but i guess it wasnt jus mean to b...one left..for years u were a part of d fam.. n when u left.. a part of us left wif u...

d new one came along..we kinda welcome it.. but it wasnt d same... it was awkward.. i dunno y i felt this way.. i guess its not fair.. i should have let d new show what he is capable of.. but i dun wan.. i wan d old one still...but we have to respect ppl right.. so i jus played dumb..

in me.. i still wan d old one.. d one who was a part of our life..

i guess sometimes .. its jus not meant to be...

sorry i jus have to let it out.. its eatin me inside..we're missing u fian...

Syukur

Syukur...
For d family who stood by me in all right or wrong decisions...
For d mama n papa who support me in all ways u could ever think of..
For d sister n brother whom always remind me that i have to share
For d man whom i have in my life.. fer keeping me sane.. everytime..

2 more months n i'm done...



errrrmmmm but 6 mths later may i??


Nana me n Sen hmmm sapa lar nak manage rumah eh...

Yeah not fergetting...

Syukur
Fer having a cute fren like Tin who never fails to cheer me up..
Fer having an annoyin sup.. Like NG..

Syukur ya Allah Syukur...

9Years

..this must be my fav phrase...
time pass really fast..
.. it had been 9 years.. 9 long years.. we hadnt met one another.. some of them came for d weddin while some were just gone.. like that.. it took that one soul.. that lemah lembut soul to gather all of us together n boy we had fun.. one more time pls...


sec skool had always been fun!!

D Tag

10 Favs..

Favourite Colour : Black..and maroon
Favourite Food : kuey tiaw goreng mama mata lembu..gerek!
Favourite Song : Any songs sung by my idol..Sen..
Favourite Movie : Young and Dangerous 1-10
Favourite Sport : rollerblading.. but slack already coz someone dun wanna replace my old blades..
Favourite Day of the Week : Wednesday! coz its midwk.. midwk always cheer me up.. coz i know wkends' coming!
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour : cinnamon ad chocolate
Favourite Car Model : Toyota Rav4
Favourite Subject in School :English during priamry sch Literature during sec skool n a's..
Favourite Snacks : wheat crackers dipped in hot cup of milo OR.. roti bakar wif margarine..(mana tak lagi gemuk eh!)



9 Current..

Current Mood : sien.. coz have to stay home..another burnt wkend..
Current Taste : Milo.. jus had a cup of milo with wheat crackers!!
Current Clothes : very VERY comfy green pullover..
Current Desktop : pink background.. pic of Dada n Syir in d car.. pretending to drive...
Current Toenail Colour : henna stained
Current Time : 825pm
Current Surroundings : in d bedroom.. wif Dada air con n tv blasting..
Current Annoyance(s) : itchy throat and that stupid phlegm that refuse to come out..
Current Thoughts : why does channel 5 have no other interesting shows... just reruns...



8 First(s)..
First Best Friend : Shahril Nizam from kindies... his Mama n my Mama r good frens so we r always together.. n last time his Mama n my Mama actually paired us up.. so called la.. me wif him n Nana wif the bro hahaha
First Crush :Yazid Kelana Salim.. during pri skool..our dads r frens but we don talk to one another anymore after an incident in skool....
First Movie : in a cinema? beethoven.. with my Cik Lala n Cik Akob Syasya Wawan n Nana
First Piercing : when i was 3..
First Lie : cant remember really.. but i know i lied when i told Mama i have remedial classes but only to come to sch early to help d makcik buang2 sampah clean the classrooms.
First Music : Papa n Mama n Ush's old retro songs that they always blast at Mak's house
First Car : Papa's Daihatsu when i was 6..ours? TJ ..
First Real Date Venue : hmmm East Coast .. during a sch gathering..hahaha



7 Last(s)

Last Drink : milo...
Last Car Ride : just now.. to Cik Tipah's bro's house to melawat..
Last Movie : X-men 3
Last Phone Call : hmmm Cik Ida d usual updates on my baby Syir
Last Song Played : Buttons by Pussycat dolls
Last Food Ate : sucky chicken chop @ Teh tarik..
Last Thing I do before I go to sleep : set alarm clock ..call sen if he's on nite shift.. said gd nite..sleep..



6 Have You Ever(s)

Have you ever dated one of your best friends : hmmm just going out rite.. yeah..
Have you ever broken the law : sch law yes!
Have you ever been arrested : hmmm was detained but not arrested.. bcoz naik motor that has modifications .. hmm heheh but not Sen's lar..
Have you ever skinned dipped : nope!
Have you ever been on TV : yes!mat yoyo.. joined d game wif uncle..
Have you ever kissed someone you didn't know : yes!! d cutie tods in my sch!!



5 Things You Are Wearing.

engagement ring
undies n
pullover
hmmm
hmmmm



4 Things You've Done Today...


went melawat..
lunch date wif sen..
listened to lecture from Sen
eat my meds..





3 Things You Can Hear Right Now ...

the tv
Mama telling Dada to stop saying that he's hungry coz he jus had his dinner and he's hungry again..
the aircon..



2 Things You Can't Live Without ...

Mokhsen
Zainal family



1 Thing You Do When You Are Bored ...

Sleep...



5 Beautiful Peeps to Carry On The Game :
LADYLEE
DADHA
SALINA
AISAH and
TINIBEAR

ok i'm done..

My Favourite n Most Loved Boy

It's his gettin older day today..n yet he's away at work while i jus got home from sch..work again tom.. so only sunday then..hapi bday..
many many loves

from me!

Still drowning

Dear Twinkz,
As much as i want to do your tag.. unfortunately i cant...
Currently i'm drowning in articles on breastfeeding..teething..childcare...
lps..evaluations.. assignments.. pracs..
n of coz i miss u guys.. dunno when we can meet.. my sats n suns r jus filled wif jemputans jemputans n more jemputans.. home home n more home..rest rest and more rest..

Love,
The tubby one

Suffocated
..i m drowning in piles n piles of papers!!..
..70plus plus of observations to fill in..assignments.. household chores..
..personal time.. arghhhh!!tired..now 10 mins to 1 n i'm doing laundry plus observations!!jus filling in .. by hand some more!!!..
..ng i'm drowning!! help!!

Love Hate Relationship

I have a love hate relationship with this person..
a gal to be exact..
mayb i'm jealous becoz she's younger than me
mayb bcoz she looks so much better than me..
has a great figure which i don have!!
who is cleverer than me..
who is a neat freak!!
who shops more than me...
who has a 6 door wardrobe(from the floor to d ceiling) full of nice nice clothes.. n plus her four drawers
who has a few racks of shoes!!!(every month beli kasut..not 1.. can be 3 per mth or more!!!)

but still.. i love her.. we do quarrel..we fight!!hmmm i think when we were young...
n whenever we quarrel ..guess who cries.. ME!!!! she'll jus buat bodoh..

this entry is so so so belated.. but i hope .... YOU LIKE IT BULU KAMBING!!!

Our Bulu Kambing Mine Mama's Papa's Dada's n Sen's
Happy 21st Birthday!!

Thirdly

..i dunno how u do it.. but u made me pissed at one point but at another u made me all warm n fuzzy inside.. thank u ah..

sometimes i wonder to myself.. how come u can stand all this nonsense from me but no one else?? best la.. ur alwways d best...


i had a hmmmm bonding time wif Dada d Golden Boy of d family.. who Papa calls 'My Boy'.. who's spoiled rotten.. whom i cant stand.. coz mayb we r SOOOOO alike... Sen says we are mirror image only that i'm d female n he's d male version.. n so we had a bonding session jus now.. n i jus realised that my Dada is growing up.. VERY WELL... n i teared when i saw d things he did jus now.. n i teared again when i was sharing this wif Nana n Mama...n nearly teared again when i shared wif Sen..i've been too busy minding other ppl's child that i fail to c Dada...pls don grow up too fast... ur still and will always be my kaki ayam...

emo again i know!

First and second

Firstly.. i would like to thank d gals.. for d celeb.. tho its a belated one.. its still great..thank u so much.. gals n of coz.. d guys lar..

secondly...
this wk gonna sux real bad.. n i'm already facing d heat... chix!

back to being and emo freak!

Its Thursday!

...by the time i get home today.. its gonna b friday..d Friday where someone's off.. but still i'm gonna b at work.. i'm still gonna have to go fer my class..while he will make himself busy wif d hmmm crooners?? so will i chill wif Syasya Suria Jo n Kris?? while someone croons till early morn??
Hmmm.. i shall b d good one this time.. i'll go home.. pack some stuffs.. wash.. clean.. n wait till he come home..yeay.. a great wk so far!

fly fly far away...

Graduation?

..coming??..guess soo...
n i'm gonna miss these ppl who made nite sch enjoyable..
tho some of them sux to d core..
d rest r great..
jus as i'm startin to njoy all this.. its gonna b back to square 1..


so far so gd.. things r great so far...

Pictorials




d week was great!!
Lets have another gd week!! i can feel it in my hip bone!!

Week

LETS MAKE IT A GD WK!


Thurs
Sasha Suria Kris Jo Glen Angel Alfred crazy shakira hips dont lie plain water wild wallabies friendly wallabies sweat plain water 7up carnaval ricky martin d jealous gf platform broken glasses taxi ride Nana home sister talk sleep

Fri
met Tin sweat work Shafiq's place cute Uu karaoke home Mak's house Ana KL home

Sat
Tin Camden Medical JP sweat home sleep BBQ home

SUn
Tin woodlands sweat work late lunch home sleep triple x chit chat sleep

Its a dog eat dog world

*We

sad again??
we were jus talkin abt u 2 days back n u called today..
m very sad to hear abt ur latest news..
its like a film playin in my mind..
blk315..
that thick piping lorry ride,
Am.. u endured all those.. n yet this have to happen..
we must meet.. we must..
i jus wanna hug you and wipe those tears away..
u were there when i needed u n i wan to b there for u..
whenever u need me..
or us but pls don shun us jus bcoz ur bog down wif all these..
u have us.. u do u know...
i don wan u to feel lost.. jus like last time..
no more lost moment pls..

those skipping thursday class..

4

i kept looking at d pic.. d 4..
i think i miss them...

*I am

i don wanna b someone whom i don wanna b...
i am who i am n
i am what i am..
yrs back someone said this to me
b who u wanna b n not wat they want u to b..
n he repeated it back to me this wkend..
n made me realise wat a fool i had been..
keeping up wif appearances..saying things that i don normally say..
made myself feel so small..n so angry at myself sometimes..
i don like to hurt ppl's feelings but i didnt realise that..
dalam kesibukan not to hurt person A's feelings i'll hurt B's instead..
life....


hey beb..thanks for that prep talk..u know i need it.. luv u beb

Q time

..its sunday..
saturday was fun.. a bit rushing tho..

Rushing story.
Sen rushed home to get his stuffs fer activation..
Rushed home then to pick me n Dada up to meet Az n d rest..
Rushed to JB to top up petrol..n buy d necessary items fer Papa..
Rushed to go get my Happy Heart..
then rushed to pick d 3 ppl under 512..
then off to Changi V as d baby was craving for ayam penyek..
hmmm our 4th in a span of 3 wks?
d rushing story stopped at Changi V..

took our time to eat.. chit chat.. d Siti topic came up again... as usual lar..
had ayam penyek..satay..kerang n otak2..
next wk jb plak la eh kalau someone tak de standby..

today..
pagi2 dah ada memo..jamming session today..
hmm jamming season dah start balik eh De?
normally i lazy to tag but mayb today i will..
nak dgr lagu2 ala pub
feeling feeling aje la eh..


then its family time...

Camou

Sofian,Nizam,Shamkoo.. called d phone..
but owner aint home.. yet
called again..
n d owner was showering..
apa nasib..
they r d camou mates..

we gotta run man we gotta run cited by Sofian

run la kau dari pasir ris sampai clementi..

hmmmm meanwhile...
i've got to stay home..some chores.. KB..
n wait for him..
for our 'merayap' project wif Az Yantty n d hub..
oh plus Dada

whirl

at work..my mind is in a whirl..
there r lots of stuffs to settle..
d date on d 3rd of may ..
purchases..money in n money out..
paints floors aircon..
daybeds d machines from d small to d big
my practicum's coming
i need a break but no SOUND of bonus yet..
hmmm i very disappointed wif the way things r now
more things to do but still not being appreciated..
p's fine d m's a problem..
work hand in hand will yer?
shall we jus work wat we're paid for?
but thats jus not us..

another note..
this wk is goin on too fast.. its already thurs.. tom friday then come saturday then sunday.. i think i n sen got no life..
monday to friday work.. saturday n sunday time to do wat we like n wat we enjoy then back to d whole routine again... it is so ROUTINE!!!!so so routine..
i think..
i'm jus tired..

Gals of mine
..it always happen this way..
i would b thinking of old times n few days later.. 'hocus pocus' i'm 'linked' to the past..
was on msn wif one of d 'beachbummers inc' then she added another n so theres 3 of us reminiscne..abt d old times.. then.. ada gambar lama lar...i like d pic wif 4 of us.. hiding from prying eyes kat tepi tangga.. hmmm tepi tangga seem to be our favourite haunt ah eh last time.. but pics r hmmm blurred?? ahhaha to have that mysterious 'picture' of whose who.. i got a rep to protect..

they r my beach kakis..
they r my taitee kakis..
my clubbin kakis..
my mabukin-in-mornin kakis..
my late fri sat nites and sun morns kakis...
my joget2 kakis..
my overnite kakis...
my smokin kakis...
my gila2 kakis...
gals of mine..
d one who contribute quite a sum.. of d old clubbin days..
now semua dah relak one corner.. rite??

HRC

Happy Bday Aries!
its been years down the road since your hrc celeb .. now .. we've all reach our diff chapters in life ..
so may all your wishes cum true .. and here's my baby dusts for yaaaa ...
thanks for coming just now .. but sad .. you miss the musical fountain! ahah!!
Happy 25 AriesSentoL
mommi & daddi Adyan | 04.14.06 - 9:07 am | #



hmmmm msg from Adyan's Mummy certainly brought memories of yesteryears.. back again..
That HRC birthday party was a BLAST... can i say that again.. it was a BLAST....funny and somewhat impossible as it might seem.. i still have presents from that yr.. d glow frame from d g@ydiv@s..dat bracelet from Reeno those birthday cards from Kunta n Maggi_69..d necklace from Masmerah..n the free entry to HRC from Abg Jedi no less.. eheheh..
we shaked bon bons..we did d latino we did that up n down thingy which Aisah n Leyna tot me.. we grooved.. jived... we literally rocked Hard Rock lah that nite.. how can i forget.. but now.. we r at diff. chapters..like wat Aisah said.. i tot after d weddin i could like.. still jump n jive jus like last time.. but hmmm i think i was wrong la..coz it jus stopped.. hmmmm i think d experience of being married to Sen jus slowed me down.. or mayb i think i had enuf..tired of d whole dancing..jumping jiving ..mabuking scene.. n till now.. we (Me n Sen) haven look back since.... tho we sometimes blare d speakers and dance in d bedroom...tho we still do berasap wif JB cigs.. n Sen still get his dosage of 'ala pub' scene during his jamming sessions.. it stop at that..but still i thank d ppl who had made d memories of clubbing n gila2 fun..n of coz memorable..i still do miss those time.. n when i do.. i dance to d mirror of me..

gila tak??gila eh..

i think i've come to a kesedaran of why i am in this life

Ernz

Damai Seafood

Adyan

2IN1

Hey u..
Today is our day..
Guess how much i miss u..
Guess how much i had been thinking of u
Guess how much i talked about u..
Guess what i had been doing for d past 5 yrs..
5th year n still counting
The same old routine...
Tears b4 d joy of being a yr older..
Every Apr 14th..
U remind me.. d day my mum brought me to this world..
N d day u left us all..
So sad so sad
I miss u.. i always do..
I thought abt u.. i always do..Sen can vouch for dat..
I talked abt u..
N i'm always reminded of u..
One small marlboro menthols n rocher pls...
Is enuff.. for me from u..
No complains.. remember??
Al-fateha for u..
Till we meet..

@ d end of d rainbow..smiling @ me

*End of d painful wk

.. d wk wasnt so painful after all.. wif d many happenings on Sat n Sun itself.. it was ok.. sch drained me out work too..
Saturday
it was great..yet another fam gathering fer d apr babies.. or should i say BIG babies.. we had bbq@ Ibu's place.. it was riot!! d usual makcik2 kecoh lar .. Ibu fried kuey tiaw n noodles..Mama bought d barang2 bbq Cik Eda agar2 Cik Rama yong tahu stuff Cik Ya hmmm i forgot heheh bcoz there were too many food.. Cik Lala Ayam n ayam.. me cheesecake yg tertinggal kat carpark...
After that we met Az fer supper @ AL Ameen n then headed home..

SUnday
Sen usual soccer match.. then to Pasir Ris fer Shidah's wedding.. then to d woods...viewing..west mall fer some walkin session..errands..home...Sen's jamming session was canceled.. so he watched Miss Universe while i started on d assignment..

This week.. is DA WEEK.. 5yrs since MOnkey Limbs passed on.. 2nd yr wif Sen..but a lonely wk.. d wk wif only me Nana n Dada.. only d sibs as d parents have to do some es elefen project of theirs.. so its jus us.. Sen.. night shift this wk..

sampai ke akhir nanti...

*Yippee!!

.. i was VERY happy to get some es elefen from Mama n was VERY VERY happy coz i know what to spend on wif that es elefen.. sekali..a phonecall from Cik Ajis to inform us on d MUCH MUCH awaited news..by Sunday...Mokhsen n me r owners of a VERY VERY big toy.. n i am VERY VERY VERY happy.. coz its finally ours.. jus ours n no one elses.. but now i'm a bit sad.. coz the es elefen cannot be spent on d tiny tiny thing that i had wanted since d beginning of d year.. instead that es elefen would have to be donated to the VERY VERY big toy fund..so i guess d tiny tiny thing have to wait ..august mayb? oh hmmm Tin Nor n Su care to get it for me?? of hmmm Sen wil u??...

never mind guess dat have to wait ...

meanwhile...VERY VERY big toy.. we're coming to get ya!!

Pain

.. i am in pain.. @1 place
..tin is in pain.. @3 places..
..nor is in pain.. @2 places
..su..also in pain @2places..

pain pain pain..y so pain....
i tot i would get it yesterday.. but i hold back.. coz it wasnt painful anymore yeah!! this wk is a wk of pain.. pain here there n everywhere.. looking fwd fer nxt wk!!

Purchase

I Tin Su n NOr jus bought ourselves something which will keep us at the edge of our seat for a month?? Congrats to us huh..$288.. congrats heheh.. n me?
i'll be buying fer meself something today.. an advance for d birthday..
tu la sapa suruh tak jaga diri..kan now dah susah

..ouch..

Maria..Maria..

...moving to d beat of Carlos Santana Ft Whyclef.. reminds me of hmmm.. d birthday @ HRC...d first time i met.. eLQue...wif aLiyah_x 2MUCH KuNTa_KiNTeY..KiSsy n many more..n most of d above r proud mothers now..except fer thatttttttttttttttt 2MUCH lar..bcoz he is a man akakaka

.. miss clubbin.. hmmm let me rephrase that.. i miss dancing to LOUD music.. real LOUD.. nvm wait fer bois.. then i shall dance all i wan heheheh..

..multi tasking now.. assignment..referencing.. blog ntry n dancing to Santana n watchin 'Dia' its one of those wk.. d wk where Sen is away.. workin..n me.. stuck at home.. wif assigment that is due.. tomoro!! I M SO SO SCREWED..

...hmmm actually i like doing assignment at this time.. i work better under pressure.. but this is a VERY VERY bad habbit...=) hehhehehehe


'Dia' is really really pissing me off...tak habis2 lar.. bila lar they all will be happi?? ish..

..CONGRATS ARIL N AISAH on d arrival of their newborn..i still think Adyan look like Aisah..

.. after visiting Aisah dat day.. we went East Coast wif d usual lar.. wanted to have satay n Az was so craving for his honey chicken..we were doing d norm.. talkin nonsense.. n Sen said.. 'Guess who's that..u know who rite'..motioning over to my left.. shooot.. him again...he must have saw Yantty n mayb wanted to say hi or sth,, but he u-turn when he saw US.. US as in me n Sen..y him.. after all these years.. y him?... l

too much anger doesnt do u any gd

*wink wink*

Hot Hot

Hot off d horses' mouth.. well it had been some time d Alamak gang contact one another.. Leyna smsed me.. Shahlan n Skem msned me.. saying that Joehan Aka _Xzorziz_ is gettin hitch end of april.. akhirnya..kawin jugak si Starplug!!

..without realising it.. it had been years we known one another in d Alamak gang.. miss those crazie times..

Plain

Nenek masuk hospital.. again.. it really pains my heart.. n d rest of d Yahya family.. i hope n pray wif all my heart .. she'll go thru this.. but i know it pains her too.. seeing tears in her eyes..it must be painful..took time off n rush to d hospital after work.. i dun wanna miss chances.. i dun wan to regret.. spent some time wif her.. then rush to sch.. Mama Nana Sen updated me on her condition while i'm in class..d art lesson was a bore yesterday.. n i'm so bothered by my emotions...today i cant go to the hospital.. sch again.. n i cant rush after sch..visitin hrs r over..tom.. i shall accompany her.. i can rush from wards to wards to accompany Nenek n to visit a newborn.. *wink wink*

On another note..
Congrats to Alfian fer gettin 6th.. in d Manhunt Finals 06.. of coz bangsa kita tak ley menang lar eh kalau bangsa diaorg go undertable..always like that pantat!
Njoy ur time in d Mr Spore... hopefully u get wat u deserve..

i look fwd to many many Family dinner like yesterday..

A L
D day was spent.. wif d inlaws..tired.. but worth d time.. catchin up wif them.. Yantty n Fadzlie was @ d chalet for Wak Imah's bday celeb.. was invited but was too tired to attend.. Sorry Wak Imah next time k!!.. send d inlaws back.. then to El-Sheikh for some mint tea n d norm..sheesha.. chat till after mids.. sent Az home...got home n jus conked... pics in my multiply..

*D day...

Sunday Afternoon

D luv's away

When d Saturday was a boring one...

8 yrs ago


..i was 17..fresh out of sec sch.. jus got my terrible o results.. got poly but.. wasnt so interested so i attempt o.. d second time.. @ bmc.. jus shifted to toh guan then.. dun quite like d area.. coz i was so used to BB... kedai under d blk.. if i come home late or even wee hrs.. d guys r always downstairs.. BB gave me dat security that it was hard for me to move..n d best thing was.. my cousin's house is right below our unit.. so..d fun memories we had there.. were jus priceless..but still.. we.. i.. got to move on.. so we shifted to Toh Guan..took some time for me to adjust..was kinda diff.. coz.. A d x.. 2 of his best friends stayed ard Toh Guan too.. so d chances of bumpin into him r higher.. n it would break me if we do bump into one another.. alah dat time.. masa cinta monyet kan feeling rite ahhaha.. but then after some time.. things changed.. coz i met Sen again..n we went out together jus like last time.. we got engaged few yrs later.. wen i was 21.. engagement period.. was fun n boring at the same time.. coz its jus Sen n me n me n Send gang.. were kinda committed to their other commitments?? but still this time made us get to know one another even better..2 yrs later we got married.. stayed here.. till d first yr of our anni.. n now.. a few months short of d second anni.. we're moving.. n that dreadful feeling is back...

i am SUCH an emotional freak..a real sucker..for emo stuffs..
this house!! HAVE SO MANY WONDERFUL MEMORIES... of me n Sen.. those mother-dotter-sister bonding sessions..d time Papa n i had a heart-to-heart talk..d overnite sessions we had wif d whole gang.. d Kunta-Aries-Aisah vcds marathon.. those fooling under d blk sessions.. d durian parade on Aisah's bday..d list jus goes on n on.. those priceless memories...
was cleaning out d cupboard jus now.. n d collage of pics ..jus made me teared.. i remembered.. telling myself "fill all this wif fam n friends.. forget him..".. dat was another step of my life.. steps n steps n steps.. now i've reached another step of my life.. d MOVE...

i'll miss all these.. but i have to move on.. jus like how i did..8 yrs ago..

tho its hard to say gdbye to yesterday
n i'll take wif me these memories
to be my sunshine after d rain
its so hard to say gdbye to yesterday

Down
..was all geared up for today's course...sekali down wif an eye infection la..so Nor had to go..to replace me.. i'm stucked at home..now.. chill a while b4 i start on my packin again...

notes for meself
-clear cupboard------------------done!!
-wash clothes------------------done!!
-KB
-meetin mins n
-holiday plannin..------------------done!! jus waiting fer quotations..


better do all dis b4 d master comes home ...

This wk..

I am sure gonna njoy this wk.. coz i've a partner this wk.,.. this wk would also b my very very lazy wk.. i wont b online as much n i know my work would b put aside fer a little while..hmmm yeah jus a little while HAHAHHA..

Meanwhile.. my weekend was GREAT!! filled to d brim.. sampai pagi pon tak cukup..
no we didnt get to go fer picnic coz Nenek was admitted to d hospital on Friday.. n so we all had to take turns teman Nenek @ d hospital.. but dat was also a great time to spend wif d Yahya Family.. we gossiped ..we bitch..we merepek2 @ d hospital..n we r planning something.. or hmmm I AM d one who is given d 'honour' to plan something.... so we shall c what i'll come up wif...

On another note.. Saturday.. wen to collect my cadar.. then off to d hospital.. then to Queensway for some shoppin.. i plead.. n whine.. n pujuk Sen to get me a pair of new blades.. but he buat bodoh.. so sad... he shopped n shopped n shopped till bila dah sampai rumah my mother in law.. he started to have headache .. thinking of the amount that he spent.. ahhahah padan muka.. so after Queensway.. was off to Ghim Moh..chit chat wif Mak had a light dinner of ikan kembung masak lemak.. then d hot topic.. Nor Asyura... coincidently..Fendi is Nonoi's uncle.. i dunno Fendi quite well.. he's d family fren.. hmm in a way but not too close wif him.. Mak said Nonoi's noyang had been walking around aimlessly under d Ghim Moh blkss... pity her.. must b a big blow for d family...working wif 2yrs olds.. i can picture how cute Nonoi is..takdir Allah.. but its so sad.. takdirnya begini..Alfateha for Nonoi

After Ghim Moh.. we rode home.. chill a while wif Mama so xcited over her new wedges n Nana wif her G heels..then off to Waterfront to fetch anak kita yg dah besar panjang Az.. wif Yantty n Fadzlie... we went to Changi fer nasi ayam penyek.. lagi.. n then to Geylang.. for some sweet sweet dessert..then home..reached home at abt 4am.. washed up.. then sleep...

Sunday.. woke up late.. wen to Teban.. for Odin's baby gal cukur rambut.. she's so so chubby.. too bad didnt get to take pic..bag too small cannot fit.. after dat we sent Oni n Mak home.. rushed to jb to top up petrol.. went home..changed n rushed down to PS to meet some of Sen's campmates n partners.. it was all rite.. after din.. we fetched Mama Nana n Dada from Easpoint n head home..

CONGRATS AFIAN for entering d FINALS of ehem eherem 2006!!

*Its thurs

..masa cepat berlalu..
its thurs already..tomoro FRIDAYYY.. but this wk is a hmm sien wkend.. coz Sen has to work but its orait.. i have MY AUNTIES n UNCLE n MAMA n PAPA n DADA n NANA to keep me occupied.. y ah?? hmmm we might have a very very last min picnic.. jus like last time.. but so sayang Sen cant join us..nvm.. next time k..

work really tires me out sey.. 2008 come quick.. pls pls come quick!!

after work..wen fer jalan2 wif Tin jus like last time.. but missing one tho.. nvm next wk kita jumpa sama dia!!we went JE..surveyed some shops.. bought tops!! n i jus love d tops!! besok macam nak go beli lagi lar!!after dat wen to cut some sueww off.. then head home.. chit chat wif Mama n Dada n now jus bummin ard...

i was thikin of monkey limbs las nite.. n i jus cried myself to sleep.. mayb i was too tired i started to feel emotional n stuffs..n how much i miss Hisham.. but he's so diff rite now..i jus dunno y..

hopefully i dun get 'this' tonight.. i jus wanna sleep it off.. n spend some QT wif Sen tomoro b4 he goes off fer work.. n tomoro nite.. "WE'RE GOING JAPANESE"!!! best best...me Tin Su n Nor... hmmm thinkin of it makes me HUNGRY...argh!!

Its been a while

... Had been a while since we met up.. n so today we did.. but bcoz dat lonaldmclonald came today.. i had to keep d kids busy n resulted in me drained... mind so tired... sorry gals..

..now i'm home.. i'm so freakin tired but i cant sleep.. i think i'm goin bonkers...

b4 dat...

Lyd this is wat i watched d other day.. n i shall share...






k done.. now i have to force myself to sleep...

arghhh how much i hate meself!!!

Bored

This is wat happens when Sen's not ard.. n i'm jus alone in my room... Ayubee takes d place of Sen n she sleeps wif me on d bed...

i'm jus so bored..plus tired..plus cranky..plus sien n many more..

CAN I GET AN ABBEY PLS????

*looks at CC n sulks*

He's so quiet

...Sunday was a chillout day fer d both of us.. i was surfin fer stuffs in d room n Sen was in d kitchen.. i tot.. but he didnt came back into our room for almost 45mins.. i went out n saw him..lyin in front of d big screen..watchin d last instalment of Eiffel I'm in Love.. i jus LOVE dat movie coz its soo soooo romantic..

...at d end of d movie..we jus bummed n bummed n bummed.. after magrib.. took a ride to changi to test the nasi ayam penyek.. good i must say...after din.. we jus rode d changi rd.. cant help it..d bulu roma naik sekejap.. thinkin of those few vids from youtube..U ush Mama Nana Alid Cik Sal watched d day before..wan me to share?? tell me.. then i share...

Nenek's birthday

D one wif d FAB

..yesterday..d zainal household were buzzing like yellow n black bees..
y? bcoz of d new member in d zainal family.. a spanking yellow n black FAB!! y FAB? short fer Fabulous..named by Yan d rapper hahhaha...FAB i hope Sen n Papa will treat u well.. i know Papa will coz he's not heavy as Sen n he knows d ways of manjaing u..

..Papa grumbled when i told him d s#h#o#e#i that he wans to get doesnt cost as cheap as last time.. hmm about 20yrs back wen he was an active member of d r#a#i#l#w#a#y#b#o#y#s..it was only 40 buxs.. cheapo!! now it tripled.. quadrupled.. funny ah how times pass n how d $$ also increases..

..so dunno how.. Papa managed to get an old s#h#o#e#i from an old fren of his.. with a r#o#t#h#m#a#n#s logo.. so we gonna get it cleaned up n get U-ush to airbrush over it..cant wait!!

When d baby stayed

D new toy

the curtains are closed fer now...mayb pen n paper is still better than all this thingamajig..

Ich versteht dunno warum.. manchmal sein jus damit hart, Sie zu machen, wie ich fühle..., wenn Sie denken, dass ich Sie gut Sie verletzt habe, verletzen mich auch.. erfreut bitte nicht denkt nur von sich. .ok... ich habe Gefühle auch!

d after effects

...d after effects aries??...
..poww booom poww again... left right center up n down...
...lagi2 kau aries..lagi2 kau...
..kena lagik..asal la selalu kau so naive macam ni...
..so forgiving..thinkin dat retaliation is never d solution...
..i think dats where ur wrong..sometimes retaliation do help...
.ni xi hen da de pen tan...
..u know wat i think??...
..i think u should go back to ur books..ur assignment..ur commitments.. n wateverhaveyous n jus dun care...
..never mind...let it be...

..now?? now i jus feel like cuddling up wif sen...
..when d ppl ard u turn their back against u..remember theres only one...

....if u keep gettin things u wan jus by opening ur mouth y don u do d same for ur goals??..y are such a MAVA FUNGKULO COLIONI?? as ta ri kat so...

x

..its almost 6 yrs since u left..
..since we met..
..d last being me passing back ur stuffs, bawling my eyes out...
..i went through lots..jus to leave u behind n
...i tot dat affection was long gone..
..but then it was actually sleepin...
..it was awaken last nite.....
....it rakes up d past...
..y now?? y must it be now??..
....sleep again...sleep again...or rather...
..pls die...

..i'm happy as it is..
..wif d someone who tot he's d second fiddle...
.but he had always n will always be d first n d last..
..n dat..i will bring it to my grave...


kekasih awal dan akhir..hidup ke mati

You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next year,


and don't want to talk at all the year after that.
So, I just wanted to say,
even if I never talk to you again in my life,

you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,


I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you.

Dada


..Dada had been wantin his own mp3 player ever since he saw a cousin of ours had her own... Dada being d last n one n only brother always get his way.. if not from me.. it will either be from Nana or Sen... so this time.. Sen got him a bransek mp3 player... upload some of his fav songs n gave it to him... d look on his face.. ah..priceless.. he was grinnin from ear to ear... told him dat... we will take it away from him if he misbehaves or he don listen..very simple rules... n it works... Dada kakak love u lots... hehehe

Is it?

1st day of 2006

...we didnt do much on first day of 2006... attended his cousin's weddin in Teck Whye n went to Badut's bro's weddin after dat.. was suppose to have spring cleaning but was only 1/4 done wen Papa wanted to have dinner in JB.. so off we go ..wif Alfian in tow...

NYE

n so we visited Aniq right...
...
after dat..we went our separate ways...Farah n Naz fer a weddin..Lyd n Boy fer an engagement ...left me Hallie n Momo.. was supposed to meet up wif Cik Ida @ Mustafa..but she told us to jus meet her at bedok... so we were driving pass expo n we saw ....
...so told Momo to go pray b4 droppin me n Hallie there hehheheh ... so chop chop(pinjam eh Hana) shoppin... Momo fetched us..dropped Hallie @ Bedok Mrt n we went on to visit...

she is cute n notty...so noisy !!

..tried taking pics of her so called 'belajar' n every time i tried to snap...she'll go 'tsk' n turn away from me...
then after that..fetched Mama n dada ...

..kesian Ein... not his very active self...
so did we went countdown?? or how did we do it this yr??simple...
we stayed home!!!

We wen..

..visiting today!!!... guess who did we visit??
we went tampines to visit..Aniq Izhan n his daddy n mummi...

will update more next yr k...pics..in my multiply..kekekke

Lyd's

Rozieta's Engagement

I m busy again..

...after d long wkend...n now back @ work.. i'm gonna b in my busy mode again... have 2 places to visit this wk or wknd.. one to Hana's n d other to Nomie's...

..I miss Nom...been a bad bad buddy... kept tellin her we shall have din one day but till she gave birth i've yet to have din wif her... so.. this time i must not disappoint her.. must visit d dear Rian Hakimi...

...next wk gonna b another very busy wk... but shall not think of next wk...
we really need a holiday...
Sen was plannin fer a kl getaway wif his reservist buds plus d other halves minus dat Yan... but d timing is not right...i would love to go ...mayb they have to postpone it to a later date n change d location as..hmmm always kl also sien... bangkok mayb...

have yet to update Lyd's n Rozieta's pics...

24/12

..we r one..

..we r son in luv wif d 'Love Song' by 311..

..it is soo..Zack...

thanks arh YAN WIF D NEW SONY ERICSSON WIF ITUNES...

..suka lar aku kacau kau...


Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you

Biology class n Kopitalk

...yesterday was jus crazie... wif d usual suspects... first we were @ Newton...

..after not meetin fer some time ..wif Farah outstation...n d rest bz wif other commitements..we finally get to set aside some time to meet up n as usual...be crazy... after that we went to Kaki5 to have a very very belated birthday celebration fer.... these 2 ladies...

... we had kopikopi talk @ kaki5...d guys were jus CRAZIE..lagilagi si Wan...
i jus dunno wat got into us yesterday lar.. hmmm apa rush eh... well..Farah's back in kl again... so hmmm we'll wait fer her to com back this sat..so we can proceed wif d BIG BASH OF D YR.. fer us la dat is hehhehe..hopefully things go on fine...pics r in my multiply.. hihihi

Wifey duties

...after a wk of no Sen.. he's back..fer a while as he has another mobilisation goin on later in d afternoon.. so being d 'good' wife... i baked lasagne... n its a success.. one thing abt Sen..he's never choosy abt food... he'll jus chomp down anythin i cook..even if it doesnt taste nice... he'll give me advice n suggestions on how to make it better n of coz lar i'll heed his advices..coz he can cook well yer know n his advices works... lasagne is a bit leceh to make lar..but if u put ur heart into it.. u can do it... at d end of d whole thing i feel so happy jus by lookin @ d lasagne n how Sen enjoys it..

...hmmm another step fer d project independent...

Reservist

..these 2 r my army babes... sen's goin fer his reservist tomoro n i'll be partnerless fer a wk again!! Syir's here to stay fer d nite.. well she's gettin more n more cleverer day by day...we jus ADORE her!!!

dis babey

Its 4.50am

... ir eally dunno wat de hell i'm doin up in d wee hrs of d mornn.. actually.. hmmm i fell asleep at abt 10pm...had a bad dream n woke up... feelin sleepy but i feel that i shoul post this up b4 i ferget... d bad dream... losing all my closest fren... hmmm in d dream... i dreamt of Tinibear.. we were kind of argued n we kept argueing..till she did somethin to me.. hehehe aka 'Nathan's stunt'.. n dat made it worst...imagine workin in d same place together side by side but we don talk... well dat happen in dat dream...i woke up..sat n thought abt it... d feeling is so awful... i dn like it one bit...made me miss someone...

...i'm such an emotional freak...too soft hearted...for all d things she did to me... i fought wif meself abt callin her... wat was i thinkin??? i forgive easily... i kept thinkin to myself...mayb she did all this bcoz she was lost @ dat point of time...lost n blind n hungry... hungry for position.. blind to see wats happenin to our frenship and lost..whether she should choose between frenship or work?? but friendship == companionship...blah blah blah but work == money and money== lots of other tings... so mayb dat was y she choose work!!!

..well actually wat i want to say here is dat... i'd been spendin too much time @ home wif sen..wif meself... or wif sen's fam or my fam or @ work @ sch dat i failed my job as a friend to some of my other friends..who need me @ d time wen they r @ d lowest point of their life n i fail to help them!!! ARGHHHHH!!! some ppl said i spend too much time wif my frens.. WWHHYY?? bcoz my friends r somewhat like my family... i go out wi my friends i go out wif my family.. but i hadnt been doin dat lately.... argggghhh!!!!

...dear friends.. i'm really sorry if in this period of time i neglect u..or didnt spend much time wif u guys... i'll try my very best to adjust my time ...manage n organise my time properly ...

@ this point of tim
..i miss J Tin...d times we had...laffin our heads of...doin work wif tidbits all around...
..miss mariam... n d crazy things we do in sec sch...
.. my dearest mummy kambing...whom i really neglect..i'm so so sory...
n of coz... d yahya family d old yahya family...
..tok mat mak tok ayah...miss dem ...

A wk passed...

...i'm feelin high n low @ d same time... project indepence is hmmmm on d way... things are goin on pretty well i mus say... this wk had been a hmmm lonely wk... sen's doin his late shift n so i was partnerless fer a wk.. hmmm wonder how its gonna b @ d end of project independence... husbandless n familyless hmmmm...

..anyway.. cant wait fer 24th dec... n of coz 20th jan06... y??

..stay tuned...

D Sunday

...well..we wen to sop's weddin after sen came back.. but didnt make it in time fer sam's weddin.. sop n fairuz...me n sen wish u guys all d best..las yr it was ours n this time its u guys! dats wat u said on d dais... now lets all jus wait fer siti n her ehem ehem...pi

Sunday today...

...today we got 2 weddin to attend..one if my sec sch mate..sopianti!! n d other.. samsuri.. hmmm d dot dot dot...meeting yantty @ 1 Jurong East MRT.. cant wait to meet d x schmates..but sayang mariam not coming..workin.. miss her badly..wish she could make it..
..will b back wif updates laters... taaa

Early saturday mornin...

...a quiet saturday mornin..
..damien rice singin to me...
... tears jus welled up in my eyes...
...i dunno y...
.. all of a sudden..memories came back...
..times we had.. n things we gone thru..
...n i tot i'm d worst sufferin one...

...but i'm not...

.....last nite...
wen fer late supper wif d inlaws n stepmum-inlaw(auntie)
..auntie said somethin abt goin kl..fer a holiday ...
..sen said sth abt d sea games in phillipines... n d cebu island holiday starts..
bapak said its a nice island..better than langkawi...
..bapak said mayb we could all go.. fer hols.. on d 27th.. or if not march...
...hmmmm cebu....
....cebu...
..can it jus b d 2 of us??
...only??...

On Leave!

..on leave today...spend d day in my room..tweakin wif d layout.. heheh sleep... coz i had a rough n long wkend...hmmmm..but d day passed very fast n now its already about a quarter of d day left...miss d gals.. wonder what they had been up too.. one in kl...d other one counting down.. n one more baru balik kl...

hmmm got to go..wanna go dinner wif sen..

Monday...
..yippeeee..this whole week... Sen is on mornin shift...so no more sleepless nite fer me... but jus fer a wk only lar..next wk back to square 1..hmmmm this wk will sure pass very fast... hmmm never mind... i shall njoy this wk while i'm @ it... we're in need of a short getaway!!! fast!pronto!on d double! but...hmmm we need but dunno if we have time fer d getaway..aiyah..

...project independent..still not done yet.. hmmm kinda in d beginning stage...hmmm...

...assignment also in d beggining stage...but i'm thankful dat at least i've started on it....

...hmmm wat else??....

..yesterday was d concert @ UCC... i'm so proud of d Fireman Freds...they were splendid!! even tho they were not my form class... i cant help beaming wif pride when they did their performance yesterday...well done tin... ur d best... m sure gonna miss them next yr.. tin gonna b missing them d most... being in this line of work... theres kids u get to meet.. u'll either hate them or love them to bits... moulding their mind... their thinking n all..its a GREAT feeling when they leave they're full of knowledge n stuffs...its like 'wah i've help them'..i like dat feeling... hmmm but sometime d environment plays a part... i like workin here... as i have my kakis here but.. 'someone' kinda hate d idea of me n my kakis having a good relationship... being on board here was a hell of roller coaster ride fer me... i even was @ d stage of depression but syukur alhamdullilah i had a pillar of strength who was behind me all d time... not my hub..but my partner in crime... HARTINI... ekkeke...if not fer her... i wouldnt have pull thru...

...other matters... found out another 2 'colleagues' in d bloggin world kekekke...shall link them up soon...

Flat..

..hmmmm workin the whole of this wk...hmmm thks to d BIG MOUTHS TEACHERS tomoro we cant claim hrs...stupid...yesterday i slept @ 8pm after tong xing yuan...woke up @ 10 plus to pee n then sleep again till this mornin...i've been so busy @ work that i didnt think abt d things dat i haf to do @ home...bad daughter ..bad wife...

..i really feel so so guilty but sometimes i'm jus to pooped to do stuffs man... tired today but i forced myself to do laundry n fold d clothes..cant thank Sen enuf....he is ever so understandin... but i know i cant carry on being this way...nxt yr...i have to do things on my own... Mama's gonna be km away from me...she's not gonna do laundry fer me... no one will help me wif d chores... but ME!! hmmmm i really deserve a kick in a ass..

...theres d concert tomoro...hafta help wif d makeup...then after everythin...i have to travel all d way to woodlands fer project independent..n i hafta work on monday..tuesday..argh!!! hopefully angie chase me home on wed...

...pls let me settle down my stuffs as soon as possible!!!...

Where's d free massage wen i need one?

....i'm all tensed up....see my tired face???class ended @ 10 jus now.. walked to d bus stop and waited till 10.35 for d bus...n i reached hom at 11.15...arghhhh so tired...if only sen's ard..can fetch me..nana punya malas...lazy to fetch me...

...i enjoy bus rides..gimme time alone to think of my actions..my life...d decisions i made..memories.... i'm jus a sucker fer all these lar.. today.. i tot abt my frens.... d ones who stuck to me tho they don agree wif some things i've done... d ones who assume they know me well but they don..d one who love me fer i am.. well sometimes... u may think u know me very well.. but ur wrong...coz even i am confuse by myself.. even i dunno myself very well... friends....it jus a long long story... but i'm thankful dat i've been blessed wif these friends be it d bad ones or d good ones.... coz they made my life more interestin... made me learn abt d different characters one might have.. how painful it feels when ur being stabbed in d back... n how i felt when i unconciously stabbed someone at d back.. how i feel when someone might feel offended wif things i've said n all dat.. but it helps a bit rite... u know a bit more abt me then.. actually i'm not like dat... but its jus circumstances made me behave dat way... its not easy being a human and not err... we all do rite?? well i'm not perfect n so r u!!

....k got to return to my books n iMan... sleep n welcome sen wif open arms... sleepin is a bore without him...

Why this??
..well y this is bcoz... ever since sen n me got hitched last eve of xmas..i'd been wantin to get a new blog.. on our new journey...our married life.. d ups n downs of married life...how happy i am wif sen n d things we go thru together...but i hmmmm guilty as charged...didnt get to so till now... hmm 10mths plus of our marriage...y didnt i continue @ ariesseira.blogspot?? wel i think some things are better be discreet...abt this new blog...its jus gonna b me me..me me..sen sen ...sen sen...fam..fam...fam n fam...so of my frens... d new things we plan fer us... as in hmmm me n sen... k hmmm lets start wif d biodata of us... jus us...as in me n sen???ouh...

biodata

who: Ariesnawati Bte Zainal n Mokhsen Bin Abdul Latif

age: 24 and 25 respectively

dob: 14 apr and 7 jul

add: toh guan rd fer now...

jobs:moulding d young minds n moulding d bolts nuts screws n watevernots of d aeroplane..

first met: Ghim Moh Secondary School 1994

first impressions: i hated d way he carries himself... n he thought i look too old to be in sec 1

first chat: under his blk..me waitin fer my galfriend who happen to be his chum's steady galfren.. d subject of d chat was my age... asked to c my IC as he didnt believe dat i was an 81er..

coincidences: we were in d band.. his section was seated behind me.. tho we hated one another.. wehad to speak to one another due to us always being 'set up' wif one another...

d story: in 1995...we started to talkin by then...i kept wantin to couple him up wif my pri sch fren noni.. hmmm it 'kinda' going to work...but sen.. hmmm he's not d 'sound stead' type... pemalu konon...so he didnt 'sound' noni...hahahha even tho both like each other..i had those jealous 'pangs' but i thought nothing of that...months later they lost contact... n in 1996..he coupled up wif jurida.... another pri sch mate but wasnt matchd by me... but by one of his classmate..hmmm jurida...wasnt really a gd fren in pri sch... her classgals n mine were jus loggerheads...she display sen like her most prized winning...coz he was d bst juara in dikir barat or sth like dat lar...i had those jealousy 'pangs' again...not bcoz she was wif d best dk barat juara.. but y her?? y not noni... then i realise..even better y not me?? kakakka.....hmmm dat crush..made me treat him hot and cold..d crush dat made me do crazy things.. carvin his name...n finally...d stupidest thing that i did... was to coupled up wif d guy dat sen hated in sch... n that resulted in him ignoring me from 1996 up to1998...2 yrs...d oly time he called me was to ask about his sis..i was quite close to ana..his sis...n seem that during dat time she was having teen problems.. n dat was it...he cont to /ig me.. i then...change my life style to suit... Ars whom i was seeing dat time...1 yr 1 mth n 14 days... we broke up... i was devastated..coz i erm...lost my frens... coz i listned to much to Ars n he left me hanging... rite after my o levels... during raya... on valentine day... i was a wreck...mama was disappointed...papa too.... papa was set to send me packin to aussie... jus to let me build my life all over again...being independent n all... but i cant do it...so i retook my o's...at d end of 1998... we met again... n d first thing he did was hug me.. he hugged me...never did i imagine...sen...showing..feelings fer me??....we met @ d band camp..after d hug..he hold my hand n said how much he misses me...we held hands wherever we go dat nite..n d rest is history... we would laff whenever we remininsce... we would tease one another about how crazy we were..

d engagement: 21st dec 2002..it was a simple affair...m being d crazy one... hehhe n d pampered one..

being engaged..was smooth sailin... thos sometimes it was a bumpy .... but..i still find that d relationship period was really teruk compared to d engagement period... then d big day...

d halal date: 24th dec 2004..was all jittery n stuffs hahha...i still remember days b4 when aisah asked if i was nervous i replied that it was 'chicken'... but it wasnt wen d kadi came... n when sen came in to put on dat bangle on for me... dat kiss on d forehead n d teases from his side n mine... if only i can relive those moments again...

d marriage life: hmm 10 mths hmmm...i learn a new thing abt sen every day... i love him...he's a diff man.. from sch time to now... he's a very diff man... i admire his determinations... how he quit smokin...how he started praying from scratch..religious class...more time fer me less time fer d band when last time it was d other way round..sen he never fails to amaze me...i jus ADORE him...

... i think i shall stop at this... more on d next steps..on another day...

...sen's on nite shift again n i really miss him at this time...

miss u baby coma back quick!!

...well been married for almost a yr soon... n we need to work on d next few steps of our life... wat will it be?? hmmm...soon....

Sunday, October 26, 2003
oklah..after so long i didnt update..hmmm been searchin fer weblog layouts but cant seem to find one dat suits my taste...when i like dat particular layout i cant download it to blogger so sien..but this layout i still have to do up some more stuffs...got myself a new tagboard..like this better small fonts...dunno y i couldnt change the font size in d other one...well yesterday i spent my day sleepin n jus bum ard @ home..long cik ida cik lala came yesteday evening so i hang ard wif them..sen n me actually planned to go out catch a movie but sen being him won't wanna go out if my aunts/uncles r here...he likes to mingle..poke fun with them n @ them hahah so we jus stayed home..jokin ard..foolin ard..today(saturday)chatted in alamak met shiea hahah after so long...d first alamak chatter i met wif mariam aka tika/sylphy...wat great fun last time hahha...we went lot 1 chat beside each other at the cyber cafe hahah ..fun fun fun..planned to break fast wif shiea n mariam durong d fastin month..weee cant wait...went JE to catch a movie wif sen jus now...we went to watch 'The Park(M)'...it was nice..scary...and sad at the same time...i cried at the end...d endin was rather touchin..after d show kak wirdi called to say dat she bought fer us a packet of bone steak n dat she'll send it to us...well dun feel good abt she sendin it to us so..sen made a u turn wen teban to collect our piping hot bone steak..woooohooo...got back at abt 11.30..served sen's d bone steak...n jus chill watchin 'meet my folks'..sen wen home...n here i m..alone in front of my pc...mama dada nana n papa asleep..sleepin in one room..me??not yet cant sleep...but will do soon...meeting up wif sen's insurance agent...meetin him @ sen's house..meaning ihave to go his house tomorrow...hmmmm then i have yet to finish up my corners in sch...poppin over at abt 11..to finish my work b4 makin my way to sen's house...ok updates more tomorrow..till then..


Wednesday, October 22, 2003
aiyah so sien man....actually...these few days had been really tough...juggling work stress..emotional breakups...personal distress...siennnnnnnnnnnn...i need someone who can take me away....mayb i'm in need of a vacation...a real vacation that is...not a shopping getaway...a real vacation...where i can jus chill and relax...away from d busy city..away from bloody kuali....i wish sen could jus take me away in his arms...hehehe nah...jus a wishful thinkin...wah end of this mth really need to buy a lot of stuffs...toiletries fer sen n me...perfumes fer us...have to start searchin fer make up artiste...cameramen la n all those stuffs...aiyah i hate doin these things...have never did this...i'm no good at this...so bad at this...help me pls...someone!!have yet to meet up wif annao to look @ her portfolio...one more time help me pls!! hahahah oklah wanna slp...finally got my internet back hehehhe

its a rainy n lazy sunday...hmmm got back late last nite...i didnt watch sen perform...halfway thru while waitin i felt sick..headache...feels like vomittin...my heroine saved me from this hahhaha kak wirdi fetched me n brought me ard spore b4 endin up @ east coast chillin out...upon reachin i got out of her car n jus keep pukin...dunno y...mayb i hadnt eat anythin since mornin n had been drinkin coke b4 that...mayb was d air in my stomach...mayb headache of someones too strong perfume heheh dunno...lucky i didnt stay..sen said it was stinky!! meant..not much crowd...crowd was boring..well his lead singer was a boring man too...his voice is not great after all n he acts like his voice sounds like 'buluh perindu'...zack can sing well...but he didnt..he jus concentrate on his guitar...sen can sing too but he jus...hmmm dunno...he prefers to concentrate more on his drummin now rather than singin...wat a waste heheh...not dat i'm praising him or wat but its jus facts...sen sings well...but its jus a waste he doesnt wanna sing anymore...i heard plannin of ziggies or ziggy playin permanently @ paramount or somethin but talks are still underway...hopefully they get the contract can earn more $$ heheh...but if sen gets it...means i have to sacrifice my time with him...means no more often weekends getaways...wat to do jus bear lor...anyway today....is such a lazy day dat i dun feel like goin out @ all..but sen owe me one so mayb we're goin out fer a movie or somethin...mama papa nana n dada r havin teppanyaki fer lunch now...heheh but i jus dun feel like joinin them...papa's in his so sien mood...grumbling...naggin macam maknenek....oklah hafta to join them outside...dada had been running across my passageway yelling'ARIES PAPA SAID NOW GET OFF D COMPUTER!' comes ard switch off my tv n fan hahahha notty boy...cont later..

me so sien....dat freakin kuali not here today..great but i have to prepare fer my curriculum meetin tomorow fuckin hell..might as well i become d head....everything i have to share n she jus sit there goyang kaki...pukimek betul...i really cant stand her..then d other two fuckin news i have in my head now is that...1.during d fasting month i have to take turns wif tini to go home early...n the other freakin news is that i cant take leave on d 2nd dec as she said dat class r promotin up so needs me here..might as well i give her all d leave forms and she help me choose the dates fer leaves...freakin hell...fuckin bitch..i jus cant help it anymore...she really pissed me off..she really ah she really ah she really ah make me so fuming mad!!!haf to do another projecy...n have to share freakins sessions oh my god!!! n i tot only offices have this kind of thing...not schools...bloody kuali...my god i'm so vulgar..pardon me ppl who r readin this hahahha...sial nya kuali...so obiang..so old fashioned...so so watever lah...hadnt been updatin my blog fer two days...busy heheheh busy sleep...lazing ard hahaha...sen's down wif flu...a very bad one..he said hahah but i dint believe him...he jus wans attention hahha..joe n tini so noisy hahhaha laffing @ d PSGs...doin work in my class while listenin to music hahah...at least they make me feel better...i really hope this freakin kuali thing wont bug me down...shit asshole..if i were in alamak i would have been kicked by now...i miss alamak...n d old times...happy times...foolin ard..hmmm now have to b more serious...more tone down heheh...biau kim...wa lau eh had been hearin this lee he chun name fer some time now...funny name like...he lan chun hahah holland v...freak!!wednesday next week is the curriculum audit n i've yet to complete my class...fuck!!!!fuck u kuali ur mouth stinks n u suck!!

weeeeeeee goin out soon...papa told nana to get a 6108 fer me...not dat i wan it...jus dat he thinks its a great phone as he's using it...i like my 6100 n i never had plans to change it...papa is so kelakar seram @ times..he jus wanna makes us think like him...but we dun...he always want d best fer his chn..me nana n dada...i think dada got d best...not dat i didnt...i did but i jus didnt use it wisely heheh...we got everythin we wanted...jus show him our school results n *poof* there u go...nana told him she wanted a celica if she took drivin n pass...he said ok...jus show him results....well we're r not doin very well @ this moment but okla i guess...if only he had not got himself those freakin mava fungkulos business partners..his business would have flourished continuosly...well its all gods will...now we jus 'bersyukur' wif wat we have...me n sen gonna catch american pie...but have yet to decide where...after a full lunch...feel very tempting to sleep...but i have a date to keep...n kak wirdi asked me to go bowlin wif her @ chevrons tonite...hmmm c how...hadnt been bowlin well...dun wanna waste money hehehe ok dats fer now...

mama jus got back from jb...nana parading her baju kurung...hmmm not baju kurung more like baju modern...my nana unlike me has a great figure to flaunt ahahha..hmmmm lookin fwd to tommorow's afian's bday...afian is my nana's bf..hmmmm wonder wat shall i buy fer him...mmmmmm mayb go shop fer his present tomorrow..both of them r so enthusiastic abt my weddin....i dun...dunno y...hmmmm i guess sampoerna spoils yer teeth ah...nana's teeth are like blackish or greyish @ the sides...jus like yantty's...i told nana abt it..she's like 'yeah i know but i like d sweet taste'....i dun...i'd been stickin to my greens since four yrs back...not too light not too strong...i guess i hafta kick d smokin habit...but d harder i tried d harder it is...smokin kind of ease my mind when i in a tizzy...calm me down when i;m nervous...i like capris too...but dun seem to find any in sg...whenever i go jkt n i'll stick to capris as d greens d sucks big time..d weddin is like a yr away...n i have yet to prepare things..sen hmmm he's been saving...hahahha dats all he do....he save i spent hahhaa!!naughty me...hope dis weekend would b great...tomorrow's d party..saturday@ hooha wif sen n d ziggies or ziggy or somethin...mama asked if dada is allowed to enter hahhaha...sunday hmmmm sunday is LESSON PLANS DAY sien...my day today was fine...nath punched clare over a lock...kids...they drive u crazy @ times...we'll b havin photo takin tomorrow wonder how it will be...dunno wat to wear...hmmm...tomorrow will b an early home day....i hope!! then can prepare fer d party!! ok wanna slp...tired lioa...adios purtanas heheh...i'm bad..

hehheheh my good friend came today...much to my annoyance...stomach cramps...havin a stupid briefin on firedrill in a while...ok finish my briefin already...tomorrow not goin tamp...hmmmm still dunno if should i go tuition tonite...sen said he could only fetch me @10.30pm later but i dun wan...dun wan to stay there long after wat had happen...sen goin jammin @ alvrons...hmm so sien...my chn were good today...i think i must stop bloggin during workin hrs hehehhe dis hafta stop...i hadnt been doin work during lunchtime....meddlin ard wif my blog...hmmm mus save $$...so tempted to go tuition by cab today...i read anna's blog...seems so sad...it's sad to lose someone n if dat someone plays an important role in ur life...its even sadder still...i felt it too...but i guess mine wasnt as bad as anna's...he's her fiance...mine is jus confidante so she went through a worst patch than me...stay strong anna...like u always did...

i felt so loved...i mean in my dream yesterday...not dat nobody loves me hahahha but d feelin in my dreams yesterday were so differen...FINALLY i manage to get to my archives hhahhah well well...i'd been spendin lots of time on d internet sey... went tampines jus now...sen didnt pick me up...it was rainin....so i hailed a cab n endured a rocky ride...that made me wanna puke...mama's talkin nonsense...i refuse to pay any attention to her words hahhaa how bad can i b...sen goin to madi's house to send somethin...dunno wat...well...i ate dis karipap papa bought yesterday n now i'm havin dis queasy feelin in my stomach..tomorrow got tuition...sen insisted i tag along to alvrons or sth to watch him jam...but i jus aint haf d mood to..dis aint my wk...dunno y its not...my day today??was ok lah...mus cut down on my hp usage hhahah..hmmm have yet to finish my project in sch...okla...no mood to cont...mayb tomolo...til then..

rachel's back today...brought me a qute shiny penguin magnet from goldcoast...she's noisy as ever...sien...ten minutes more...then d centre would b as noisy as d pasar...i had a dream last nite...dreamt of tion...d dream was like real...d feelin was jus so...in my dreams he said he would b there whenevr i need him..whenever i'm in trouble...jus whisper my troubles to him...n he'll b there helpin me...he held to my hand...gave me a peck on d forehead n *pooff* gone...dats when i woke up...blur...miss him...yes i do...cant deny dat...it has been a yr plus...but deep inside he's never forgotten...i was angry wif my uncle yesterday...actually made me feel sad about his remarks..hmmm cont later dat someone come out..

well well...my weekend was fine...fri i went out wif yantty...fazlie...badut ...n sen...went newton fer our dinner...had seafood...it was great!!after dat after much discussion we went mustafa fer our midnite shoppin...me yantty n badut opted fer d cab while d guys took a ride..it was an ok trip to mustafa la...hmmm smell 'wonderful' hahaha...like usual sen was like...'quick quick...' so i didnt actually njoy much shoppin...d perfume section was really temptin...its like shelves n shelve n more shelves of perfume...wanted to grab a few bottles hahha but refrain from doin so when i calculated d difference in buying @ mustafa n from ana...ana passed me d hugo motion...dunno y d smell seems stronger than b4...feels like passing it to sen...i think it suits him better...on saturday went fer sani's weddin but didnt manage to c him there...after dat went to alexandra hospital...madi was admitted as he fainted @ work...sen's parents were worried sick...hmmmmm....watched underworld dat nite...sen thought the show's a blast...i think its ok ok only....i mean dun these ppl have any other things to write about...wolves n vampires...so funny ehhehe...lucky didnt go chalet dat saturday..joelle said it suxs...she didnt go on saturday but on friday..she said s was like fuck..n her d other half was no better...hahahah dats y they compliment each other so well..hehheh jas was angry wif s...fer her fucked up behavior...hmmm dunno wat to say...sometimes s is jus a fucked up freakin bitch who thinks too highly of herself...mayb one day someone should bring her back to d ground than letting her floatin aimlessly in her fuckin world...oh my gawd...hehhehe cant help it hehhe...she deserves some cursing...mayb should do it to her face....well d time will come ....hehehhe...i'm jus glad i'm not in d same centre as she is now....i dare not think of what would had happened if i were there...anyway someone's anygry wif me but dunno y...mayb becoz of some jokes dat i made...dunno lah...i dun live to please ppl...i said sorry but..it fell on deaf ears...wat m i to do then??Om reprimanded us (me n sen) yesterday..fer not goin fer the kursus rumahtangga earlier...he said we take things too lightly heheh right!!he talked to sen about planning n alll these things abt marriage la...sen kanchong heheh...fer me??i jus take things easy la but i think have to put that kursus thing in my schedule.....marriage...its sounds scary...ok hafta go to my tuition...cont later..

me@work....another sien day...clare's here n he had been talkin non stop...much to my annoyance...today goin fer my ritual session @ tamp. dunno if sen would fetch me or not...i dun care...feelin sore wif him...he sent me 3 smses last nite dat left me ponderin...is it worth it?i'm so fed wif him @ times..sometimes i jus felt dat he's really testin my patience....was once when i had dat empty feelin...d dun-care-wat-u-do feelin...it was really scary...it was like i dun care if u do this...i dun care if u do dat...i dun care if u dun meet me...i dun care if u dun call or sms me...this nath is really driving me up to d wall..dunno if his medication is workin or not...dis 'PR officer' in my centre is another fucked up human being..everythin must go her way...knn...back to sen...he has his own fair share of good and bad points...sometimes its really annoying!!!i still remember tion's advice...'must think about the whole situation and see if its worth the while what u r doin'......ok...next...was @ cik eda's house yesterday when she showed me her new perfume....dunhill desire...for woman...then only i remembered mama bought it for me last yr for my bday...but i ahf yet to use it..got home n told mama abt the perfume was against the idea of me using it as i have lots of other perfumes that i have yet to finish ahhaha..i'm a perfume freak!!ehhehe anyway watever mama said...i still went wif the idea of using it n i regretted hahahah i dun quite like the smell....kept sneezing the moment i put it on...cont. later...nath throwin tantrums...

me still @ work....chn's day celebration today...so no lesson today ehhehe...i behaved like a kid today dunno y hahaha...was so reminded of my primary skool days where every chn's day i will b showered wif presents hehehe...well those were the days...got tuition today...after dat dunno where to go...craving fer sushi...i have cravings for that particular thing every wk...it will be either sushi or tim sum hehehe bought for nabilah and khairul this esprit t shirt....real cute..wanted to buy fer dada as well but no size...all too big...Pay day today hehhe but its also to pay day hahah....hmmm has smsed me to ask if i'm goin fer sonia's chalet...told her not goin...hmmmm jo's not goin too...sometimes i think having fren like dat ___ is a blargh...didnt expect her to treat us this way after all d support n encouragement we gave her during the darkest days..well sometimes what can u expect...from a person like ____....nothing to say ah...headache..still haven confirm wif shasha abt our 'outing' this friday hehehe...may friday fri or saturday but me sen goin out wif yantty on saturday so...mayb our 'outing' will be on d friday lah eh...hmmmm dunno y this sen is so sensitive today....he smsed me n when i didnt reply him as fast like norm...he start askin if i'm angry...hmmm somethings fishy hahahha...ok everybody's gone home...left me n tini messing ard wif our pcs...hehhe...scratched my phone's glass screen last nite...should have listened to ibu n put it in d plastic casing but it looks so blargh....yeah yeah tomorrow's thursday soons its weekend!!hopefully theres no courses to attend this saturday or my saturday will b burnt!!ok dats all fer now...i wanna bloghop..heheh oh yeah have yet to reconnect my internet heheh..

hmmmm so sien @ work now...someone is withdrawin hahah..i'm happy but hmmm dunno lah...i mean...its hard to accomadate to his needs...mum's a drag....very sien...i actually hate to face her...ibu gave me n tini an ice cream each hahaha.. after this tuition...get tuition money!! ya ya...tomorrow payday...ya ya...but its also PAY day hahaha get it?phone bills...credit card bills...well..dat friday didnt get to go to sen's jammin session @ chinajump...was @ home instead preparing fer my orientation on saturday...accompanied mama to night safari..had a late late supper @ sembahwang satay club...next proceed to the senoko fish pasar... didnt follow mum...instead i took a nap in the bus...proceed home after dat..couldnt slp...read my sis manja...then drifted off to slp..mama went pusara yesterday...i woke up late...ended me being left alone sleepin soundly...sen came by in the late afternoon 4plus.. nana said the story 28 days later was great so we intended to catch it...but our plans were shelved when my army of aunties and uncles...came gatecrashing my house.,...mama didnt cook...n the food from raihan wasnt enuff for my uncles n aunties...my cik ida...keep askin us to get seafood from GIANT for steamboat..after much persuasion from her...me sen..her.,..nenek and cik noni went to get the seafood for our last last minute steamboat..it was great fun...talkin...updatin each other abt life...eatin @ the same time...hmmmmm waitin fer dis haziq to go home..everyday late..sien... n dad sombong some more...well been thinking...if mama starts workin..whose gonna look after dada...i plan to send his to childcare...so he can mingle ard...but dunno wat will papa said...hmmmmm hahhaha ibu is sendin me fer tuition so i need not worry abt travellin from IBP to bt panjang hahaha...anyway plans fer this weekend....hope it turns out fine...jasmine n sonia....have a chalet...dunno where...but i have no plans to go..feel hurt by the way sonia treat us...i mean we r frens...but u treat us like dis multiple times....wat i have to jus sit n shut??mayb not dis time...i plan to go out wif shasha this friday or saturday...clubbin mayb...then out wif yantty to celebrate a belated bday...hmmmmm how i love reliving d old times wif yantty n badut...hmmmmm mayb dats it.,...but i m excited fer my next weekend...hopefully everything will turn out jus fine...